First time in Chastity, The beginning of my journey

You can find the continuing saga here

https://www.chastitymansion.com/for.../this-s-£-has-just-started-to-get-real.42007/

 

I oversimplified. She has been getting the wrong idea about the whole thing a lot. I used the term "vanilla" for instance and she looked it up and took "boring" from it. Took a long while to explain that to me it has a positive meaning. Just means that she's not kinky in anyway, and that's fine. I didn't marry a pro-domme. There were a couple of other misunderstandings and it is Kind of why I stopped writing for a while. We were in a bit of a stalemate. Repeating the same mistakes. Now L is really finally getting it. And I feel like the happiest man alive. Still a lot of mistakes to be made, but we are getting there. Communication about sex has got suddenly a lot better, now she is interested in limiting my full orgasms. By how much? Careful what you wish for Jah!

 

No guilt in denying me anymore, though it was a difficult one to turn around

 

Interestingly, I now think about once every two weeks is probably best for keeping me "good" as she puts it

 

Now...with the psychological effects, which are a combination of her pride in me and my pride in myself, and a lot of other factors like self-conditioning, I can find it difficult to get a little bit hard when I want to give it a good clean. It's like touching it for pleasure makes me feel bad, in the pit of my stomach, when you know you are up to no good.

It feels ok to be hard in the cage when she isn't there, but not when out So cheating in the bath is not an issue. First two days are the hardest, then I just want to push the denial further anyway. When she allows me to come I'm very grateful and love it, but I know I could go longer, I have gone longer, and a part of me wants to go longer. Just did 18 days and it was incredible. I really loved the experience. But pushing boundaries is my kink, not hers... So we do what she wants.