I finally joined! Got into TND back in the 80's when I was in college. Mistress Robin taught me about orgasm denial, servitude & wearing her panties. Even though we split up after graduation, I never lost the craving for all of it. Mistress Lori would call me a male lesbian - and after you read her description, I agree. I have operated on the honor system for decades - but trusting me to 'wait' past when I can is silly. I just can't seem to wait long enough for my wife to get as interested as I do (which is always). So when she says 'come on' its likely I have already taken matters into my own hands. That becomes an argument & mood wrecker. If I could only wait ... she might get interested more & thats a win-win. So, recently I decided to buy a Lori's Device to help my masturbation problem. It is on order right now! [heaven help me] I feel like I am out of my league here ... an amateur among professionals. If I can refrain for a whole week its a miracle! The longest I have ever waited is 42 days. Mistress L-u-c-y encouraged me to share a little about why I am here ... So there you have it ... my story in a nutshell. Somehow I already feel among family.
Welcome to the Mansion. You seem to have had an eventful journey in the world of various kinks. I do hope you will enjoy your time here.
Yes, Mistress. Its been a wonderful journey - and glad I found your Mansion. By the way ... My avatar is a Zero ... it is a reminder how often I will masturbate without permission.
... please don't scare me like that - haha. This is my first attempt & we are going at it cold turkey. I think I have a healthy respect for how difficult this will be - but really, I probably have no idea! I keep telling myself ... there is a bigger goal I am trying to reach.
Enjoy the journey! Self locking is OK, but there is still nothing like giving up control of yourself to a powerful woman and learning, for real, the humility of submission!
DonnaSue ... My wife is my Mistress of sorts - she has a million interests & just doesn't want this to be a full time job. I shared a bit in the 'A question mostly for women' Discussion under 'Chastity and orgasm denial'. Goddess L-u-c-y ... No bigger goal than Zero ... I don't think I could achieve that right now. Once my device gets fitted properly, its will be entirely up to my wife. Since I lost her Trust in failing the Honor System, I doubt she will be very generous ... hopefully it will be just at first.
I know y'all are gonna laugh when I say its been 11 days for me without an O. Really though I am just beginning this journey & anything more than a week (for me) is a near miracle - haha. Its soooo hard to keep my hands away - but I am managing. I am in my last stages of submitting measurements for my Lori's Device so it should be here (and hopefully fitted) by my birthday It sounds odd to hear me say "I wish it would get here already!' When its entirely up to my self discipline to refrain from taking matters into my own hands, I really can't be trusted anymore. While the loss of any free will is still VERY scary for me ... I accept that its going to happen ... and soon. The waiting is tough - I don't want the choice if that makes any sense ...
Welcome to CM! So your wife is aware that you are getting a cage? Is she excited about it? Whose idea was it? I wish I could see your face, the day you realize you physically can’t put your hands on it anymore. Liberation & Despair
Thanks Mm! My wife & I have been married for 25 absolutely wonderful years - we are totally & unconditionally devoted to each other. I got into TND a decade before I met her & so brought those ideas into her life. I think its more of a 'part-time have-fun' kind of thing for her. She goes through up and down stages of being assertive. I am the one who craves this stuff - she is more amused at my interests than she is wanting to be an active part of it ... still, she plays along. So by now you have probably figured out it was my idea ... Lately, I have failing at the honor system so was thinking of Self Lockup to help displace the convenience thats present when 'free'. While Ms. Lori & I have been working out the details - she has been encouraging me to get my wife to hold the keys. I am sure she has her own agenda for that - another masturbating males favorite toy locked up Heck, I'll do better at waiting but I want a 'back door' in case I get too crazy! Of course Ms. Lori knows that and wants that option entirely removed (like I am sure most Mistresses would). Anyway, my wife just decided she would hold the keys - which will turn me into an entirely different beast. The panic attacks are already starting! I bet Ms. Lori would love to see my face when that realization hits too!!!
@El Guapo I hear you. My wife and I first discussed chastity 10 days ago, and in that discussion I promised I wouldn't touch it or have an orgasm without her permission. I am on an honour system, and some days are harder than others. It can be a bit difficult to keep my hands of it, especially the nights when she teases me . But so far I have managed to leave it alone. We decided to order a device and I'm waiting for it to arrive. I totally know what you mean when you say 'I wish it would get here already'. But when it does arrive, the reality will replace the fantasy. It might be a classic case of 'Be careful what you wish for'
I too have managed to keep my hands away since Christmas Day. Right now, some days are difficult & some aren't. The tough days are the ones I wish I didn't have to battle the Honor System. But yes - what you say about the reality of it ... thats a fact! still makes me shiver. I started a new thread under Chastity .... "Putting 'it' on for the first time". Maybe my brother -in-arms can benefit from whats shared as much as me
@El Guapo Thanks for that. I will have a look I started a journal/blog here on the Mansion called New Year - New Journey https://www.chastitymansion.com/forums/index.php?threads/new-year-new-journey.25498/
Glad that you are taking the right road, your wife will guide you and you will be protected from your own hands. Keep on the good work!
Thank you so much for the encouragement! On the surface I have many fears. But deeper down, I absolutely, know this is the right path. I initiated this because I admitted to myself and my loving wife that I am not trustworthy under the Honor System - I do need protection from my own hands. Will it be easy? Probably not. Will it be best? Without a doubt!