Strong attraction to self? - Stronger than any sexual feelings Ive had are the ones I feel when I consider being dominated by females. There are so many components to this experience that I want to try to break them down and discuss. [Solo: I should mention right up front that I fantasize about all this stuff and practice it privately. Im not ready to open up to anyone I know/love with this little hobby of mine. Maybe posting here is a first step?] The question I am trying to answer is why? Why are these feelings of submissiveness and female domination so strong (as compared to other sexual feelings)? Girls (sissies) really now: is there anything else that compares to what we feel when being dominated? As compared to feelings I have for other hobbies, passions and what not, my feelings for female domination are just so much stronger. Sure I love music, feel lust for someone, and get caught up rooting for my favorite sports team. These are primal feelings too. Its just that I believe the intensity is not nearly as great as my private feelings of being dominated by female(s). If I were to describe what I feel when I secretly fantasize about femdom and all that goes with it, I use words like: crave, extreme urges, guilt, lust, rush, panic, anticipation, desire. My heart pounds, my head spins, I blush, I get raging erections. In short I feel many of the same feelings that occur when I get a crush on someone. But, the intensity with femdom submissiveness is so much stronger and extreme! So what is going on here? Maybe its that there are a lot of really strong low-level emotions at work: blush - of putting on some soft feminine clothing; panic - of being caught (yes this is a huge secret hobby for me); guilt - that my behavior is somehow wrong (compared to societal norms); denial - creating that intense burning desire via edging; and anticipation - of the possible eventual fulfillment of an orgasm. I do love the female person inside thats trying to get out! She has a strong will to exist in my life and I love secretly watching her develop. As I delve further into this compelling world that I yearn for, one thing is for sure - Im really enjoying the ride... Any thoughts?