Deep breath. And... relax. Here goes

Covid wasn’t much fun at all but having been for a good long cycle yesterday and seemed to be suffering no ill effects, we’ve declared ourselves fully better and here I am again. First of all, THANK YOU for the lovely messages!! I felt quite emotional reading them.

When we got back from our ride, we were in a happy mood because we both felt well again. We had a shower together and it was nice seeing his body respond to me. I told him I found it easier to shave him when he was like that, and he asked whether I really needed to, and gave me a slightly concerned look. I said we needed to do that so that the ring of his cage wouldn’t chafe. He said that other than having been ill, he’d got used to not wearing the cage for a while and wondered if we might continue for another week or two?

I’d rehearsed this moment a few times over the previous few days. I knew he’d be unsure about going back into chastity. I held it, told him how much I liked to see it responding to me and looked him in the eyes and said that I thought he enjoyed it even more when he can let go completely and allow me to be in complete control. And I said, “You do want that, don’t you?” We looked at each other and finally he looked down and said “Yes”. (I have had a couple more conversations with Laura who told me a lot about eye-contact and how to use it). Taking a bit of a gamble, and still looking at him, I said that I knew full well that he had played with himself from time to time over the last few days, even though he had said that he wouldn’t. Actually, I didn’t know that at all. But he just said, “How did you know?” And I said, “I can just tell” (A little white lie). I said that the sooner we get him into the cage the better and he just said “Ok”.

When I’d finished shaving him where the ring would go and I had rubbed in some of my hand cream, I gave him the ring and asked him to “Pop that on for me”, which he did with surprisingly little fuss. He was clearly aroused now, and I made a point of keeping him that way. Then he said that because he was going to be caged for a while could he please come now? I said that I really liked the manner in which he'd asked me, so politely. I very much wanted to give him what he wanted but I took another gamble and said that I would have, gladly, but I was annoyed that he had played with himself in bed next to me, when he knew that was something I thought was a bit yuck and that made me feel undesirable. The truth was that this was a pure guess – I certainly hadn’t been aware of anything at all! I expected him to deny it and that I would say that I wasn’t sure I believed him, or some such. But instead, he said, “I thought you were asleep.” And he followed that by masses of apologies because he does indeed know that’s one of the things I really don’t like.

He told me that having me dictating when he can come was super-erotic, but for him, it was having me in control of when he gets hard that is much more difficult for him to deal with, even though it is extremely exciting for him (he said that!!). He said that he had wanted to just experiment with making himself hard and hadn’t intended to come but it had got out of hand (so to speak, haha). I looked him in the eye again and thanked him for telling me. I said I could tell how sorry he was and could also tell how much he would like to come now. But I said that I needed to feel that that part of him was ours and not his, that I needed to decide when it would get hard, when it would get used and when it could come and that above all, lying in bed next to me and doing that must have consequences, the first of which was that I wanted to lock him right away. He complained that it wouldn’t be possible because it was ‘too big at the moment’, but I said that there wasn’t any rush and that we’d just wait until it had subsided. I wasn’t really angry with him, but I think I put on a decent show of being irritated at his lack of control, when actually the whole time my heart was racing and I felt completely nervous, thinking that he would just refuse, or laugh at me. But instead he just said he was sorry! I asked him to explain exactly what he was sorry about and although he was embarrassed about talking about masturbating next to me in bed (yuck!), he was also clearly aroused.

I told him we might as well inspect it while it was hard and I asked him to sit on an armchair, with his legs apart and over the sides. I don’t have masses of experience of this but I think men find it difficult to stay hard in that position? By the time I got back with a tape measure and the notebook I was pleased to see that it had already gone down a lot. He looked mortified. I said we’d just have to measure him another time and I stared at it while it gradually went down even more. After a while I just handed him the cage and asked him to put it on for me - I knew that if I did it, it would break the spell and he’d get hard again. A few minutes later, and after some messing with a q-tip, he was in, and I made a nice show of locking it. I still wish the key would make a satisfying click, but I enjoyed the thrill of locking him. I just said, "That's better". And he said that it felt nice.

I lay back and just lightly put my hand on the top of his head and he immediately took the cue. It felt wonderful and I was careful to compliment him. I could tell he’d been aroused too, even though he couldn’t get hard inside the cage.

Afterwards, he asked me how long I planned to keep him locked for and I just said, “Oh, ages!” He asked me what other consequences there would be of his ‘mistake’. I just said that I would need to think.

That was yesterday and he’s been locked since. He’s out tonight with friends and I hope we’re both getting back on track.

Thank you again for the lovely messages while we were ill.

Sal

PS I still find a lot of the chastity captions describe fantasies that are a quite bit beyond where we are, but they're a great insight into some aspects of how My Pete might be thinking. Another thing Laura advised me about a month ago, which I was reminded of when I was looking through some of captions just now, was to understand the special things that are triggers for him and then use that knowledge. I'm making a little list!

 

Hi Jessica, Thanks for the thought. The idea of permanent denial is quite a long way beyond where I am, but it would be interesting to see his reaction, I guess. Some time ago, we agreed with each other that we would look at a load of chastity captions, from the gentlest to the most extreme and pick three each that we liked. It'll be interesting to do that again and see whether we've moved at all. Sal

Where I am at the moment: This.

 

Thank you. You've put your finger on (haha) one of the things I'm really uncertain about. How far does 'submissive' extend? I'm reassured by your view (and others') that it needn't take over other aspects of life, but just in terms of our sex lives, I'm unsure how far I, and he, want it to go. Gradual experimentation seems right but I worry about genies and bottles! Sal

 

This morning, I texted him to say that it excites me that he can only get hard with me. He just sent me flowers! Sal

 

Thanks for explaining! I see, I hadn't thought of it that way. D'oh! Of course we all have fantasies that we wouldn't necessarily want to do in real life, but they might be indicators of a direction. I keep forgetting this, even though it applies equally to the weird things that go through my own mind. I'm grateful for the reminder. Sal

 

And thanks for this comment too. I think I'm understanding now - what you've given are just examples but the principle is that offering him some choices will tell me a lot about the directions he might like to go in, which he wouldn't otherwise tell me. Thank you. Sal.