Confession

I did some forbidden...
I've been locked this year more than unlocked. And only unlocked when we have sauna and shower days. One day kh forget to check if I'm locked, I got to jackoff a little, busy day, couldn't make it. Same mistake won't be made. I'm hornier than ever. I got day off and entertained my self. I took some wife's play-lingerie and got our toys. I tried to have anal orgasm for two hours, it felt good but I didn't succeed. We have several dildos, one too big for her. I eventually got it almost to bottom. It felt too good. I used lots of lube.
I was so frustrated and horny, I used all the tricks, even wand didn't help to climb over the edge. I finally used electric sander to create strong enough vibration and slowly emptied my balls to shot glass, and then I made me drink it.

But this helped nothing, I'm still horny. So horny that I must confess this evening what I did, shame me, I even took pics for some reason. Wondering if I dare to put them in my tumblr.

 

Well, it didn't go as I expected. My activity was no surprise for her, she told that she was already waiting that something like this would happen. She knows me good. I got humiliating laughter for showing my underwear.
We had long talk, and now I'm rather down, I thought that she liked the way things are going and is becoming more dominant. She would like to take step back and stay there, only tease and denial. I have so many unfilled fetishes and fantasies and they will never come true. Se depressing, cage feels now too comfortable, my willie seems to given up too.

 

Yes, I know I'm selfish. Maybe I did all this to receive punishment, maybe punishment was that none was given.

We have been together for 27 years, and our relationship includes all my sex partners. I'm feeling frustrated. She has said that we will try my suggestions, but it won't happen. I don't like that sex goes always the same route, it is boring. I'm feeling so old, and don't want to cheat to get what I want. We have love and wonderful kids.

 

She surprised me After weekend I was ordered to be locked. I had superkinky dreams, have hard time waiting.
I wish we had more time for just us. Work and studies consume a lot of time, and kids too.

 

Still locked. Yesterday I put girly panties on, because they keep packet better in place. I told that I was ashamed from it, and because they fit so much better for me than real men underwear. They look and feel so much nicer and prettier, and I'm more aroused every moment. Cage reminds me from her control put panties remind me that I can easily fit in 58 mm long cage. She picked panties from aliexpress for me to order myself. China post so slow
I hope she wouldn't work so much, two jobs and she is so tired from main job.
I'm so horny now I'll let you see my tumblr, I showed it to my wife too some time ago, if she could get ideas there, she has limited imagination when it comes to kinky stuff.

http://genuineleatherhead.tumblr.com/ comment if you like...

 

Things are evolving. Last night I told that I don't fill my cage so full anymore, she only laughed to me. I asked is it bad if my dick gets smaller, she told that she don't mind. It's already too small, and not satisfying. She enjoys only my tonque. Then I said that I'd like to penetrate her with big strapons and extenders so she would like to try having someones real big dick. She said she doen't get off with penetrations, only oral. I said it's maybe you haven't tried proper dick. She laughed at me: "Maybe..."
I got so humiliated and horny I couldn't get sleep for hours.

 

I got out of cage Saturday. Night was all teasing, I got some thrusts from front and behind. Finally I gave her oral, she liked it so much that she wanted my dick in her mouth too. I wished and tried to cum, when she sucked me but no luck. At Sunday night teasing continued, but at morning she demanded keys from my locked cage. And she had put clean little black panties in my drawer that I had to put on(it was weird to find them washed and folded there, heart skipped a beat). She laughed that I they fit equally good for me. Now I'm at the office, only one thing in my mind, feeling heart beating behind steel.

 

I have begged for release, orgasm, even ruined one, no. I was told to get smaller cage because current is becoming too loose. This is going real...
My dick is only for her amusement, she enjoys my struggle when she edges me.

 

I got penetrative sex Saturday night, well that was not so good that I remembered. I didn't have time to get proper erection when I already ejaculated. I was on my back and wife rode few times, that was that. Didn't help my hornyness... I got nothing on Sunday, and Monday I had to leave to work trip locked.
But because I'm a bad boy, I took the big black dildo with me. Yesterday I had fun with it, and today too. I tried to have anal orgasm with it, but I didn't succeed. Still it was better than normal sex, shame on me.
Now comes the surprise, I was so exhausted after this and took shower, I started washing the dildo. I put on my belly and started jerking it with soap, closed my eyes and imagined if I had dick this big. I started too feel that I'll have orgasm and accelerated my speed. I started leaking and it felt so good. My hand almost got sore but I couldn't get to the end. I felt it long time after stopping, like long near orgasm state. I'm still dripping, brain is the greatest sex organ! (Try yourself!)
And my wife doesn't read this forum. I am submissive but also have trouble following authorities, that's diagnosed All submissive and no play makes man dull.

 

Is there only one correct way to enjoy chastity. If it is all obey, why is device needed after all. If there is no tease, why bother, just take the pill.

 

KH won't let me penetrate anymore. It's all about her satisfaction. Sometimes she tells me to wear heels and pantyhose at home or lady underwear at work. Just for her fun, I get horny and frustrated. I may give her satisfaction other ways which she decides. If I get anything, I can suck dildo or give ass. Sometimes I can have orgasm, but she never touches my penis. She may use wand while using strapon. Some mornings she will give me ruined handjobs, or just little tear from penis.

 

We were at hotel having some fun, we took new pics and she fucked me while I was in dressed and in chastity. It felt nice but I couldn't squirt for her amusement, finally we took device off and put condom on.
I came almost instantly and she emptied condom in my mouth, I wasn't even hard and I'm still horny.