Chastity Struggle - A daily journal

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    Hello Everybody,



    I am quite new to the chastity mansion and I would like to give you an (hopefully) interesting insight in my daily struggle.

    I am male, 21 years old and I am experimenting with Solo-Chastity for over a year now. I learned about chastity on the Internet and I was really surprised how curios it made me. So I started with a low budget plastic chastity device (like CB6000) and I really enjoyed the suffering of not be able to touch my cock how I did before. In my mind it was absolutely necessary to be locked up in the future, because of my porn addiction and masturbation behaviour. The daily satisfaction of touching myself had become habitually and was nothing special anymore. It even went so far, that I had no ambition to touch myself anymore, but wearing my chastity device always got me very excited. It felt like that was the only thing (besides females that I know) that would get me aroused and horny.

    While experimenting with Chastity I bought myself a Steel Cage to get my chastity play on a new level. It was important for me to feel caged in metal and to notice the heavy weight on my balls and my meat. But I had never the courage to stay locked longer than several hours. Especially night times gave me hard times and I couldn’t figure out how to solve them. That was until I read all the interesting blogs and threads on this wonderful website! As a little “thank you” I decided to write my own little blog about my personal experience in Chastity. I hope you can help me stay strong on my way to be chaste and being a good boy. My first Goal is to stay locked until new year (10 Days). If you have comments, wishes or improvements please feel free to contact or write me anytime. I’m open to proposals or chats with other members in the community. I also heard that there are some superior females and mistresses around here. Please help me find my way to a good, submissive chastity slave.



    Day 1

    As I said I am using a steel cage to lock up my meat. The device is quite small but I think that’s just perfect as I want to feel small and inferior to others and especially to women.

    The first day was rather unspectacular. I relaxed at my flat and tried to acclimate to the fact that I decided to go a longer chastity journey than I had been ever before.

    At night the problems began to “rise”. I had several erections and couldn’t get my mind clear. All I could think of was to wank myself or to release my meat from the steel prison. I knew that this moment would come, but I tried to do my best. After some hours I managed somehow to get to some bad sleep and woke up at 3AM with a really filled cage. Because I knew (I read some threads of some other members) that going to the toilet would relieve me from the pain, I visited the bathroom. After a successful toilet run I went back to my bed and after some time forcing myself to relax my meat, I slept another two hours. I woke up way too early in the morning with a very filled caged, some minor pinching marks on my skin and very tired eyes. But I was very happy that I “survived” my first night and definitely motivated to move on! I was never so determined in my life to stay in my cage and get my deserved punishment to suffer and stay away from porn and masturbation.

    Pardon my English skills, its not my mother tongue :)
     
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    Day 2

    In the morning my lower stomach and my right ball started hurting. I showered and watched some TV as the pain started to kick in. I wasn’t sure where the pain came from but I suggested it could be because the base ring pushed on my balls to much, because of my raging erections. Additional to the pain in my balls I noticed a strong swelling of my balls but no colouring at all. To avoid the pain (that was getting stronger) I took off my cage, to relax my balls. After 2-3 hours the pain stopped or rather disappeared. After that I locked myself up again, because I think my meat has to acclimate in his new living area. Enough free time for my p****s, he had to get back in his prison!

    Because of my tired self I went to bed rather early and managed to get to sleep after an exhausting hour of lying down and fighting my cage. As in the night before I had several “growing’s” in my cage but I somehow achieved to skip them by visiting the toilet. In that night I also slept just a few hours and couldn’t enjoy my free days.

    While thinking of the two nights, I have to admit that I had problems to keep my mind clear. I always thought about something exciting and my meat went ham the whole night while I was awake. Of course I would never free my p****s from his cage just because of that. Maybe there is someon who can help me:

    1. Is there a technique to avoid having raging erections or do I have to get through that?

    2. Why do my balls hurt after some random time? I am sure that the cage size and the distance between the ring and the cage should be good. The base ring is big enough to put a finger under it when flaccid. Please help me.
     
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    First, I must say I admire your drive and dedication, I'm not sure I would have had the willpower to self-lock for 10 days at the age of 21. Considering your age and experience level I would say you are doing really well.

    Waking up in the middle of the night with random erections seems to be normal for a new cage (or new lockup if you've been out for a while) Eventually, as your body gets used to being locked, your nighttime erections will decrease in numbers and intensity (Mine have never gone away entirely). Adjusting takes time. Laying off the porn helps.

    I'm not a Dr. I am some random stranger you met on the internet. So take my advice for what it's worth. Any part of your body hurting is an indication that something is wrong. "Why do my balls hurt after some random time?" sounds to me (in this case) like a lack of blood-flow to the testicles. My guess is that your basering and scrotum have formed a "Vacuum Seal" which you can break by simply pushing the skin away from the ring slightly with your finger for a moment or two. You might also try rotating the cage slightly, going to the bathroom, doing some exercises (like pushups, situps, etc.) It will take a little time to learn what your body is telling you in relation to your cage and how to deal with it.

    You have stumbled upon a wonderfully supportive community. If you are honest, open, and respectful, you will find that people here will offer to share their own experiences to help you with yours.

    Good Luck
    BTW, I'm not unlocking before 2020 either
     
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    Thank your for your fast answers Alana! I might change the base ring or the distance a little bit. Maybe it will work better that way.

    But maybe its because there's a little "traffic jam" down there from all the erections i had to fight. I am also dripping a lot. Could this be the problem? If yes, how do I avoid or release the "traffic jam"?
     
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    The dripping is normal if your prostate is full.
    Your body will usually find natural ways to eliminate it (dripping being one of them)
    You could empty your prostate by milking it. ...I'm still learning how to do this for myself, So I well let others respond with best practices and techniques
     
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    Good boy, good luck here .
     
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    Thanks Cumschot;)

    Today the pain in my balls came again so I decided to try a ruined orgasm (I read about that in an articel) while caged (of course the cage will not come off!) to eventually cure the pain. I dont know why, but the combination of a bigger base ring and the RO worked and my balls feel good again.

    I know that having a RO is not good at all, because the concept of chastity denies having an orgasm at all, even if its a pitty one with no joy.

    With my new gained power and hopefully healthy balls I am continueing the jourmey and of course the blog. Let‘s see how the night will be.

    Is the RO a thing in solo chastity/generally chastity or should I keep a distance from that in the future?
     
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    That is entirely up to you (or your keyholder when you have one)

    In general, after an Orgasm, most of us go through a refractory period where our mood is off. Even if we don't notice it, those around us do. The point of avoiding an Orgasm then = avoiding the refractory period if not for ourselves, then for those around us.

    The other thing to keep in mind, is that in longer lockups (typically 2-3 weeks or more) your naturally produced Dopamine levels will be much higher than normal, ...it will start to feel really good. An orgasm will purge the Dopamine from your system (this is what causes the refractory period). So after a while you will have to weigh a few seconds of intense pleasure against the constant pleasure you have been building up for weeks.

    A ruined orgasm will typically give you less of a refractory period. As will a prostate (Anal) orgasm. A milking will typically give you relief without a refractory period (but also with less pleasure).
     
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    Edging yourself to a ruined orgasm is only going to make the pain worse with your cage. Avoid even touching your cage or stimulating yourself unless absolutely necessary and avoid all porn. You are probably dripping because you are getting yourself excited and not because your prostate is full. Also, having too much room in your cage can allow you to become too erect inside and cause pain. After a month you will likely need a smaller base ring so you may as well order the next size smaller to try.

    Once you are convinced that you are going to be OK in the cage, start leaving your keys at work or hidden somewhere that you can't get to easily. That will help with times you are too weak to resist temptation.
     
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    Excellent first instalment. I'm glad you've found us here, I'm sure you will have much to contribute.

    Good work with your first overnight in Steel. Not an easy feat. Make sure you look after the pinched spots with some vitamin e cream and a break as you adjust (Vit E helps healing of skin cells). Just like a new pair of shoes, you and they need to be broken in...No point overdoing it to be covered in blisters and walking like a baby giraffe avoiding the sore spots :p
    Patience, practice and persistence.

    Will be following your journey!
     
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    Thanks to all of you!
    Im glad to have such nice people supporting me.

    I will promise Goddess Wilspoon,I will take this journey step by step. :)
     
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    Day 3

    In the morning I went to some stores to buy some last Christmas presents. As I went back home after 3 hours of walking around, my balls started hurting again in the same way as on the day before (as I mentioned in one of the posts above). I took off the cage and some Ice cubes to cool down my balls. That really helped enduring the pain. My problem is that I want to wear the cage over a longer period to force my dick into a fitting form. It’s annoying to take it off to recover from pain.

    Later that day the pain came back crawling through my balls and I decided to change to a bigger ring size. In Addition to that I received/made myself a wanted ruined orgasm. That was the only thing I could imagine of curing the bad feelings I had with my cage. Of course I didn’t earn that RO. After only 3 days falling back to using my cock, even for this reason, just made me feel bad. But at least the cage was always on! and it was almost fun to see my meat struggling inside the cage while getting edged.

    I can image how a fun it has to be for a mistress to see that little cock fight against his cage while covering itself in cum, making a horrible, sticky mess. But never mind...

    As the night began it was really easy for me to fall asleep. That’s something new, because the nights before it was a sheer struggle to keep my eyes shut. As always I woke up in the night and visited the toilet. I noticed that the erection of my meat didn’t bother me at all. Maybe that’s a beginning of something or let’s call it a progress towards quiet nights with hopefully wonderful dreams. In the morning I woke up at 6 AM, which was a little bit too early for my taste, but my morning wood wouldn’t let me sleep another time. So I decided to just begin the day and do some things to keep myself busy. And I am sure that writing on my Journal is a really good thing to do :)
     
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    Addition

    As some of you nice people mentioned the size of my cage, I decided to buy myself another one (rather cheap cage that looks like a holy trainer) made out of plastic, to see if these problems occur again. But I am actually quite optimistic, that it will help my cock and balls to endure the future chastity. I am still very excited, if I can manage to keep myself locked until new year.

    While thinking about the coming days, some questions popped up in my mind. Maybe someone can help me with that.

    1. I was always concerned how long it takes for my cock to adjust to the cage? Is this something that I can notice with my eyes? Is it recommendable to make a picture of my caged meat to see if something changed?

    2. Regarding the night times. How long does it to make “wet dreams” appear? Are they enjoyable or is it rather a punishment? Do they lead to night time dripping or maybe to an orgasm (that would be bad I think)?



    Thanks for your support! For me, exploring this community is like an early Christmas present and I am happy to be here. Even though I have no Mistress/Goddess/KH I try my best, but maybe I will find a superior woman teaching and guiding me in our community.

    I wish everyone a merry Christmas and some beautiful days to relax soul and body! :)
     
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    Toughing out the pain is not a good idea. I suspect that your ring and cage is too small. With what you've described it sounds like too tight ring is pulling on a right short ball.

    Get a cloth tape and measure your penis. Then get a caliper and measure your device and compare. Best to go custom.
     
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    In terms of the cage pressing down on your testicles I might have a possible solution. I have a piece of marine rope with one end looped and the other not. I thread it trough the space betwen the lock and the cage and then I get it around my waist. I make a knot with the free end on the now belt on the lock area. You can adjust it as you like until it’s comfortable. The rope will transfer the weight of the cage to your waist. Anyway, I hope it helps. Stay strong!
     
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    Make sure the rope is not too thin otherwise you run the risk of cutting circulation or marking
     
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    Congratulations! It spunds like you are motivated. It's always easier with a kh and there are some strong, no bullshit strict but fair superior women here who might help you. At any rate, best of luck and hang in there. It gets WONDERFUL but takes a little time.
     
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    Hey Guys,

    I am thankful for all your advice.

    Since this morning I am locked again in my new Holy Trainer V3 cage. I needed a short break to recover from my aching. the cage fits me quite well and I am really enjoy it. Feels like nothing, but at the same time it's not possible to get an erection at all. I have no pain in my balls. It feels great.

    It's time to try to be locked again, at least 4 days.

    Consistency is power. Have a great new year 2020!
     
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    Hello guys,

    I would like to apologize because this "daily" journal wasn't that daily in the past :O :D.

    I achieved my first three days in chastity with my holy trainer v3 small and it felt like an Odyssey. I tried my best but its quite hard to contain your willpower being solo and at home. So I tried to register to EmlaLock, which wasn't really successful. EmlaLock is apparently unable to register new accounts... :( I messaged the support maybe there's a chance to get an account on that way.

    Nevertheless I am really feeling comfortable in my cage right now! It just feels right to wear some protection!

    So I ordered the Nano version to see if I can go ever smaller. Maybe its even better to shrink a little bit.

    When I am starting my first Lock Session I will let you know :D
     
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