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    Not sure what happened, but there has been a not so subtle change in my Mistress this week. She may have talked with Mistress C Sunday, she may be reading the Mistress Manual that Mistress C noted and highlighted for her and I, or she may just be ready to take it up a step on her own... I don't know.

    She has been more pro-active with her guidance, giving me more to do. She scolded me for putting her extra clothes hangers in her closet without permission, She just (moments ago) told me to make sure Little one has her P.E. clothes before I take her to school in the morning (she hasn't put things like this directly on me before). Before my shower this evening, she told me to shave, because "Your getting fuzzy, and I like it smooth".

    There have been other things, many actually, this week. I am definitely NOT complaining, quite the contrary... I am VERY proud of my Mistress!! She is slowly and at her own pace, growing into a new woman, a stronger, more confident, one who sees the new possibilities. I look forward to watching her grow, learning to serve her as SHE wishes, and taking this fantastic journey with her.


    And now as she was passing by, for no particular reason, she stopped to scritch (not quite as hard as scratching) my back, which is a rare treat... I just closed my eyes and rolled my head and shoulders forward, giving her easy access to my entire back. As I learn to relax and just enjoy the contact and closeness, I understand more how much my submission to her has become, and I see the possibilities of what may be!
     
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    Sounds like she is really getting a grasp on the lifestyle! That is good for both you, as you relax and become a total submissive. And by scratching, or "scritching" your back, she is showing you she intends to take care of you, while still loving you. No topping from the bottom ever again for you. You are lucky to have such a wonderful Mistress. You have made the right financial decisions for your family, and the leader of the household is showing you her approval!
     
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    Just a quick post: things are going well, no significant changes or issues!

    Taking care of removing a couple of dead projects, Mistress is happy to see one in particular leave. Working a lot of hours at work, on a new schedule since Little One started at her new school. Am at work most mornings around 7:30, working until 5:30 most days, but was on the road until 8:30 last night...

    Mistress has had me retrieve her crop several evenings lately, and sits with it, plays with it, just getting used to having it available to her. Her directions have continued to be direct, specific, and followed to the best of my abilities.
     
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    One more large ticket sale confirmed, have a few things the buyer wants done before delivery, so will have to figure that into my "free time". Have a bunch of little stuff still around from one of the previous sales that I need to get posted up for sale, but the cleanup is going well.

    Right now I am at home, came home to have lunch with my Mistress, but a severe thunder storm rolled in just a s I got home, and our furry kid has issues with the loud noise (already barfed on the bed...), so I had to medicate him, and am staying home until Mistress gets back from picking up Little One from school and making a library run... Now that the med's have kicked in he is resting here beside me.

    Training wise, things are staying pretty "status quot", Mistress has not stepped it up any further yet, but last night when I got out of the shower after work, she had left her notice (a symbolic key) that she had plans for me later by the sink, along with a 1/2 Cialis.... Still a little strange having to ask permission to touch, etc, and/or waiting for her Guidance, but I believe Mistress was well satisfied last night!
     
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    Not much really changing. Still holding the Status Quo... Doing my chores (kitchen clean-up, cooking breakfast on weekends, doing laundry, etc..), and attending to Mistress as I am allowed. I ask every so often if there is anything I could do different, better, or anything new she would like me to do. Normally her response is along the line of "Not right now", or "I can't think of anything right now", so I just leave it at that, and do the best I can at what I have been given.

    She has given me time this weekend to get some project stuff taken care of. One dead project hauled away, another project is almost wrapped up and ready to deliver to the buyer next weekend.

    As for me, personally... I'm watching and waiting for Mistress to take the next step, whatever it may be, and looking for opportunities to do things for her. I feel I am ready to take on more sub responsibility, to further her control and Dominance over me. I am just letting her take it at her own pace.
     
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    LAst night, after going to bed, Mistress and I talked bout "Things". Our social life, friends, plans, and even talked about where we are in our relationship, and where each of us is within it. We realized that, while we have frineds, we really have very few really good friends. Mistress commented that she is trying to learn to be a better Mistress, but not having people (besides Mistress C) who she feels comfortable talking with about it makes it difficult to learn and grow in her position. We both expressed our thoughts on these subjects, adn I feel it opened the doors for future discussions, and for more progress for both of us.

    At Lunch today (I've been coming home for lunch for the past couple of weeks now), Mistress informed me we would start working on our relationship next week. Why not now? Because Mistress is allowiing me to attend a Season Championship race in another state this weekend, AND is allowing me to go by myself! The drive would not be good for her back,and would be unmanagable with Mistress and Little One along, as it will be around 14 hour drive one way, straight thru, overnight to get there...

    I have been given ground rules and limits on what I can and can't do, and will be assisting a racing freiend of ours, so I will be too busy to get in too much trouble... I hope :O . I will be leaveing Thursday evening and getting back LATE Sunday night/Monday morning, so will be off line after this post....

    Cheers all, and wish me luck!
     
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    Man that trip was rough... estimated 14 hour drive turned into 21 hours going down due to weather and constuction, and 18 coming home... It was great being back in the pits, helping good freinds and working with serious horsepower, but the weekend also made me realize how much I've come to depend on my Mistress watching over me.

    Prior to leaving for the races, I was allowed to pleasure my Mistress, and ensured she was well satisfied. I, however, requested (and was granted) that I be denied orgasm, to help keep my thoughts on her where they belonged over the weekend. To say my plan worked would be an understatement, I would not have been able to sleep, had I not been so tired while there.

    After returning to Mistress's presence early Monday morning, I was told to sleep in. Mistress took care of Little One and got her to school, then came baack to get herself ready for school as well. I woke up enough that she told me to wait at home until lunch so we could talk, then I'd be going into work for the rest of the day.

    Tuesday evening, I was again allowed to pleasure Mistress, and after 5 day since being denied, I was VERY easily stimulated, but kept control until Mistress was again satisfied, then I was again denied orgasm... I love it!

    Knowing that she understands how much it means to me to be able to make it only about her, to go beyond my own pleasure, and to be denied, I am so lucky! I may not be locked up, but I am totally under her control sexually. The few times I even think about "taking matters into my own hand" I realize the damage it would do to the relationship, to the trust we have built, and I can't bring myself to do it. What a change in the thought process, the relationship, and my whole way of living.
     
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    Well, here it is Monday Morning, Took Mistress ann Little One to the coast for the Irish Music Festival. Haven't been allowed to do anything with Mistress since Tuesday night! It's been over 3 weeks since the last time I was allowed orgasm, and I'm actually to the point of not really caring, I just want to please my Mistress!

    While I was catching up on the laundry last night Mistress went and got her crop (first time she has gotten it herself, and yes, I did ask if there was anything I could do for her). She is still getting use to the whole feel and stuff of owning the riding crop, but while folding something I made a funny joke, but of questionable taste, and when Mistress looked at me with that look, I leaned over and told her "I'm sorry", to which she tapped me onthe head 3 times with the crop! Not hard, but it was the first time she's used it in that manner, so, up one more step!

    Need to get Little One up and get things going her., Hope everyone has a great day!
     
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    I will have an extended update tomorrow. Right now I am "in trouble" again, and kind of understand what I did wrong, but not totally. I requested, and was granted a 3 way phone call to be made Sunday, to discuss, etc. When making my phone call request, I included that I would be requesting to speak freely so I may ask questions/explain myself .

    I truly want to be the best submissive I can, and I need to understand why what I did was wrong. I am not trying to control or deny, only to learn why what I did was wrong.

    The waiting is thehardest part...
     
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    Due to life issues, the 3-way phone call has been delayed until late Monday evening. Still waiting for the lesson and the punishment...
     
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    37 minutes to begining of 3 way phone call... to say I'm nervous would be a slight understatement... A lot has happened in the past week that will flavor the whole personality of the call, and that puts a lot of new variables in the mix.

    Need to get Little One in bed, and get a couple of things done before the phone call...
     
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    I'd tell her that Yes, Mom is in charge. You love her mother very much and this is the dynamic that works for the both of you. Sounds like you have a good, honest loving marriage. Your daughter must see that. She's not gonna think you're whipped, she's gonna think, "wow... My Dad really loves my mom... I want a guy like that". Just my 2 cents
     
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    Thank you MsRebecca. I have been thinking about this issue again lately. Will have to discuss it with my Mistress again and see what she thinks.
     
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    As for the phone call/discussion, it wasn't as indepth as I thougth it would be. It was actually pretty quick, and I didn't even have to ask to speak freely. Once I was told to join the conversation I was asked what I had to say. I mearely asked that Mistress C explain why the question I had asked was wrong.

    She explained: It was not the question itself, as much as the fact I did not ask My Mistress for permission to ask the question. My Mistress and Mistress C had already been discussing what I asked about, and had I asked for Permission I would have probably been informed of that fact.

    So, what got me is trouble was simply not being a proper submissive, by doing without asking rathing then asking before doing...

    This phone conversation also opend the conversation with My Mistress to my feeling that I was kind of beinig left to my own devices (figuretivly speaking), rather than being led. I understand everthing Mistress has going on, but a significant percentage of the time I have felt like I was not even on her radar.... She actually led the conversationon this subject, oping she is willing to continue....
     
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    Took the second half of the day off today, due to hurting myself at home this morning.

    Of all things... I stepped in a wet spot where the dog had been lying (had just come in and his feet were wet), slipped, tried to catch myself and jammed into the bathroom door frame with my bad shoulder (3 previous surgeries on it). Impact hammered my shoulder, twisted my back, and snapped my head forward. Went to see the Chiropractor within 1/2 hour, but was needed at work so had to go in right after. I managed to make it through to lunch, but told the boss I would probably not be back in after lunch.
    Came home (made it here just before My Mistress got home!), ate, and ended up falling asleep sitting in my usual spot, on the floor with my back against the couch. Slept propped up there for about 30 minurtes until my cell rang and woke me up. Felt better, but not good enough to go back to work, so basically puttered around the house getting a few things done.

    Having a partial down day gave me time to rethink Mistress C's comments, and evaluate my own dedication to my Mistress's. I came to the conclusion this is still something I want/need in my life, and I need to really focus on what is important, that being my Mistress's and their happiness and comfort....

    Mistress also informed me Mistress C will be coming for a visit on Thankgiving weekend. Have many things to get done before then, so need to stay healthy for the next couple of weeks!
     
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    I know it's been almost 2 weeks since my last post, but it's been pretty busy here.

    The issue of my projects and stuff has pretty much worked itself out. I will be allowed to keep and work on a few of my projects, with conditions: 1. they have to be self supporting, no money from the household budget is to be used on them. 2. I have to seek permission before buying, working on, or selling. 3. All of the above will be dependant on my performance and attitude, and only after my other responsabilities are taken care of. 4. 2 more of my larger project will be going after I have them in a more sellable condition.

    I am happy with the outcome, and currently have a significant fund from the sale of the projects already sold to work from.

    I am still working onthe house, finished Little Ones room, except for rehanging pictures and a couple of shelves, and have been getting started on Mistress's office. I also have to o through the house and make sure it is properly cleaned and organized before Mistress C visits over the Thanksgiving weekend.

    Today was not spent working on anything, though. We were invited to a private Celebration of Life for a very close friend and Mentor. Had I never met this gentleman Mistresss and I would not be where we are today, we would not have met Mistress C, and there is a very real possibility we might not even be together by now. His acceptance and my many discussions with him about relationship, life, and other subjects helped me focus myself on what was important, that being my wife, now Mistress. He was a class act, never bragged about what he had done, but was very open about how important our relationships with our significant others really were. I can only hope to be half the man and mentor he was.... RIP my friend....
     
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    I THINK I'm starting to get the thought process, finally.

    Saw Mistress C on FB yesterday evening, and was going to PM her, but remembered she mentioned wanting to keep her FB vanilla. I had previously been instructed to address her on FB as "Mistress", but opted to text her on the phone and ask her to clarify.

    She confirmed I was not to address her as Mistress on FB anymore, and my paying attention and asking resulted in an unexpected reward!

    Sometimes it's making the little steps that feel so good!
     
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    Kind of a rough wekend, and it's not over yet.

    I spent the last week working on the house, building custom shelves for the kitchen (on hold due to weather, need it to stabilize so I can stain and seal them), thoroughly cleaning the kitchen, hauling off a bunch of "stuff", clenaing up the driveway/yard, etc getting ready for company over the Holiday weekend.

    Mistress C was supposed to have visited on Friday, and spend the day with Mistress, Little One, and I, but she texted early Friday morning she would not be able to visit due to an illness. Not much more detail than that, but at least she was with family and had someone to look after her. Have texted her a couple of times to make sure whe was doing okay, and she is. She also texted her disappointment in not being able to visit, and hoped we were not upset. How could I be upset with her? This was something beyond her control. I am disappointed, as I was so looking forward to seeing her and spending the day subtely serving My Mistress and Mistress C while Little One was there, trying to balance the dynamic.

    I hope we are able to reschedule very soon, but going into the Holidays it's going to be tricky, I'm sure.

    As for me (not that it matters in the big picture), I've been trying to keep my head in the right frame of mind, but keep catching myself acting out, and having to apologize when I realize what I've done. My Mistress has been subtle in her corrections, guidiing me with suggestions and requests rather than direct orders. I find myself wishing she would get after me when I do something wrong, give me clear and direct rules and orders, etc

    As an example, I used to be lack about washing my hands everytime I used the restroom. Mistress got after me quite a while back, adn set the rule for "Everytime". Now it's gotten to the point that I feel guilty if I even think about not doing it, I can't not wash my hands! I am not sure if she knows how simple it would be to change my habits and actions with just a direct statement.... Not sure if she really even cares, sometimes.........

    We have talked about it, and she has thanked me sincerly for giving up control to her, supporting her, and everything. I know she is still growing into the role of Dom/Mistress, but I so long for her to really take control.
     
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    After posting the comment above I forwarded a link to this page to both my Mistress's. It has generated some conversation about the relationship.

    My Mistress apologized to me for not being able/ready to take a stronger lead, that really made me feel like crap. I know it is about her, not me. That I should be thankful for anything she does, because it IS her choice. I try to do things for her, I ask "May I help you?", May I be of any assistance?", "May I get you anything?' a majority of the time the answer is "No, I'm okay right now." so I leave it at that.

    I just feel that something is missing, that there is something that hasn't "clicked" into place yet, and I keep trying to find that piece, but I can't finid it. I believe it has to come from My Mistress, so, for now, I will wait and be there for her as best I can...
     
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    Just finished my first readthru of Slavecraft. I realize Mistress does NOT want a slave, but a lot of it was very good information on conduct, and "how-to". I am already applying parts of the info. Will be starting at teh beginning again tomorrow.

    Not sure what, if anything, will happen between now and EOY, but I am hopeful....
     
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    Just a quick post to say, Yes, I'm still alive and kicking... Not much else to say. HAve not seen, and have barely heard from Mistress C, and still status quo with my Mistress. once in a while Mistress will suprise me with a comment or correction...
     
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    Mistress finished reading through The Mistress Manual after Mistress C highlighted and made notes on items of high interest. Hoping things will start moving forward again...
     
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    "Please get me a scone" Mistress says tonight. May not sound like a lot, but it's music to my ears. My Mistress frequently gets up and gets things herself.

    I may be sitting with her, Mistress in the overstuffed rocker that used to be mine, me sittiing on the floor leaning against the arm of the chair, and she will get up to get something rather than use me. I give her my best puppydog eyes, and repeat what I have said so many time "I would have gotten that for you... "

    Tonight she asked, in a tone that was less question. Small steps, indeed.

    Then she gets up and lets the dog in rather than telling me to do it... sigh.....
     
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    Some noticable things happening this week. First and foremost, my Mistress has "asked" several things of me, like bringing her a bit of chocolate in the evening, all the way up to an aggressive correction of my attitude, with Little One standing right there!

    To explain, crappy day at work, tried not to bring the attitude home, and asked not to discuss work this evening, but i was obviously too tightly wound. Mistress waved her hand at me, and told me point blank "you need to check your attitude!". Eye opening...

    This past week I have noticed little things again, the next step for my Mistress, so to speak. I know She and Mistress C have been texting and e-mailing some, but do not know much about what they have to say, as it IS NOT my business. My Mistress has told me bits and pieces that I do need to know, and I am good with that.

    For Christmas I bought Mistress a foot bath massager tub. This week when she got home form dance lessons, I prepared her shower, then, while she showered, I prepared a foot bath for her. I am looking for new things to do for her, looking at my attitude and non-verbals, etc. Reading thru Slavecraft, taking my time and re-reading sections as I go, is helping. I am understanding some of my feelings, and learning how to "see inside" in ways I had not thought of.

    It is a process, a re-learning, if you will, to deconstruct our realtionship and myself, and to rebuild it into a true FLR. It's been over a year, and it is not like I fantasized it would be, but the reality is so much beter than the fantasy, and watching my Mistress grow and learn that she IS storng, to see how her other relationships are changing as SHE realizes how things were (not great)...

    YEA!!
     
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    Caged Wolf A Wolf, even caged, is still a Wolf.

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    Still little steps, asks a bit here, directs a bit there..... BUT, I am doing my best, being respectful, attentive, and try to make sure I ask before doing anything I have not already been told to do.

    Mistress is learning inner strength, is standing up for herself with her family, and they are upset! Mistress was always the Omega in her family, so for her to become the Alpha of HER pack, and start standing up to the family is a HUGE step! If nothing else ever happens this step on the path is worth everything to me!

    Today, Little one was supposed to have cooking club at school, but it was canceled. She tried to call Mistress (mom), but Mistress was shopping and had no cell signal. Little One called me, I left work and went to the school to pick her up. There was a time, not long ago, when I would have been upset by this. The inconvinience, having to leave work, etc., but today I just did what I needed to do, no stress, no issues. Picked up Little One and took her back to work with me until I could reach Mistress so she could come get her. Boss didn't even say anything, except "Oh, new office help?"

    I've pretty much told Boss what is going on, without actually saying it out right. He understands that Mistress is in charge... If asked to work late, etc, I will tell him I have to ask, then will get back with him. He jokes about a friend of his whose wife ran the show, normaly mentions him after I check with Mistress... LOL.

    Mistress and Mistress C have been talking, and I was given the task of perusing the available Continuing Education sessions offered by a Lifestyle Club in the area, tasked to identify sessions that may be of interest or benefit to our unusual relationship (2 Mistress's, 1 sub). I spent about an hour reading through information and have identified several sessions that sound beneficial, and relayed my findings to Mistress.

    Note, after reading a comment elsewhere, I am not refering to her as "My" Mistress unless there is no other way to differentiate. I now understand Mistress is not "mine", but I am definately hers!
     
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