Caged Free

Well, the Friday starting my August vacation, I was presented my key and was told to have fun.
I wonder about myself. I unlocked, pulled my device off and felt like that old dog that had chased cars all his life and, once he caught one, wondered what the hell to do with it.
I've had a lot of curiosity about ruined orgasms and attempted them on three occasions and approaching being able to do it properly. Once I was given the keys that Friday evening, I attempted and succeeded at as close as a ruined orgasm as I've experienced. I did expel semen but, other than a dull throb as it oozed out, nothing else.
Shortly afterward I felt naked. Here I was, given a week of free reign, jerk myself in to oblivion for the vacation/week. Less than an hour later I locked myself into what I'm hoping is my permanent home, a 25mm long closed cage so that I could use my vacation to see if I could adapt to it this time. The base ring caused me a lot of pain along the bottom of my scrotal area the first couple of times I was allowed to try it but I've now been locked in it since 8-11 and it's getting more comfortable.
The cage was never the problem, just the pressure from the base ring. The closed shorter cage was never the problem. I loved it from the time I saw the picture.
Now I'm locked and Ms K/H tells me that I'm in for, "At least a month," after I finally surrendered to her and simply requested quietly that she not keep me locked for another year.
My fantasy of her becoming more confident and decisive about my accepting my being locked until she says otherwise has finally come true it would seem. Emergencies or pain notwithstanding.
I love Ms K/H. Even before she accepted my chastity kink. Or the others.

 

Well, I'm starting day 22 of my latest lockup and, this time, in my smallest device that I've been wanting to be locked in since I first saw it. There are moments where it is somewhat painful on the base of my scrotum but it comes and goes. I've already gone far longer wearing it than the first time. Early on, I would have to change to one of my other devices after less than a week.

I have no idea when I'm going to be unlocked. I told myself that I was going to stop topping from the bottom and let Ms K/H (My Wife) finally take complete control over the duration of my being locked and surrendered. Just before my week free (which I was unlocked only about 30 minutes before I locked myself into this device) I asked her how long she would keep me locked once I gave her the keys for real. "At least a month," was her answer. It's difficult not having a target date for once. I've been used to having a target date to shoot for up till now. It's exciting, terrifying and strangely depressing at some moments having no idea when or if she's going to hand me the key. I'm hoping that she doesn't keep me locked for a year as I've put myself through with her help.



On a side note, on my other monitor, I've got a picture of a chastised male on his hands and knees between her legs with the caption, "Remember when you first brought up the subject of chastity and you thought it might freak me out? Can you also remember the last time I let you cum?" That idea of wanting/expecting a chance to cum and her teasing you that she's going to let you out is the whole idea of this whole kink.

 

Interesting change in plans on my latest lockup term. Ms. K/H first planned "at least a month." I mistakenly assumed (I know how that's spelled and its meaning) that, since I locked back up on the 11th of August, that was what she meant as the starting point. I was later informed that my birthday was her idea of the start of my "at least a month."

About three weeks later the smaller device's base ring was causing me so much pain that I begged her for the keys. She relented and gave me freedom to decide when I locked back up. I went one full day at work but locked back into a device I knew fit well enough over night. It hurt too much then next morning for me to wear it to work so I took it off. Once home, back on, etc. After two days, the slightly larger base ring was bearable so I gave her back the keys. I asked quite timidly if she planned to reset my time or? Her answer?

"You went nearly a month, if we count your date of the 11th." I relaxed a moment then asked how much longer?

"At least a month."

I'm sensing a trend here.

 

You're right of course Jemima. I really wasn't expecting her to let me out early though. I was just hoping that she wasn't going to restart the counter. I'll know better next time.

 

I'm not really that exciting. As the overused phrase goes, it is what it is.

 

Again, it's been a while since I've updated. I was given a free pass for my vacation which ran from August 11 to the 20th. I took advantage of the 11th to try a ruined orgasm then felt naked and locked myself into the smaller device which I had problems with. I managed 3 weeks in it before having to ask to change devices.
Well, tonight I was somewhat surprised. Ms K/H told me that she had remembered that my "at least a month" was up on the 19th. She added that she toyed with the idea of letting me out for a day or so but decided for "at least a month," again.
I might be coasting for another year.

 

I suppose I am locked for life now. I hadn't thought of it that way but it makes the most sense looking at it that way. Until she decides it doesn't interest her at all at least.

 

As things are progressing, I think I could. Not that I really want things different. I've had a long held fantasy of being kept locked and kept from sexual release. I'm really unable to explain how being kept from being able to orgasm by someone else turned into such a strong fetish for me but it is. If she flat out told me that from now on, I would be allowed out once a year for an erection but no orgasm, I'd be hard pressed to say no to Ms K/H.