I can identify with this bizarre contrast I really want an orgasm almost to the point where I think if I did cheat would she know. But whether she did or not I would and I really can not bring myself to cheat. I am also torn because I too get turned on a hell of a lot by being told the next date my release date will be considered will in fact be over a year since I last cum. Talk involving having this period of denial denial extended further is always a real turn on and the idea of a permanent extention has ever increaasing appeal. I'm sensible enough to realise it might only be fantasy but keep thinking perhaps I could try a really long period of denial and see how it goes. I will not I have decided make up my mind on this until I have what I think is the ideal device. Then of course I will have to ask my friend and KH id she want to go along with that.