Being reborn, a sissys diary

I was going to wait a while before I started a new diary to see if things were going to work out this time around but I feel excited about what would seems to be a new chapter for me.

Ive just finished shaving my body from top to bottom removing all my unwanted masculine hair. I looked quite mess, it had been some time since Id had a proper shave, I haven't had any motivation what so ever.

Now that Im all smooth I feel good, I had forgotten how it feels to have a smooth feminine feeling body. After my shave I tucked my clitty away, slipped on a bra, a new vest top that Mastet got for me and some pedal pusher jeans.

Im not feeling my usually feminine self yet but Im feeling comfortable and beginning to remember why I liked dressing so much in the first place. I hope this will be the case a lot more often, I want to make more of an effort to become my feminine comfortable self.

As part of my new feminization I want my clitty to remain tucked 24/7 when possible. I have some new support panties on the way and Ive bought some maxi pads to help achieve the flat look that I like so much. No more loose and free clitty for me.

I want to see what effect 24/7 tucking has on me both physically and psychologically. I think the physical effects will be minimal but Im sure having my little sissy testicles permanently tucked and warm will have some effect.

Im hoping all goes well and that this really is the beginning of a new chapter for me. Ill need a lot of help from master to help me become more feminine, I would like to eventually even make a start on training my voice, but for now walking and posture are the big things that I need to work on.

 

thanks MW and Mike, lets hope that my diary lives up to expectations.

Things seem to be going well with Master and I now. We haven't had much play this weekend choosing instead to finish our small garden and then went to see Master’s family for Sunday roast.

We did manage some passionate sex last night though which was good fun. Master had me moaning like a little slut and he even let me cum, I came twice actually, the first time I was so excited my clitty became sensitive and I ended up dribbling cum everywhere.

Master penetrated my sissy pussy for the first time in a long time and I think he enjoyed himself, and I think he needed it. I love it when Master is on top holding me in his arms, it allows me to think of myself as more feminine, I even feel more dainty if that’s possible.

I’ve been tucked for 3 days now, nothing much to report. I did buy some maxi pads to aid tucking but they we’re a bit on the big side and created a bulge all of their own. I’m sticking to the gaffs I have and support panties maybe with some smaller pads. I’ve chosen to get a few more pairs of support panties, they feel a lot more comfortable than gaffs or normal thongs and seem to have enough support to keep my clitty tucked.

Even though Master did let me cum, I still feel as submissive and my desires to be feminized are still strong. This has led me to question chastity and it’s overall effects on submission and desires. Whilst it is true that I was in my deepest sub space after long periods of chastity I don’t feel that chastity is the be all and end all.

I can go weeks without wanted to pleasure myself and still not feel at all horny or submissive, It’s only when Master takes control that I become submissive. Chastity and Master’s control together do make me very horny and after a few weeks over total control I feel that my hard limits become none existent, but if I was simply to be placed in chastity I don’t think I would feel the same.

I think tucking and feminization are the way forward for me at this present time but who knows what the future holds. I still really want a neo steel but not simply so I’m locked away in chastity but also so I don’t have to option to touch my sissy clitty only then will my feminization become more real to me.

 

thank you for your kind comments Maid Katrin and Maid Madaline.

Things seem to be going well at the moment. I have managed to keep master satisfied each night before bed, last night I was made to stroke his cock whilst I was on my knees so that he would end up cuming on my face, I do love it when he cums on my face.

Things aren’t full on with regards to control but I do know my place and I know when I have been given an order and it’s usually a good idea to follow any orders without question.

My feminization is going well, I have been tucked permanently for 5 days now and I’m starting to much prefer it. Comfort hasn’t been a problem so far and I’m quite happy to remain tucked for the foreseeable future.

I haven’t spent much time dressed due to work and often just not having the energy but I have found myself making the extra effort to dress when I can. Tonight I’m wearing a nice vest top, bra and a little black skirt. I’m starting to think about dressing a lot more and I’m beginning to want to dress a lot more. I’m not sure if me being tucked is having an effect on my desires but it could well have.

I’ve posted to ask about help on acting more feminine and I’m grateful for all the responses I’ve had so far. Any help is welcome. I have found one thing though, being dressed seems to instantly make me act a lot more feminine, the way I sit and walk instantly changes. I still need to work on my mannerisms and posture and a lot of other things but I’m happy with the progress I’m making so far.

 

Time for a quick update I think. Not much has happened since my last update, Master and I went to a bbq on Saturday so didn’t have any time for play and Sunday was spent resting and recovering.

We did have a bit of a blip to upset our D/s lifestyle on Saturday. I really want Master to give up smoking especially after finding out how much he spend a week so I suggested that we switch for a while so I can help him give up.

Before we went around to my friends I said Master could cum, his last until Wed if he had managed not to smoke in that time. So I made him cum into a dog bowl and then lick it all up, he seemed to enjoy himself and was up for submitting that was until he came and then he wasn’t so sure.

We almost argued on the Sunday but not quite, we managed to sort things out and I was soon back to my roles as Master sissy. We did some tidying but before I did the kitchen I said I wanted to feel like a ‘proper’ slave, dressed up and collard.

Master ordered me to change into a corset, stockings and heals, I didn’t hesitate and was soon dressed and came back to Master with a collar in my mouth. After I was collared I happily went off to clean the kitchen and remained dress for most of the evening. I would love to spend all of my time collard obediently serving Master it makes me feel like a real slave when I do.

Later on Master asked me to bathe him, whilst he was in the bath he asked to see my body hair and on seeing how hairy I was he ordered me to shave. I did as I was told with a swollen clitty, I think the idea that I was being ordered to remove my body hair must have turned me on. It seemed to turn Master on, watching me shaving all my body hair off.

The rest of the night was spend watching TV and then after that we went off to bed.

 

Not sure about money for a kiny fund, money for an ed hardy hat or Diesel underwear would probably help. I can’t always guarantee I’ll have the money though so I don’t like to make promises. All my money goes on the rent and straight back into the business at the moment. I’m sure I can work something out though.

 

There hasn’t been an awful lot going on of late, things have been very quiet. I’ve been so tired most of this week, not quite sure why but it has meant that I have lost all interest in sex again.

The only exciting thing to happen for me this week was a little shopping trip Master and I had on Saturday. I got myself some more female clothing to add to my small collection. My best purchase was a little check halter neck top which I love, I wore it for most of Saturday when I got home, I even wore it out when we went food shopping later on, it was under a jacket of course but you could still notice that I had small boobs as the top has a padded section.

Going shopping in a gurls top has made me want to be more adventurous, I’m fed up of having to put on male clothing when I want to leave the house so for most of today I’ve been wearing a bra under my tee shirt both in and out of the house.

I also purchased some panties with ruffles, I’ve wanted ruffles for ages and finally got a some, I’ve put pics up of the panties and the halter neck top.

Master wasn’t too happy about my shopping trip, he wanted to buy some clothes as well but ended up going home empty handed which is unusual for Master. I was happy with my purchases though, as well as the top and panties I got some jewellery, woman’s jeans and pink ankle socks.

I’m hoping to replace all my jeans with female cut jeans, people may start to notice when that’s all I’m wearing they will defiantly see that I’m tucked but it’s getting to the stage where I don’t mind too much, the desire to explore my femininity only seems to be getting stronger.

Not much else to report so I’ll leave it there for now and try and update a bit more regularly.

 

Last night was a slightly more eventful than the rest of the week. Things have been uneventful in the bedroom department, mostly due to my lost of interest in sex again, but last night I decided to spice things up a bit.

Master said to me during the day ‘when can we have passion again’ so I thought I’d get the passion flowing again. I went into the bed room put on my new ruffle panties, white corset, fishnet stocking and my FMBs (fuck me boots) and then made my way to the living room where Master was playing on the play station.

I strutted in, and immediately got the controller away from Master and sat on his lap like a sissy slut, then after some very passionate kissing Master stripped down and I eased his cock in to my sissy pussy and road it hard, just before he came, he grabbed me with his big arms and thrusted hard into my sissy pussy. I think that was just what we needed, it was amazing.

I spent the rest of the evening dressed in my outfit, cooked dinner and cleaned the kitchen. I don’t know what it is but when I’m dressed and in sissy mode I’m more than happy to do chores and sever my Master. :chores047:

 

Last night turned out to be quite good considering it's a week day. Before Master arrived home he had sent me a text saying that I was to be dressed, I had some chores to do and to make him dinner. I gladly did as was told and was pleased that Master had ordered me to be dressed, it gives me more motivation to make an effort to dress up.

When Master got home we had dinner and then watched Shameless. When that had finished we headed for bed around 11.

Whilst laying in bed Master began to play with my nipples so I knew Master was horny, he then started playing with my sissy clitty. Whilst he was doing this I thought it might bee a good idea to bring up hair trigger training again. I was reminded of this after reading caged bunnies blog.

I asked Master about starting training again and he agreed so I was given 1 minuet to dribble my sissy cum and I easily did this :sign0007:, so Master is knocking ten seconds off next time he plays with my clitty.

After I had cum, Master needed sorting out so I played with his cock whilst kissing, during our kissing Master fed me my sissy cum and then made me kiss him again. I wasn’t to reluctant considering I had just cum.

I’m not sure what it is about developing a hair trigger but it seems to keep me horny even after I have cum. Not much has been said about hair triggers since sissy Sophie disappeared so I’ll be going it pretty much alone apart from Master training that is. We'll see what happens

 

Thought I would try and update my diary a bit, I haven’t had all that much to update it with, the weekdays seem to be very quite with no time for play or training as we’re both usually too tired.

Saturday was spent gardening and then cleaning the house for our Eurovision Party which we normally hold. We both ended up getting quite drunk and having a bit of an argument, said things to each other that we wouldn’t normally say.

Sunday we were recovering and feeling a bit worse for wear, but at lease we sorted thing out. We had a small amount of play time with Master giving me my 40 seconds with which to cum, I think I hinted a bit whilst Master was playing with my clit, he asked if I wanted to cum and I said it depends how long I’ve got. I successfully came in 40 seconds so now next time it’s down to 30.

I’m not sure what it is about the hair trigger maybe it’s the sissy in me. But I’m quite happy for Master to train me in such a way that my sissy clit becomes useless. Part of developing a hair trigger means that I’m usually horny and willing to serve even after cumming, I can only think it’s because having such little time to cum produces a less satisfying orgasm than if I was pleasured normally.

After I had cum Master tuck advantage of my sissy pussy and used me for his pleasure.

Later on when we went to bed Master wanted me to put a strap-on on and play around with that but I was feeling rough by this time so Master put on a porn DVD, then placed a hood over my head and shoved me under the duvet to suck his cock.
I loved doing this and got me thinking about cuckolding again as it seemed to me like a similar situation. I also love wearing the hood, even though I can still see the feel of it is great.

Anyway I think that’s enough for now, not much more to report.

 

One last thing. I’m back on blogger also. I felt the time was right to start bloggin again as I feel that I want to make a real effort to become feminized and serve Master as his sissy slave.

Anyway here’s the link if any ones interested

sissyslavekris.blogspot.com

 

Well it’s another crap day, yesterday I was ill and today it’s pissing it down so I guess I’ve got plenty of time to mess around on the internet all day again.

Last night was quite good, not exciting but a good sissy night. Before Master got home I got dressed, nothing special just a short skirt and vest top, with a bra of course and then set about cleaning the kitchen and making Master dinner.

When Master got home we ate , Master checked all my posts and my new blogger profile and then we sat down and watched some TV together.
Master did seem pissed of or judged by my 'knowing' post and he said it makes sense and will help him.

When it came to bed time we both climbed into bed and made ourselves comfortable and then Master began playing with my nipples. He started teasing me and touching my clitt and then asked if 30 seconds was enough, I didn’t think it would be but he tried to make me cum anyway. I failed and Master said he was disappointed, so I was left frustrated.

To make things even more frustrating master decided to use my sissy pussy and he had me in the spoon position, I was so horny by the time he was finished, he seemed to last ages. When he was done he made things even worse by touching my clitty and pretending he was going to finish me off.

As expected I was left frustrated to try and get to sleep.

Master seems to be embracing my hair trigger now and seem to relish the challenge of getting me to cum in such a short space of time. I’m now sure what will develop from the training but I can see many nights of frustration and then a small amount of release as my clitty finally spills my sissy cum.

 

Another weekends has passed, not much to report I’m afraid. I worked for most for the weekend but we did manage to go out on Saturday, we had a good night and managed not to have an argument which is a bonus.

Monday night Master gave me an opportunity to climax again and I failed yet again, leaving me quite frustrated. I should have easily been able to do it as Master had me put my clitty into his ass and not thrust until he was close and then I had my 30 seconds. I couldn’t get a proper thrusting action going though so didn’t manage it.

I said to Master it wasn’t fair as I didn’t get a proper go at it. Master addressed this by teasing me with 2 10 second tries, this just left me feeling even more frustrated. By this point I felt a bit grumpy and I think Master thought I was angry at him, I was simply frustrated that I didn’t climax.

This morning I think Master took pity on me and tried again, this time he used my sissy pussy for his pleasure and whilst he was still inside me he gave me 30 seconds to climax. I did it this time and felt quite relieved. There’s only one problem with this, next time I only have 20 seconds to climax, I think it’s going to be long wait.

What makes this training more frustrating than normal chastity is that I know that I’m allowed to climax, but only within the time limit and that in order for me to climax in such a short time I am teased prior to Master touching my clitty so I am tortured every other day sometimes every day.

Be careful what you wish for indeed.

 

Not much to report today but I thought I’d try and keep on top of my diary. Most of my time has been taken up with working, apart from Tuesday. I managed to stub my toe last week and it started to really hurt on Monday so I had no choice but to have a day off and rest my foot. It seemed to do the trick, did need a cocktail of painkillers to help me get through the week though.

I’m dressed in my sissy clothing at the moment, Master sent me a text ordering me to have the kitchen clean and to be dressed before he got home. His text gave me the motivation to have shave so I’m all smooth like a proper sissy should be. I’m only wearing a bra, stripy vest top and peddle pushers but I feel fem which is the important thing.

I wish I had more to report, but work is getting the better of Master and I at the moment. I would love to a house wife sissy that would be perfect but we will just have to make the most of the time we do have spare.

Bit of a dull downbeat post, sorry guys and gurls.

 

Thanks for your kind words Dolly Anne, luckily my foot’s all better now. I don’t think I broke it which is good. I have a damn cold to contend with now though instead which isn’t so good.


Miss D you are right to say that I should know to be dressed. That’s part of my problem, I lack motivation, specially when I get home from work. Having Master ordering me to be dressed for his arrival gives me the motivation I need.

To have Master taking stricter control over my dressing would be good for me. The threat of being whipped for failure to remain feminized would defiantly give me the motivation I need to peruse my goal of becoming the convincing sissy that I desire to be so much.

Unfortunately I’ve been ill for the past few days and haven’t been able to do much at all never mind make myself look pretty and feminized. The closest I’ve come to dressing is wearing a vest top and tucking my sissy clit.

 

I’ve been using my blogger quite a lot and updated it recently but don’t want to stop using my Mansion Diary. Having said that, there’s not a lot to report. Master was ill at the start of the week and then I caught it on Thursday. For some reason the cold hit me hard, I’ve only just gotten over it today but still not 100 percent.

I’ve still tried to remain as fem as I can, remembering to tuck and making sure I’m wearing my panties. I find myself throwing on one of my vest tops now when I’m in the house. At least I can feel more fem when I know that I’m wearing a gurly vest top. Didn’t fancy putting on a bra much though to be honest, I was going for comfort more than anything these past few days.

I can’t wait for thing to get back to ‘normal’ I’ve been feeling as if I could really be a well behaved and convincing sissy these past few weeks. Not sure if that has anything to do with the tucking that I’ve been doing for almost 4 months now, it’s second nature and it doesn’t feel right when I’m not tucked now.

I hope I have more to report later on in the week when I’m feeling 100 percent again. Now that the sun is shining I should start to feel a bit more happier within myself. Fingers crossed.