Hello everyone, My name is kaylee. i am a 39 year old lifestyle submissive sissy. A little background: I married the love of my life in 2010. She is an amazing, experienced Dominant Goddess. Although we loved each other very much, I was never able to sexually satisfy her. She started feminizing me and cuckolding me soon after we married. Chastity came next. I was gradually allowed less and less sexual interaction with her over the years while still remaining a loyal submissive to her desires. She started dating other men and I was eventually permanently cut off in 2017. She fell in love with one of these men and divorced me in 2019, but has continued to enslave me and keeps me chaste. As pathetic as it may sound, she doesn't allow me to date other women and I remain submissive and in service to her and her primary partner. She is marrying him next month and wishes to make my lockup permanent. I know this has been coming for years but the reality is really settling in these days. My emotions lately have been a whirlwind as you can imagine. I'm currently locked in a MM JB. I have decided to rejoin this forum as a place to connect with others. I hope to find the emotional support I will need over these next months and years. I believe my experience and journey may also be valuable to others who may be exploring their own experiences with longterm chastity. Looking forward to making new friends, kaylee
Hi and Welcome back!!! I look forward to hearing more about your exploits. You certainly have had an interesting course of events in your life. Glad you found your way back to CM! ~subrick
Thank you everyone for the warm welcome! I also hope to find what I’m looking for here. I am definitely coming to terms with my situation. Some days are better than others. More and more I am actually enjoying my progression as a chaste submissive and my gradual transition to deeper feminization. I’ve become closer with her soon-to-be new husband over the last few months. He’s truly a great guy and has been very supportive of keeping me around. I still serve them both sexually and domestically once or twice a week. We’ve even had conversations about me moving in with them as a full time slave. He is bi and enjoying his ultimate desire of stealing away a beta cuckold’s wife as well as feminizing the submissive beta cuckold for his own interest. I wouldn’t feel too bad for me. Yes, there are difficult days during the week when I miss her, and miss being her husband. The deeper regrets come when I think about a future without her and as I get older potentially not having someone to grow old with. But we are moving more into a poly family dynamic with him and her as the Mommy and Daddy of the household. We are all very kinky, bi, poly, and open. I’m trying to earn my way into their household as a fully owned slave. While the entire dynamic of my ex’s life with me has changed drastically, I am very fulfilled and happy on the day or two a week I get to serve them. If I am allowed to move in and be a full time member of their family and household, I think I would be completely satisfied. They’ve also discussed building a larger poly kink family down the road where they might have another live in sub/slave if the chemistry is there. That would mean I might get a brother or sister slave, which would be amazing. It’s all been a huge rollercoaster over the years. We’re all still figuring it out. She’s much happier in general and far more sexually fulfilled with him as her husband. He loves her very much, and tbh, he does have love for me too. I’m grateful to be included in their life. There are days I really miss using my clit as a boy, but I’ve been getting more and more pleasure from anal over the years. I can now have sissygasms (anal orgasms) with the right stimulations. I also have found that my lips, mouth, tongue and throat have been growing in sexual sensitivity. I never thought it was really possible, but I do get an almost sexual pleasure from the sensations of sucking cock. I also still get to clean up the messes and creampies sometimes, which I find very satisfying. Anyway, that’s where I’m at. Maybe I should move this post to another subforum since it’s getting deeper than just an intro? Please let me know if that would be appropriate. I would also love to chat with others who have had any relatable experiences. Feel free to reach out here or in private messages. kaylee
Then again. There are so many ways to live and be happy. I might (!) enjoy having a sissy or female slave to serve me and my GF. But I don't think I would keep my sanity for a longer period of time if it was me being the denied slave. I wish you (the OP) the best as well, even though I can not fully relate to your situation. I hope your masters are caring and wise and you are happy with how things are.
I understand that someone would find it a fantasy. Think it’s harder to related to a permanent and long term thing setting the kink aside.
Thank you all for the very warm welcome. I wasn’t expecting to see so much support here, so I’m glad I rejoined. I know my situation isn’t for everyone, but it works for me. I’m generally happy about it. If she fully cut me out of her life, I would not be. Thank goodness kinky women exist and enjoy alternative relationships as much as us horny, kinky sissies
If you are happy in this and relationships then good. Best of luck with it. It would not be what I would choose, but I am not you.
Does anybody know what became of @SissySlaveOC (Kaylee)? It sounds like she was in a unique, difficult situation. I did some Googling, but couldn't find a single thing. hmmm.