So I'm recently single, due in part to me wanting to persue bdsm stuff. It's a lot more complicated than that though really. I wanted to make it work so bad. Anyways that's a thing I've been dealing with, another one tho is finding a woman who's actually into the same stuff as me. All I've spoken with so far is scammers, tried fetlife, alt, even had a bunch of mistresses on tiktok message me. IT's all fake it feels like, or they just want money right off the top. If i wanted to talk to a Nigerian i'd be on 90 day fiance. Wanted to get the taste of vanilla off of me, instead ended up with the taste of celibacy. The only plus side of this divorce thing is that my kids are now happy, like she was truly awful to them. I honestly should have left her over how she treated them. Yeah i'm probably nuts.