Allowed to cum this morning! Should I feel guilty?

Only if you like feeling guilty. Here' let me help you decide:

1. Are you Catholic? Catholics love guilt, in which case yes you should feel guilty.
2. Are you Jewish? Jews have no sense of guilt at all and would never even ask the question. I doubt wether you are jewish.
3. Do you just have some sense that you should really have been 'good' rather than 'naughty'?

Stuff that. Life's for living and enjoying. Your wonderful wife was so happy with you she gave you the option of an orgasm, how nice is that? You could choose to be happy that you made your wife happy, and that you chose to take the offered reward

Or you can choose to feel bad about it. You naughty boy.

 

Absolutely not! If she choose to let you cum then you shouldn't feel guilty about it, at least I know I wouldn't......lol

 

when i use to be allow to have them i felt all down afters and that why i don't has them no more.

 

Enjoy this aspect of your relationship!
I really do understand that you feel an inner need to perhaps balance the scales by suffering. There is something inside of servers that naturally makes one feel guilt of a sort for receiving the gift of pleasure from your erstwhile tormentor.
Talk to her about it and see if between the two of you you can come up with a pennance or cost paid in pain. You just might really need this to go forward.
My wife uses a myriad of penances on me and the balance keeps me inwardly at peace.
A sound spanking, while effective, may be too normal. Also it requires physical effort on her part.
When my outwardly vanilla wife senses this need in me she may do any or several of the following:
(Remember she is a beauty shop owner.) Have me sit under an old fashioned Bonat hair dryer turned up to maximum temperature for a specified time like an hour with a seatbelt and wrist belts to take away my choice to get up. Another thing she may do is make me wear The Punishment Girdle the entire next day. This garment began as a tight brief panty girdle and I modified it by attaching 69 bottle caps to the inside. I drilled a hole in each cap, put a corresponding grommet into 69 locations in the buttox portion with a few on the belly side, then used short panhead screws and retaining nuts inside each bottle cap.
This is worn beneath my regular clothing. The only one who knows is my wife. She often pats me on the butt and makes a sorrowful face as she says, "Poor you!"
There are hundreds of other things she and I share. It is like a dance of sexual tension that has existed since we married in 1972.
Our private games serve as an unseen layer of our lives and ensue simultaneously with all the other things in our lives.
Don't feel guilty for feeling guilty. Atone if you must in order to feel balanced.
My best advice: Communicate!
Ss

 

Hugs @jemima

 

Like the choice of exactly "69" bottle caps in panty girdle.

 

Dude, I would give my right nut to be allowed an orgasm. I have had ONE in the last 2.5 years, that last being 7.5 months ago. The fallout from that was so bad I was promised I'd never have another. At least not for a long time. I get what you mean by guilty, but you shouldn't. You did not take anythng that wasn't offered by your Mistress. She wanted to be nice and do something for you that she felt good about. Don't steal that from her by acting all guilty or depressed. Work harder for her, behave better, and be more submissive to show your appreciation.

DLB

 

I have read it in many places that a man's submissive feelings subside after orgasm, that he doesn't feel like cuddling, or pleasing, etc. That is not the case with me at all, and in fact this trait sometimes gets me in trouble.

Like last night. Mistress wanted to reward me for my first full day caged by letting me out and encouraging me to fuck her, hard, and then cum inside her. Which I did. But then afterwards, when most guys would want to fall asleep, I lay there praising her and professing my love. But this went on too long and interfered with my Mistress' sleep. Today, I will pay for that. I hope.

 

At any rate, it is good that you understand well that an orgasm is no simple thing for you, but a great gift from your mistress.

I agree with others, you should not feel guilty. You got this gift from your mistress, after a period of denial and servitude. She most likely enjoys making you cum, although it hardly ever happens. Keep serving her, obeying her and pleasuring her, and at some point she will allow you to cum again.

 

My wife KH told me to reply with this: "Yes, he should feel guilty. If offered an orgasm he should gratefully decline. He should not be selfish and think of himself. It's suppose to be all about Her and not about him. This may have even been a test to see where his devoltion to Her lies".

She then reminded me that if I ever failed such a test she would strap me face down on the bed and whip my ass with her crop.

 

Everyone is different @Tina's Bitch and if @Uxorious 's Mistress required him, then so be it. Obviously you are in a more controlled relationship and will have to accept that.

 

Yes Ma'am. Thank you for your imput Mistress B.

 

When can you ever cum?

 

If my wife/KH has her way it will be never. To her the male orgasm is useless and has negitive effects on the relationship. Female orgasms dont have the same effect. The more she has, and the less I have the happier she is. " A happy wife is a happy life"

 

I would never be so presumptuous as to deny a command from my Wife. If she tells me to cum, I cum. If she tells me to ruin, I ruin. If she says no, I accept and don't. It is all about her, and sometimes that means she gets to see me cum, or to feel me cum, because that is what she wants.

If it was a test then I am sure he would soon find out. What if the test was to find out whether he followed her desires? Many of us like the feeling of being denied and know that to cum is in fact a sacrifice on our part. We know that for some of us it takes weeks to build up to the deepest levels of feeling so horny you might pop.

I fundamentally disagree with the idea that the male orgasm is useless. This denies one simple point. There is the fact that being able to grant it is a power the woman has over her man. Only she can say yes, you can have an orgasm. Permanent denial is obviously a thing that some people do, I don't doubt that, but more people live a life with reduced orgasms. Why? Because just as handing control of our orgasms to our women is a gift, so is the chance to grant permission. It reminds both parties in the arrangement about who is in control.

 

Jasmic I am in the same boat as you, if my wife says cum I obey.

This is my first post, even though I have been following different forms. I just could not resist letting this post go.

As A submissive that is under the spell of my Keyholder/Wife, believe me, she knows how to push the buttons through trial and error, I am not getting away with anything, if she didn’t want me to cum, than no matter what I said it was not going to happen.

So if M136532’s wife didn’t want him to come, she wouldn’t have given him the alternative suggestions, sure there might be something coming down the pike for being naughty. That is up to her, She gave the selections knowing that if he preferred naughty, than she would have to provide it, How he was allowed to cum, was up to her'


The following is quick glimpse in what happened this weekend, just to show the control my keyholder has:

. She put cuffs around my ankles, locked them to a spreader bar and blindfolded me. She put latex gloves on in order to deprive my penis and balls her bare hands. She used the whip and crop on my ass, penis, and balls to her satisfaction.

She then rubbed oil on her property, which warmed them up; she started to fondle me to a boiling point, releasing the penis just as it was reaching the peril of erupting. Doing this a numerous times, adding more oil in order to keep the balls and penis in a heated state. I was told that I did not have the permission to ejaculate, just as she was stroking the shaft of her penis faster and faster. Because she ordered it, I tried hard not disappoint her, by not paying attention what she was doing; I know that I didn’t erupt a stream of sperm, if I leaked out I do not know, for I was blindfolded, I felt as though there may have been a small leakage by the time she stopped pumping her penis, only she knows.

She asked me what I wanted. Of course of not being allowed to ejaculate I wanted to be able to. I begged Mistress, to be allowed to cum. She started once again to stroke her penis, and play with her balls; I could feel the latex gloves, as one hand was sliding up and down on her penis, as the other was squeezing and fondling her balls, she finally told me I was allowed to squirt. Once the permission was given, I had my first discharge in two and a half weeks; she kept stroking and squeezing her balls until she was sure that her penis was drained, as she watched me squirm. Mistress sure knows how to work her property either to tease or let it ejaculate on her orders. Ordered to shower after she was finished with me, I did as ordered while she went to bed.
I am unlocked at the moment for I have an early morning Dr. appointment, but will be locked up once the visit is completed

 

@Apfel you definitely need to start a journal!

 

You guys are all better men than I. That's all I have to say about that.