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    Hi there. I've been a long time lurker of both this site and orgasmdenial.com. Today I ordered a CB6000 and have decided to come out of hiding and introduce myself.

    The way in which I discovered male chastity was pretty typical. My masturbation sessions were increasing in duration, and I soon came across delayed orgasm which inevitably led to orgasm denial.

    I forget exactly how I learned of it, but I do remember reading a story on Altairboys website titled: the Demo. It turned me on like nothing ever has or ever will probably.
    Thats how I got interested in Male Chastity. At the time I was in college and never thought about buying a device until two years later when I had moved out on my own. I bought a CB3000 and was pleased with it except for a fatal design flaw.

    I had found the perfect combination of spacers and rings, and the only problem I had was that Id get hard whenever Id try to put it on. Once it was on though, it was comfortable and I wouldnt even notice it throughout the day. Erections were comfortable and stimulating. I would wake up with throbbing morning wood, but I never had to get out of bed or anything like that. Id just enjoy the sensation of having my cock gently gripped and the frustration of not being able to stroke it. After five days of 24/7 use, the hinge on the bottom of the ring had almost ripped a hole in my scrotum. I believe that I waited another five days before jerking off, waiting for the abrasion to heal. When I finally came, ten days since my last orgasm, it was so powerful and strong, that my PC muscle actually cramped and it fucking hurt.

    I stopped wearing the 3000 and later threw it out because I was paranoid that someone would find it. That was in 2006. Now I am ready to seriously experience chastity the way I want to. I have some people in mind for keyholding, but I still have the stigma of this being a really weird fetish. Someday, Id love to have a loving Keyholder.

    I think thats enough for a first post. Im working on a short essay explaining what it is about Male Chastity that I like, why I want it, and what I want out of it.

    Thanks for taking the time to read all this!
     
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    Welcome to posting on Mansion!!!!
    Dont you worry, there are lots of people here to help you and you never need to feel like you have a 'wierd' fetish, chastity is alot more common than most people think! Its just not talked about for some reason.

    Enjoy your fantasies, you only live once you know!!

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    The anticipation of waiting for the device to arrive is killing me. I've vowed not to come until the CB does. I was going to jerk off just once before locking myself in, but depending on my mood, I might just tease myself and then lock it away. That sounds pretty hot to me. I'm been thinking that since my longest stint of OD was ten days, I should double that to 20 days and round it up to an even three weeks. We'll see how it goes.
     
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    Well, I'm shamed to admit it, but I came a total of 5 times before the CB arrived. I promptly locked it on.

    It feels good to be back in chastity (for now). I kind of feel a sense of 'freedom' because I'm no longer a slave to my cock.
     
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    Wow 5times!

    Good luck, I hope you find a keyholder soon...
     
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    I wore it Tuesday all day and night, then changed the rings Wednesday morning. At night it was kind of uncomfortable so I slept with it off. Other than some slight achy feelings the CB is very comfortable. I'm using the smallesr spacer and middle sized ring. Locked back in and hoping to wear it for over 24 hours this time.

    Still no keyholder. How would one bring this up to a girl? I kind of want to tell two of my close girl friends about it, I think they'd like it. Unfortunately they live pretty far away.
     
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    If I had a keyholder she would be very, very disappointed with me. I wore the CB all day yesterday and by the end of the day I was feeling sore so I took it off to inspect everything. There was some redness in the same spot where the CB3000 hinge created problems. So I decided to sleep with it off that night. I ended up coming twice.
    At least I made it three days so now I'm shooting for a week. I guess with my kind of sex drive, with no keyholder, I'll have to slowly increase my lock up times.
     
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    Well I've successfully gone over 24 hours locked up and plan to remain locked up indefinitely. The CB has become very comfortable, as long as I keep it properly lubed.

    I am imposing a five week denial period for lack of control the other day. I would like to remain locked up as much as possible during this period of denial.

    Having a keyholder with no definite release date would bring this to a whole new level.
     
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    So I've worn the CB continually for three whole days now. The good news is that it's become very comfortable. The bad news is it's become very comfortable and could probably be worn for a very, very long time.

    I don't feel as weird about it as I used to. To me it's like an accessory, like a watch or a bracelet. I love how my mind can wander and I can get hard and not worry about pitching a tent. I also love how I can feel the lock sliding back and forth over the cage, reminding me of my chaste status.

    I can't believe it's been 3 days since I've touched my cock. I'm really starting to get horny and what I really want is to just touch my cock. But I know that will only lead to an orgasm so the lock stays on. If I just focus on beating my previous records, I should be able to pull this off. The more I stay locked, the hornier I get, and the idea of being chaste turns me on even more.
     
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    I had this problem with my cb3000 and also with the cb6000s I wear now, but found a solution that works fine for me: Each day I put on a single drop of silicone lube under the ring. Getting it properly under the ring while wearing the device can be a bit tricky, but I manage by pulling my skin under the ring and twisting the device a bit.
     
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    Thanks for your advice. So one drop is enough to last the whole day? I've been using baby oil and it works OK but it feels like it dries out really quickly. I need lube anyway so I'll try that.

    I wish the rings of the 6000 were rounded like previous models. These are basically squares. I remember seeing a while ago on the net, solid rings for the CB3000.
     
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    :welcome: to the Mansion chronicM.

    Don't worry, chastity is what we do here, so you are MORE than normal around us!

    Glad it's going ok so far, with the usual issues... keep us informed. :Locker:
     
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    One drop of silicone lube each day is enough for me to avoid this problem. Unlike water-based lube and most lotions, silicone lube does not dry out.

    Yes, it is taking me a bit of time getting used to the cb6000 rings too. And it is a bit harder to get the lube under the ring than it was on the cb3000.

    I have heard that the solid rings for cb3000 actually are rings for the cb2000, which are interchangeable (with cb3000 and the curve, but not cb6000). They can be purchased without the cb2000 in some online stores.

    For me I do not think the problem with the cb3000 ring was because of the hinge. I think it was caused by the constant pressure and the friction caused by erections.

    But the rings of the cb6000 has the ring number moulded into one side of the ring. This is causing me some irritation unless I put on the ring with the moulded ring number on the side towards my body, so the moulded ring number does not press against my ball.sack.
     
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    Well I feel like I've "settled" into chastity. The first three days are pretty difficult. But the longer I stay locked, the more motivitated I am to remain locked up.

    I am enjoying every minute of it though, but would love even more to be locked up and forced between my keyholders thighs, pleasuring her to orgasm after orgasm.

    It's not that I really miss coming every day, but what I really miss is touching my cock. But when I finally do touch it, hopefully it will be out of this world and the orgasm will be well worth the wait.
    Tomorrow I break my previous record of being locked 24/7.

    In other news, I'm starting to become very, VERY horny. There's a keyholder out there that has no idea what she's missing.
     
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    Last night there was quite a battle going on between my frustrated cock and my brain. It was so hot in my room last night and the CB was getting real uncomfortable. Then my cock tried reasoning with me, saying how one night with it off wouldn't hurt. That I'd lock it back on in the morning, etc. Then I thought of how unlocking myself would only lead to an orgasm. I also thought of my imaginary keyholder and how disapointed she would be if I caved and unlocked myself.

    But I prevailed and my cock remained locked. Since I didn't cave, I thought I might reward myself by having a little tease session this Friday, after removing the device for a thorough cleaning and shaving.

    But maybe I will wait until I've been locked up for two weeks. I guess it depends on my mood then. I'm still set on not coming until June 25th though.
     
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    Much to update

    Been busy this Memorial Day weekend, and there have been new developments in my quest for chastity. Well, the 26th and 27th were unbearably hot, both day and night. On the 27th I lay awake, sweating on top of my comforter, fan blowing on me, unable to sleep. The CB was sweaty and itchy and I thought, one night out of the device to let him breathe a little won't hurt, and I can lock myself back up in the morning. So I took it off...

    The Good: Currently unlocked, I felt a little 'naked' without the device on at first. I got used to wearing it and it was nice not addressing every urge I had to touch my cock.

    The Bad: I wanted to use chastity to help stop the constant self abuse of my penis, because I love my cock. But the CB has done way more damage to him than I have. Not only did it smell pretty awful, I had a couple red spots and a big white spot on the shaft, like what your skin looks like after wearing a bandaid for awhile. Sorry for that info, but I think I should mention is as a caution to people who dream of ordering a device and being locked up from day one for 3 months.

    The problem was that my penis was unable to slide freely in the tube. The skin was basically stuck to the inside of the tube, with no air or water contacting it. I could wash the head and the bottom of the shaft but the tube is too small to allow water and soap to get in there. I don't believe I had this problem with the CB3000, so maybe the dimensions of the tube are different. I have an average flaccid length but I might be a little thicker.

    Anyway, this isn't too big of a problem. I think what I'll have to do is be a part time chastity/full time orgasm denial guy. Wear the device during the day, then sleep with it off. This will also address the problem I have with being unable to sleep in any other position other than on my stomach. And I find it difficult to sleep with something attached to me like the CB.

    The Ugly: I came that night I took the device off, and a couple more times since then. My orgasms have been good, but not the mind-bending orgasms I've heard a man will have after being denied for a while. I think I'll have to go at least two weeks to really notice a difference.

    Anyway, I need to leave for work, but tonight I'll update again on things I haven't mentioned here.
     
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    Yes, things get pretty gamey inside those plastic tubes. I find I have to remove mine every three days or so for a thorough cleaning.

    mikecb
     
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    The lesson I thought I learned is to be careful whenever trying something new with chastity (like a new device, different rings or spacers, or new security inserts), and unlock often in the beginning to ensure there are no problems.

    Apparently I did not learn this lesson, as I recently tried the smallest KSD-G3 first time for three days without unlocking. When unlocked yesterday I had a big red spot on top of my shaft. So now I have to be out of chastity for the next few days until it heals. :mad0025:

    But for me, if there are minor problems with something new in the beginning, these problems often go away after some time. Probably because the body adjusts.

    Yes, the tube of the cb6000 has a slightly smaller internal diameter than the cb3000.
     
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    Well, I took a little break from chastity. The past few weeks have been very busy, and I haven't really had time to come on here and share my thoughts. I've been doing a lot of thinking about male chastity and what it means to me, and what I actually want out of it.

    The problem is, sometimes I want to be locked up. Partly as a way to increase the intensity of my orgasms, and also by giving someone total control of my orgasms, as a demonstration of my devotion to them. The other half of the time, I don't want to be encumbered by a chastity device. I want to be free. I'm a free spirit and I can't have something natural like erections be confined. But that doesn't rule out the honor system of orgasm denial. A chastity device just adds to the experience, but isn't totally necessary.

    Also, the CB6000 is a bit too small for me. The 3000 fit me like a glove, but I'm not about to spend another 150 on a plastic device. I really want a custom made one. Hygiene is the number one priority for me, way above security. I've thought about getting a piercing, but I'm kind of fond of my penis at the moment and I don't really want to maim it anymore.

    If I had a dedicated and loving keyholder though, that was also someone I could see myself being in a serious relationship with for several years, then I would consider a piercing and maybe a Lori Tube. I don't know, but I haven't found anyone yet.

    Currently I am locked in the 6000, but I might take it off before work. I wore it last Sunday all day. I've returned to my usual masturbation routine, and it's becoming mundane again. In about one month from now, I plan on buying a new computer, which I'm not going to use for porn. That'll give me an incentive to not jerk off so we'll see how I do then.
     
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    Much to discuss in this posting. I have been away for way too long and now is the time to update.

    I have been practicing my usual masturbation habits these past weeks but I just ended an incredible journey that I think mirrors exactly what real people in chastity experience. I can be something of a computer geek at times. I'm very knowledgeable about computers and actually built my own desktop. Overtime my desktop became an annoying eyesore. It was loud, slow, and just generally shitty. So In February is asked for a laptop for my birthday. I did not receive one and set out to buy one on my own. I started saving money in March. I saved what I could and pretty much stopped partying. I became very tight with money. I became addicted to saving money. After getting paid on Friday, I was already looking forward to my next paycheck and saving some from that. I also kept fantasizing almost daily about my future laptop. It wasn't until two months ago that I figured I'd have enough saved up for the new computer by July 16th.

    Here is what all this has to do with male chastity:

    July 16th became my 'release' day. It was the day that I would receive something that I did not have for about four months, maybe a little more. The laptop is my orgasm. My money, which was held in a bank for months, was my sperm.

    The fact that I had no real idea when I'd finally buy the computer (up until a month ago), and the fact that I figured early on that I might have to wait until the end of July/early August is similar to the concept of not knowing your release date.

    The emotions I've felt in the past months, and especially my emotions now that I finally have the computer, just seem so similar to what I've read and what I honestly believe I would actually go through if I did experience this lifestyle for real.

    First I want to explain the correlation of cum to money. Since I've bought this thing I haven't felt the real urge to save money. I abstained from going out on numerous occasions. Every time I had the opportunity to go downtown and party I thought of my computer and how sweet it'll be and if I save now it'll come even sooner. Basically I've been a real fucking tightwad. Then on the 16th I came big time. I spent so much more money than I normally spend. (After months of not spending, I had a big load to blow). Since the 16th I've been going downtown every night. After not coming for 4 months, I'd probably want to remain unlocked for a few days until starting over.

    So before I knew the 16th was probably going to be the day I got it, the impatient feeling of frustration was pretty strong. I constantly reminded myself that the day would eventually be here. A majority of my day was spent thinking of how I could seriously not wait any longer. Then the final real one month count down started. The days dragged on forever. I started counting the hours about ten days before. I've read that sometimes knowing your release date takes away the focus on your partner because you know you're going to cum soon. But for me it seems that if I knew that I would probably cum on a certain day a month in advance, then I wouldn't want to do a single damn thing to screw that up. Especially after all ready waiting for three months. Yet in the final four days before, I started feeling apprehensive. Almost like cold feet. And I think that relates to fear of not getting what you expected. Would my laptop be everything I'd hope it to be? Would my orgasm be out of this world? Or maybe it'd be ruined? Or maybe it was fear of getting exactly what you want for once. Fear of being too happy, fear of an orgasm that strong.

    But my God...that orgasm was fucking fantastic. It blew my mind. It was totally, totally worth the wait. It felt so good, and during the four months I felt so good about what I was doing. And now that I've spent way too much money, it's time to start saving again. But for how long this time??
     
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    Perhaps you should combine interests and save money to order a full steel belt? It would take less time than a new laptop! ;-p

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    Funny you should mention that. I was thinking of saving up for a Lori's Tube.

    And since this is a brand new computer, I really don't want to end up coming all over it. Or infecting it with porn. So I decided to try chastity again, mostly without a device. I still have my CB but probably won't wear it for more than a day or two at a time. Since I now know how rewarding it is to wait for something, I feel more motivated than ever.
     
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    Why does male chastity turn me on so much? What is it about being sexually frustrated and teased by a beautiful girl I love deeply, who isn't frustrated but completely orgasmically satisfied, that gets me going so much?

    I've been spending a lot of time reading Sarah's posts on her Male Chastity Blog. One thing she's said over and over is that men want to orgasm but they crave denial. And I find that that's very true. While I'm working myself up for an hour, I really really do want to cum. But after I cum I get post-orgasm guilt over losing self-control. If I don't cum, but wait until my erection subsides and stimulation stops, I find I'm not that too frustrated. The only physical feeling is really the 'backed-up cum feeling' you experience after awhile. Emotionally I feel slightly satisfied, because my cock was stimulated close to orgasm. I do feel frustrated but that frustration turns me on and I like being turned on, so that's a good thing.

    I'm sure that if I met a loving, caring female keyholder who absolutely loved being in control of my orgasms, I'd be really happy with this lifestyle. Maybe.
     
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    Bored and Horny.

    I was wondering today about how I would cope with being locked in chastity. It's really different when you have the keys. What would it be like, to have a keyholder, to only give pleasure and not receive any? I know what it's like to be unable to get erect or touch yourself. It's extremely frustrating, but the frustration just turns me on. What is it about humans and depravation. People deny themselves the things they want all the time. But what is it about denying an orgasm that's so erotic?

    I don't know where I'm going with this, but I do know that male chastity is all about HER deciding if I cum or not. At least it is for me.
     
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    The start of a new journey.

    I'm getting myself prepared mentally for the challenge I'm setting myself. Two entire weeks of orgasm denial. I might use the CB but that'd be only for a day at a time.

    The thing I'm most concerned about is stress. An orgasm is a great stress reliever and not having that might affect me negatively. But we shall see how the next 14 days go.
     
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