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    hi happypants i hope all is going well so far this weekend. The thing i admire the most about you is that your love for your wife shines through so brightly above all the fantasy stuff, and vice versa. To have even a small part of what you two have and to be comfortable to share your adventures in the way you do makes it such an ispiration to the likes of myself and others who are also starting to tread this difficult path to get the balance right. You have given me hope that i too might be able to share the excitement and fantasy that i long for in my relationship. Fantasies are great but they need to be shared with someone you love in order to make them come true, otherwise they remain just that fantasy. respect to you both:anim_37:
     
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    Wow is right.

    Well, wasn't this a lovely thing to come home to today. I-YI-YI. Pet is busy with a friend right now, so I'm going to try and respond with my head and not my heart.

    After I read this I was like:sign0094:. Is it only me, or does it seem my pet threw a little temper tantrum? Darling, I never (nor did anyone else) say that I wasn't getting anything out of this. Of course I am! My friends were just expressing their opinions. Our regular lives have to be the priority, I understand that...but what's wrong with wanting something a bit more fun and a bit more spicy? Personally, I think your comment about wife first and Goddess second is inaccurate. They should be one and the same. A "wife" means I'm legally bound to you, but as your Goddess....that's where the deep feelings of love and respect are. Just because we didn't have a name for it 5 months ago doesn't mean it didn't exist. Does that make sense?

    MW? I could not have said it better. Thank you so much for putting into words what I couldn't.

    It's funny, just now pet walked in and I said, "My goodness, someone was feeling like the kid picked on on the playground." We laughed, he apologized for taking everything to heart, and that's that. I'm still giggling that he felt like everyone was ganging up on him. And they say women are sensitive?

    Now, back to our regularly scheduled program...
     
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    Mistress Watchful Dont believe the hype ;oP

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    And THAT is why it's hard work being a Domme.

    We have to be responsible for their proper maintenance. I saw this happen with quite emotional consequences at the Fall Gathering. A certain submissive was put into femme-space for the day, made to feel beautiful and vulnerable, and then when later s/he was strapped to the whipping bench there was completely meltdown. This 110% pain slut suddenly couldn't compute why s/he was being "abused".

    It goes back to your thoughts on 24/7. If we strip them of their masculinity for the most part, they do get emotional because they are put in such a vulnerable position. Their heads still want to act like a man, but their hearts are loving the feeling of being vulnerable and it just messes with the poor darlings. It's very difficult for them to process.

    This is why pet and I get into conflicts because I just want him to let it go and completely trust me to look after him emotionally as well as physically. His man side won't let him do that yet.
     
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    So true, MW. I don't want him to be afraid of something that I KNOW he's going to LOVE. Thank you for your input, Mistress. I really appreciate it! :butterfly:
     
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    If i may,

    i have been following this thread, as well as many others and applaud each and every Mistress/Goddess here for taking the journey with their submissive pantyboy/pet/sissy (whatever You want to call us)

    my Keyholder and i also get into little conflicts, mainly because I want to let it go and completely trust Her to look after me emotionally as well as physically. But, She tells me and i understand we mainly i have some unfinished business that must be attended to before that can happen.

    To happypants,
    i'm sure you feel as i do, that we are the luckiest guys in the world to have such beautiful Women, which even consider letting us be the submissive little creatures we are. While it is trying at times, none of us would change it or go back.
     
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    It is better that he let it out on here than bottling it up and then blowing up later.

    I do agree with Happypants that wife should be first as he married you before you became his goddess. His love for you came first which presumably why he married you 12 years ago (sorry, your marriage duration is easy for me to remember as it mirrors my own)
     
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    Good fun on the horizon.

    This weekend has gone by so fast. It's already Sunday afternoon..yikes. It's been pretty tame in the kink department as well. Pet had a man date yesterday with a guy from work and they ended up having too much to drink. My pet was lit at 2 in the afternoon. He has no tolerance to alcohol, but he sure is funny when he's tipsy. It would have been the perfect opportunity to take advantage of him, but we had our little chicklet, so no play time for us. Oh, well. After child went to bed we played in the shower a bit. I was so sleepy from being out Friday that I just wanted a nice back rub, a good orgasm, and then sleep. I got exactly that. Nothing like a little licking in all the right places to put u into dreamland. I got a fantastic nights sleep, but unfortunately, pet did not. He told me he was up like 5 times trying to walk off his caged hard on. I almost feel bad for what I have planned later. Almost. :happy0011:
     
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    I remember getting painful nights like that, it used to feel like my package was getting ripped off. But since i found the right ring and spacer on my cb3000 i sleep alot better. I still get woke up and reminded who has control over me but im able to turn over and get back to sleep, which is great because i start work at 6am mon-fri :)

    Amber :)
     
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    chastityslavejohn Mistress Irianna's pet

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    hmmm, i have had many uncomfortable nights after pleasing Mistress with my tongue. i have found that a slave has to control his thoughts to reduce those painful and frustrating erections. Mistress cums first and whenever and as often as She wants. slave cums purely to please Mistress.
     
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    I usually get up and sit on the toilet for awhile, I either pee or it just subsides. either way I'm good for another 45min or so.
     
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    Yep. Pet said that he tries to squeeze out some so it will give him a little relief. I have a feeling it's going to get worse...way worse. See, pet and I like to play this game. Kinda like "Let's Make a Deal". When I'm on the laptop and he's on the PC we IM each other on the Mansion. Yep...we talk to each other thru the computer while we're in different rooms of the house. I know it sounds lazy, but we have a lot of fun with it. We talk dirty to each other & pet is able to ask me for things that he may have a hard time with otherwise. So, yesterday we chatted back and forth for a bit, and I found out that he was VERY horny. At the end of the conversation I got 2 more days for him to be in lockup and he got the chance to be let out for some night time fun. To get unlocked I told him he had to give me an orgasm in less than 15 minutes. Well................it didn't work out so good for him. He wrote about it in his journal *which I LOL'd* about what and why, but it just wasn't meant to be. In the end, I still got mine, but he didn't earn his time out of his cage. :anim_03: Poor, baby. Everything I had planned needed his cock free, so we couldn't continue. It was kinda funny, because he kept looking at me like, "Um...honey, are you gonna let me out anyway? I really really need it!" Sorry, luv. There's always tomorrow. I have such a twisted idea that I can't wait to put into effect. I wish I could tell you, but I don't want him to read about it. Perhaps tonight he'll earn a bit of free time. We shall see.
     
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    yes, Madam and I IM/Text/Email each other while we are sitting in the same room 10 ft apart sometimes. Usually because one of the kids is awake or it's more fun sending porn to Madam that way. Plus it's safer to be out of her tease reach some times :spider:
     
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    You rock Goddess Jen.

    rachel
     
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    Mistress and i have desks in the same room 5 feet apart and W/we im or chat all the time.
     
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    Thanks so much for stopping by, Rachel!! You know how much I appreciate it. :heart: Well, I'm happy to see we're not the only one's that text and IM each other when we're not but feet away. It is fun. K, last night...... See, pet made a silly comment in his journal to a fellow Mansioner that this next week without release was going to be a "walk in the park". Well, I responded appropriately. Told him that he was being a very cocky little thing and I was going to make it sheer hell for him. So, after pet went down on me..which was freakin' fabulous..I unlocked him so I could play with his cock for a bit. OK, not a bit, I was ready to torture the man. I got my strap on, tightened it all up, and laid on the bed face up. I told him to lube up really good and ride me like a girl. You should have seen his face! :confused0068: I've got to say, him on top of me goin to town was quite the site to see. While he was busy bouncing on my dick I grabbed hold of his cock and stroked away. He asked me to stop...oh, I'm guessing round 6 times or so because he was going to blow. He told me he didn't realize how much work it was for me when I was in that position. Yeah...no *BLEEP*. He was really breathing heavy, so I had him get off and lay face up on the bed. More strap on action while he was holding his legs up. I kept on his dick until he was BEGGING me to stop. Poor little darling. We took a bit of a break, but I was insanely horny at this point. I told him I wanted him to fuck me from behind. Wow....that was AWESOME! :sex017: It's my favorite position. He can grab hold of me anywhere like that. Love it. After a couple great orgasms I had had my fill. I asked him how he was ever going to get his rock hard cock back in his cage. He said, "I'll go take a shower:sad0002:" with this pouty look on his face. That kind of made me irritated, so I laid him back on the bed, grabbed the baby oil and started giving him a really aggressive hand job. Start....stop. Start....stop. Start....stop. It was quite amusing. He starting begging me to stop or let him cum. I told him neither was happening. Well, this last time he was so crazy that when he told me to stop it was about a second to late. Yep, he came. Without permission. That dirty birdy. I was a bit tiffed, but he was basking in the glow so much and thanking me that I couldn't get all that upset with him. If I'm being fair, it was partially my fault, too. I teased the poor bastard so bad. We laid together for awhile and he told me he'd take whatever punishment I had for him because it was worth it. He's watching/tending to our daughter all day on Thanksgiving so I can sit, talk with family, eat without worrying about what she's doing, play some poker, and just enjoy myself. Oh, he's got laundry duty for a week, too. I really hate laundry. So, although it didn't turn out like I had planned, we still had a really great time together last night. And that's what this is all about. Until next time :manga_blowkiss:
     
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    That was awesome Jen!! I had a hard weekend myself. Friday night I said to myself "Self today is your night". Well I sure was wrong in saying that! I went to bonefish grill and brought her favorite meal and appetizers back home, and pulled out the red wine, and got ready for a great night. After we got the kids to bed we sat down in front of the tv while eating our dinner and waching some Hockey(go Panthers!). Afterwards things started getting a little kinky, and after awhile I found myself between my goddesses legs. I tell you that she must have had the best orgasm to date just by the way she started squirming. Afterwards I figured that she would unlock me and return the favor. NOT!!! She looked at me and said lets go to bed hunny bunny. My jaw fell right to the floor. Well I had no choice but to do what she said. The next evening I figured that I would definitely get mine. As it turned out I got a phone call from my job and had to go into work from saturday to sunday. I've yet to cum, and its now going on five weeks. Hopefully, this weekend will turn out to be different.
     
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    Bummer, sweets. But, really...think about how friggin fantastic it's going to be when you finally get to experience that release! My lord...better hold on to something. :mad0233: LOL!!! Hope you have a great day! :manga_blowkiss:
     
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    Its going to take me about two minutes to erupt.:smilies_xxx10:
     
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    It's not unknown to reach a point where you actually DON'T want to cum... I think xcitex2 went through that on his longest period of denial, and dollyanne did too...

    Goddess Jen, I'm sure you know, but if you do let your pet go off for a cold shower to help him get back in... don't let him go alone! I've had pet handcuffed over the shower rail and washed it for him to make sure he didn't touch it without my permission! :haha4:
     
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    Wow Ms. Watchful

    That is truly overseeing Your pet. Goodie for him.

    i find it opposite after chastity so long - that it's easy. But You may be right that one loses the urge - can see that happening as well.

    It's all about the urge. :)

    Curtsey,

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    For real, it never even crossed my mind! He would have totally needed it after last night had he not blew it. Thanks for the tip!
     
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    Well Goddess Jen, what can I say other then WOW... You told me to read this thread and WOW... You and your pet sound like you have such a wonderful time together. I'm jealous if I'm honest about it. Took me two goes to read though it ;)

    haha, I'm glad i'm not the only one who does that.
     
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    Thanks so much for taking the time to read it! I tend to carry on a bit. Sorry bout that. Not much going on last night. I chatted with a fellow Mansioner for about 2 hours. Oh, did we laugh!!! Isn't it great to talk with someone *other than your pet* who just totally "gets" you??!! It's like your long lost twin or something. It's just fantastic. I have met some of the GREATEST people of my life on this site. I have to say thank you. Since Thanksgiving is tomorrow, this is the perfect time....This year I'm thankful for all my new friends at the Mansion. You've enriched my life and that is such a great gift. Big big big :love0059: & :manga_blowkiss:
     
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    Even though im from across the pond and we dont have thanksgiving im still thankful for that to Goddess Jen
    The Mansion has been a great place to learn and to meet great like minded people :)

    Amber
     
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    You know, I don't think I could be in a better mood.

    Before I went out last night, pet and I had a quickie on the computer desk. We haven't done that in a while. Our nightly fun has been planned out lately, and this was just HOT! It was odd, too. Because I didn't want him to hold back....just keep on slammin me as hard as you can, baby. Wow...that was some fun right thar.

    I had such a great time celebrating the holiday with friends last night, and then I come home to a clean house.....provided by my pet :chores004:. What a lovely surprise and so appreciated. This man did all the laundry (well, that was part of his punishment), vacuumed, cleaned the kitchen and washed the floor.

    My family is all going to be together today which is a good thing. My brother and SIL adopted a little girl from China (she's 3) and this will be her first Thanksgiving with us. We eat too much of my mothers TOO DIE FOR feast she makes. We'll then eat more dessert, while we sit around, drink and play poker into the wee hours in the morning.

    It does NOT get any better than this. Have a great day, my friends! Gobble gobble!!
     
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