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    I've been interested in chastity porn for years. I guess I liked the extreme situations, the deviation from the obvious, and the power plays. I just didn't feel that was for me in real life. But today I started wearing a chastity device for the first time.

    Let me explain. A few weeks ago, I was having quite busy days, and a lot of non-sexual distractions that were filling my free time: simple things like meeting friends, watching movies, shopping. So before I knew it, one week had passed without masturbation.

    I thought to myself, "cool. Could I keep it up?". And then this kind of self challenge began. The second week was less easy: I was more aware of it and less busy overall. But I made it. Then I started thinking seriously about getting a chastity device, because, why not? It's a long time fantasy. I wanted to push my limits. I wanted to find out more about myself - how will I feel like about me and about women after I don't know how much time without cumming?

    So I ordered the cage, and today, 23 days since my last orgasm, started using it. I'm confident I can keep going for quite a lot more :cool:

    My first experiences have been positive. I like the feel of the cage against my skin. I would even say that my cock looks cute trying desperate to get hard, pulling the cage and squirming. And while I don't enjoy feminization fantasies, having to sit to pee is an interesting experience.

    As for women and relationships, I'm quite curious to see how it will affect my view on the subject. I'm single and it's been a bit more than 2 months since the last time I was with a woman. Since then, I have been wanting to go out with someone else but didn't have the chance (basically, the few girls I've met in this time didn't seem very interested in me). Anyway, if I have the opportunity to date someone, I would definitely take the cage off. But since I don't see that anywhere in the horizon, it stays.
     
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    @caged_controlled I expect a lengthy period without masturbation or orgasm will change one's perspective. I was out the other day with a cage on and couldn't help but notice two young, fit, clerks in tights. Over time, that is bound to evolve. I am not sure it will inspire me to clean more, but sensuality issues seem likely to heighten.
     
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    What do you mean with "clean more"?

    I haven't had any change in behavior, but I suppose 23 days is too little time. I still notice women and want them as usual.
     
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    I have been wearing a device for a year now and I still notice women in exactly the way I did before. I have read how others say that this changes their attitude towards women. It hasn't happened to me. I am still respectful in the same way I was before but if a fit woman walks past me I am definitely going to notice.
     
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    @caged_controlled By "cleaning" I was referring to those on CM who refer to being more dedicated to cleaning around the house. I have never had much of a commitment to dusting myself. I am sorry if there was any confusion.
     
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    @TimidGuy I loathe dusting! Give me a damp cloth and a mop and I am happy. Dusting is just a method of helping you realise how much clutter you have and is a lesson in futility. Stand still and watch as the dust you disturbed floats back down onto the surface you just cleaned.
     
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    @Jasmic68 Agree in all respects! I lived near a lady years ago who said her mother told her to buy cut flowers when visitors are coming because then they wouldn't notice the dust. (Something to life by!)
     
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    Interesting. I consider myself a very respectful guy, I loathe any kind of harassing and avoid looking at a woman if that might make her uncomfortable.

    When I mentioned the way I see women, I was thinking more of something like feeling less carnal desire. But I honestly don't know what to expect.
     
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    Something very interesting happened today. I had to take off the cage during the night because I woke with my balls in pain. Yeah, as the say, the first night is tough... And you know, I didn't like the feeling of not being caged. Sure, the pain quickly passed, but I got this instant hard-on and didn't feel the "protective shelter" of the cage anymore.

    In the morning, when I put the cage back on, I felt genuinely relieved :) I think I'm enjoying it.
     
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    I don't ogle or go out of my way to look at women disrespectfully, I didn't before chastity and I don't now. But I can't help that 'wow!' feeling when I see a woman who I find attractive. I absolutely hate harassment of any kind of women, I can honestly say I have never ever said or done anything like that in my life.

    The big change since starting using chastity and being controlled by my Wife is she gets 100% of my sexual energy and attention. Before some of that would have been wasted on pornography. It really has had a huge affect on her self belief and how she sees herself as a sexual person.
     
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    That sounds much more interesting than the regular shit about "control your man's sexuality". I'd like to give that to a partner at some point... but for the time being, I'm simply learning to live without orgams.
     
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    Controlling my sexuality does make my Wife feel better, but not in the Femdom control sense. Knowing that I am always ready to do whatever she wants, but also ready to not push myself onto her when she does not want the attention, is a game changer. It has allowed her to relax and this has in turn meant she is more ready for sex than before. She gets to say what we do and when we do it. I am lucky that my Wife isn't into lock and forget.

    Second to that she gets to see me literally collapse due to her touch. How can that not make a woman feel sexy? She also has witnessed so many times the genuine pleasure I get from helping her have an orgasm, and over and over again not demand one of my own. She sees me be really happy when I am allowed one, but just as happy when I am not. She has also seen what happens to me when she denies me. All of this increases her sexual confidence and makes both of our sex lives unbelievably better than it was before.

    All I had to do was give up my access to my penis and to my right to have an orgasm when I wanted it.
     
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    @Jasmic68 that's amazing!

    You make it sound simple and unimportant, but we all know it's not. But it seems worth it in the end.
     
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    It isn't, it took me the best part of a year to come to terms with it and I still wouldn't suggest I am all the way there. Occasionally I have intense 'what the hell am I doing' moments but they are less frequent these days.

    It is your last statement that makes it possible, the fact that it most definitely IS worth it in the end. I would never want to go back, in fact I have been talking to my Wife about us moving forwards with this lifestyle. She is really happy with the changes and how close we are now, I know for a fact she doesn't want to stop what we are doing.
     
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    please when you cleaning, you has to dust first then hoover after and that the best way.
     
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    But doesn't the hoover kick up a lot of dust so you then have to dust again?
     
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    it does a bit jasmic but all you has to do after is get a clean duster and wipe it over the wood bits. it don't take very long.
     
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