I realized yesterday that it was 15 years ago today, April 17th, that my Mistress, who was then my wife and legally still is, started our journey of having a FLR, cuckolding, and shortly after, full time chastity and servitude. To this day, I still cannot believe we are where we are and I am what I am. When I met my wife I was fresh out of college, and I know it is hard to believe but I was actually a second team all American baseball player at UCLA. I was in great shape and throughout college I had any beautiful girl I wanted...and did. I met my wife two weeks after her 18th birthday. She was this beautiful strawberry blonde knockout with perfect breasts, long luscious legs, and the tightest and best tasting pussy I had ever encountered. She would practically beg me to suck my cock and was amazing at it. We married two years later and I was her price and she was my princess. How things changed. Little did she know that from the time I was 5 or 6 years old that I had dreamed of being the princess and dressed every chance I could growing up in my mom's and sister's clothing and lingerie. Little did she know that about 98% of the time I masturbated growing up, I was wearing something pretty and thinking about older men touching me. Being the stud and shagging lots of girls was my way of hiding it all and denying what my true feelings were. We always explored sexually and our sex life was great. We would watch porn of all kinds and gay porn even which turned us both on. There were a few times when she put stockings on me because she said I had the sexiest legs and she saw how turned on I got. or times when she told me to put on a babydoll nightie and I protested saying "I am not gay" when really all I wanted was to put it on. More denial. About 13 years into our marriage we decided to have a 3sum with a woman. I loved it and she didnt. Then she said she wanted to try it with a man. She loved it and I got jealous and fucked it all up. But the seed was planted and we decided to try again. This was in 2001 when we lived in San Jose. This great guy came over to our place and we all got into it. She saw me suck a cock for the first time and I had already been sucking cocks before so she was amazed how much I got into it. Then he started fucking her and at one point I slid off of the bed and held her hand and watched. It was the best porn I had ever seen in my life. My own wife getting fucked in front of me. And I remember how hard she was cumming while looking at me and holding my hand. Then one fateful night after we moved to the Sacramento area, we were sitting on our front porch and she said "tell me yourr deepest darkest secret and I will tell you mine. No judgments." Gulp...so I told her about my desires to dress fully with wig and makeup and told her about how I had worn feminine things since I was a little kid. She told me that she would help me with my desires if I would help her with hers. Then she told me about a man named Joe who I knew from when she worked with him at a mall in San Jose. They had been keeping in touch and she wanted to spend the night with him when he came to town for a visit. Joe always flirted with her and I didnt really like him because of that but because I wanted to dress so badly I agreed to help her with her desires too. I dropped her off at his hotel about a week later and she spent the night with him. I was so jealous and I actually went home, got drunk, and cried thinking I had made a huge mistake. But she called me around 10pm, told me she loved me, and couldnt wait to tell me everything the next day. I felt so much better. The next day Joe dropped her off at home around 11am. She came in and told me to get naked and lay on my back on the bed and I did. She stripped off her clothes quickly and through her panties on my face. They were soaked beyond belief! She climbed on top of me, looked down at me as she sat on my stomach, and said "Joe fucked me 7 times total, and twice this morning, once just 20 minutes ago. His cock is huge and I must have cum more than 100 times. Now I want you to eat Joe's cum from my pussy" and with that she straddled my face. Her pussy is usually petite and tight but I could see it was swollen and red and used. There was white around her pussy lips and I knew it was the remnants of Joe's cum. She sat down on my face and as soon as I stuck my tongue inside of her my mouth filled with what I knew was Joe's cum. I went completely crazy eating her, trying to suck every drop from her. The entire time I ate her she told me how they fucked and where they fucked. She said Joe took her in every position she knew and then some. She eventually slid back down my body and straight onto my erect cock and said "wow you seem to like eating cum dont you sissy?" That was the first time she ever called me that and with my cock sliding into her soaking wet pussy with such ease followed by the realization that my cock was inside her pussy filled with another man's cum brought me close to cumming right away. Then I looked up at her and realized that this was the view Joe had as she rode his cock and that brought me even closer. Then she said it...."wow I never realized how small your cock is"...I came instantly and after only 2 minutes inside of her. She actually laughed when I came so fast and said "Joe fucked me for two hours straight at one point'. That was the start of me becoming pathetic performing as a male. After that she helped me buy makeup, a wig, and some clothes, and I dressed for her one night with her fucking me with a strap on. It was amazing. The next day she said "I love you so much but I had no idea you would look and act so feminine. I thought you would just look like a guy in a dress with bad makeup". Then she said "I hate to say this but I dont know if I can look at you the same and be attracted to you sexually. I am really sorry but you changed everything." I asked her what she wanted to do and she said that she had been exploring female led marriages and asked me if I wanted to try being submissive to her. Of course I said yes...probably screamed out YES but then she told me that she was going to train me like she had been reading about. That she would expect me to start doing all the housework, waiting on her hand and foot, eating her pussy anytime she wanted as long as she wanted, and she said "most importantly you will never be able to argue with me or talk back and if you do you will be punished". I thought I knew what she meant and agreed but never thought she was really serious about all of it. She was. She started training me in daily sessions lasting from as short as 15 minutes to a couple of hours or even all day sometimes. I would be kneeling in front of her as she sat in a chair, sometimes hitting me with her riding crop all the while talking to me about how I was to act and behave. How she wanted me to embrace being a sissy and then she made me promise not to touch my cock without permission. She sometimes would have me wear the newly purchased sissy satin outfits, stand in front of a mirror, and make me say I was a sissy or point out that no real man would ever wear anything like this. One time I had to repeat "I am a sissy cocksucker with a small worthless penis" for an hour! I was changing and could feel it. Soon I was bowing at her feet when I left a room she was in. She made me kiss her feet in a department store! I decided to let go of my manhood at her insistence and she became drunk with her new found power over me. One thing was missing though...a man to please her. Unbeknownst to me she was already solving that problem. One night she told me to get ready to go our for a drink and informed me that we were meeting a man she had been chatting with online. I was very nervous as we sat down and when he came in I was even more nervous. he was everything I used to be but not any longer. My body had become weak and my skin was milk white and smooth. His name was Mark and he was lean, muscular, hairy, tan, rugged and so masculine. He sat down and didnt even look at me for 5+ minutes, only staring at her and soon touching her. He stood up, pulled her up to him and kissed her deeply and told her to get used to that. Finally he looks at me and says "I hear you like to dress up like a sissy and wear panties all the time". I didnt know she told him any of that but he knew everything. I mumbled something back to him and he barked at me "WELL DO YOU?" I said yes quietly and he said "you can say it louder sissy. Everyone in here can tell you are a faggot". I was stunned and sat silent. Mistress looked at me and had this big smile on her face. She loved how he treated me and she said "I could really use help training my sissy" and he told her not to worry because he knew exactly what I needed. They kissed a lot and were touching each other's private parts. He made her cum sitting at the table. I felt so pathetic and weak and so awkward. He announced we were going to his house that was close by and I followed them as he drove her home. I saw when she went down on him at one point during their drive and it made me feel so weak again. Once inside his bedroom he told me to strip naked and made fun of my silky panties on underneath. I was standing there completely exposed and my wife was already half naked laying on the bed. He stood next to me and said "really? this is what you have had to deal with sexually? I am sorry." Then he took off his clothes. Like I said he was in great shape, hairy chest, tan, and then off came his underwear and this huge cock sprang to life. Outside of porn movies I had never seen anything so big before. And standing straight out at attention. My cock never did that even in my youth. He looked down at himself and then at my cock which was almost going inside of me at the time. No more than an inch, soft and pitiful. I felt that pathetic feeling again and then he said "which one of us do you want" to my wife. She laughed! Then she said "oh my god get that beautiful cock over here and fuck me now!" He told me to get on my knees and said "watch how a man satisfies a woman." For the next hour I watched as he fucked her in every position and so hard I thought he would break her. Her petite body was shaking with every thrust and his cock was just pounding into her. I heard her make noises I never heard her make before and cuum harder than I had ever seen her cum before. Several times she was just cumming over and over and over. I realized that I had never satisfied her or even come close to what she was experiencing. More feelings of being a real sissy and a truly pathetic one at that. When he came it was like thunder between the two of them cumming. Literal screaming from her and loud grunts and moaning from him. He fell onto the bed and she was like a puddle of being all fucked out barely able to breathe. He said "how was that for you" and without hesitation she said "OH MY GOD THAT WAS THE BEST SEX OF MY LIFE" to which he said "see what you can have anytime you want and what you have been missing?" She looked at me and realized I had heard that and mouthed the words "sorry: and "I love you". There was no looking back from then on. They became a couple and within a week I was in full time chastity. After they broke up two years later she tried to have me fuck her one night and it was a disaster. My mind was telling me that it wasnt my place anymore to perform like a man for her. I was her sissy slave. I could not get hard and all I could think about was how she didnt want me sexually. We made love one time after that in 2011 but it was an embarrassment and we never did it again. I have only cum like a man 3 times since this started and not since that time in 2011. She has had over 100 lovers since and several long term relationships and has not looked at me as her husband since before this started. And I am SO happy and never would want it any other way. 15 years ago today.