Self Chastity Test for myself now now

Locking myself up for now. I have only ever used a chastity cage to play for a few hours, but reading this site has got me inspired. I will try 2 weeks. No masturbation. I will make sure I can do it before talking to my vanilla wife. I am delaying telling her about it, until I am more sure I can do a chastity cage. We sleep with pyjamas on, so it won't be visible, and she never touches me of her own accord, or initaliates sex.

I'm a bit of a masochist, so actually looking forward to waking up due to painful erections, and even looking at porn on purpose to cause me to strain in the cage. Oops, have I defeated the purpose of the chastity device?

I am a sub, but I enjoy an internal dom voice. When woken in the night by an erection....
"What's happening, my penis hurts?"
"Well you put yourself in a chastity cage. You have to suffer that. Keep it up, get used to it. You want chastity. This is a part of the chastity journey."
"Yes you're right. I'll let it subside and go back to sleep."

I am also trying to do more chores, show her more affectio and be less argumentative. She is asking why? I am just telling her I love her and want to be a better husband.

Here's some photos of my cage. It's so comfortable and feels so nice when flaccid. Yes, I can pull out of it if I try. I am thinking of maybe a Reverse Prince Albert some time down the track.

I love this site. Thanks to all the great content.

 

Yes. I has a flexible 6mm silicon tube with a stainless steel end on it. It feels amazing. It's optional to wear that. It feels very invasive. Love it. I can post some pics of that.

 

Ok. So I was going to wait 2 weeks, but I decided to go for it. One reason was that after only a few days of trying to act as I will be when key held by her, she was a little suspicious and wanted to know why. I told her I loved her and wanted to be a better husband, but I thought she'd be upset if I had lied to her about why. I mean, it is true I wanted to be a better husband.

Another reason I did wait was because she said something that made me want her as the KH sooner. She made fun of me about my weight. I am not that big, only slightly overweight. My BMI is 27. But that's fine. I am _so_ looking forward to ridicule. A real turn on for me. She has a wicked sense of humour and this can definitely and will hopefully be applied to humiliation. I told her how hot she was. She said "Yeah, people probably look at us as a couple and say - He must have money to be with her." I looked a little shocked for a second, then laughed. She said she was glad I could laugh at myself and the joke. But I was thinking "Fuck! She will be so good as a KH!"

So I woke up as she wa showering. Waiting for her to finish and told her that chastity was something I wanted and for her to be the KH. I told her I was ashamed of how much I was masturbating, and that this would be a cure.

She was a little against it, but said Ok. She said I don't need to do this and that there's nothing wrong with masturbation. So, that's fine. It just means give her time. I also sent her a link to

https://happy-marriage.neocities.org/

So I left it there, and didn't even show her a key or the device on me. We made small talk unrelated after, as we watched TV and had breakfast. I knew not to mention it and give her time.

I didn't actually sleep that much because I am addicted to reading CM and reread the neocities one again.

Thanks to others for the encouragement and advice!!!

I feel awesome that I have told her! I am wearing the device to work and brought a key with me for while I am getting used to it in case of emergency. It's incredibly comfortable.

I had one nocturnal erection. I was a little disappointed I didn't have more. I like pain and masochism.

 

Here's my nocturnal erection pics. I am straining in the cage.

 

So I finished work, and she returned from her work. She didn't mention the chastity discussion this morning, no problem, I'm not surprised. Give her time.

She had to head to her mother's house and leave one child with me. She was really just getting ready fairly quickly so she didn't keep her mother waiting for dinner. I stopped her and kissed her, briefly, but passionately. After hugging me as well, she dropped her hand, not deliberately, but glanced my metal cage. So she got a (subtle or not so subtle) reminder. I hadn't even actually told her I had started wearing it. Very exciting for me, but I hope I haven't overstepped too quickly.

She's driven off now, and I couldn't help having a look at new posts on CM.