After spending some time in this situation of permanent chastity i begin to stay more confortable. For my birthday my wife let me mansturbate. After that she was so cute and we hug for some time. Then she said me that i will have my next orgasm on my next birthday. Then she explain me that if she let me come back on vanilla she will private me of my greatest dream: permanent chastity. After that her word would have no meaning. Then thats the reason she cant go back. She said that i eill gradually accept that. What do you think?