OMG, my penis is really as small as my wife says.

I was unlocked for 8 hours yesterday because we have some out of town friends visiting who we had not seen for 6 years. We were going to the pool and doing some things that made being locked impractical and it was not like I was going to masturbate. In fact, I did not even think of sex at all. Living among women who are over 55, with most in their seventies, does not provide the same stimulation as I used to get back up north in a mall on a Saturday.

When they left my wife reminded me to lock up again and that was fine with me since I feel better when I am locked up since I am used to it. Today my wife let me dry her off after her shower. She asked how it felt to use a urinal for the first time in a few years since I did use a public restroom. I told her that I realized that she was not just engaging in chastity play when she tells me that my penis is too small for anything and should be locked up. The reason I now know it is not just play, is that when I went to use the urinal I could not get the head of my penis out of my fly. It was too short. I was going to use a stall but the restroom was empty and I did not want to pass up a chance to pee standing up. I stimulated myself a little and bunched up my pants and pressed them hard against my body so that the head of my penis barely cleared the material. I managed to pee without peeing on myself, but just barely. I could not even shake it when done as it started to shrink as soon as I started to pee and dripped inside my underwear.

I had not realized how small my penis has become since my younger days. I have not had intercourse for maybe 15-20 years, so I never had a reason to think much about my penis length. My wife always said that it made anal easy for her, and her girlfriend said that she can deep throat me unlike what she does with her husband. After I told my wife that now I really know what she means, I continued to dry her and reminded her that it is just 4 1/2 months to my orgasm on our anniversary. That is when she casually asked me if I would give up all my orgasms for her so she did not have to think about them or my penis again. I asked her if she was asking or just being hypothetical. She said that she is asking. I said yes since I do tolerate long term orgasm denial well, I cannot get erect without advance notice so I can take 100mg of Viagra and that is even iffy, and at best I get a quick hand job to orgasm, but the last two times she had preferred to let me masturbate while she hits my testicles or puts clips on my nipples, or both. She knows that pain still makes me ejaculate faster. A lifetime of S&M and her dominant girlfriend, has conditioned me this way.

I asked her if she really was never going to let me orgasms again and she said not never since you cannot control a man if he has no hope for an orgasm. I asked when then. She said whenever she feels like it and just did not want to be limited in how long she can deny me if she felt that I was in no mental or physical distress because she likes me without an orgasm much better. She said that this year I have not annoyed her about having an orgasm at all, so she did not want to give me one on our anniversary just because it is our anniversary. She mentioned something about pretending that I do not have a penis during sex but I did not want to pursue what she meant since I am hoping that she forgets about it.

I read a lot of posts from married men here that talk about sex almost daily and lots of days of edging. I get sex once a week or every two weeks. It only lasts an hour at most because my wife quickly gets aroused and has an orgasm. Unlike some women, I have always had to slow my wife down or sex would not last more than 3 minutes. We kid that she can orgasm if I just look at her vagina. I am curious if anyone else here is in a marriage where their KH wife does not handle their penis most times they have sex? My wife does not like a limp penis, so she was just playing with me for my benefit. Since I have been telling her to think of sex as only for her pleasure, her pleasure is to ignore that fact that I even have a penis. I did not want to discuss the no penis during sex comment hoping that it is just another thing she says that she forgets about later on.

 

Long marriage blues. I was lucky up to 7 years ago because my wife had a girlfriend for 30 years who lived with us about half the time and the other half with her cuckold husband. They only had sex if I was part of it even if they never made me orgasm. They needed to feel it was hetero sex rather than lesbian sex I guess. At least I got some action in a threesome for much of that time when I was the focus of sex. Then it changed to the focus on them and I was an accessory. Even they used their vibrators much of the time. Sex for me is kissing my wife while she uses her vibrator but she gets aroused very quickly and then has her orgasms in under 3 minutes. Most times my wife has had her two orgasms in under 15 minutes and may edge me for another 15-30 minutes if she is in a mood to tease me. Our girlfriend was the one who took from a half an hour to an hour. My wife and I used to tag team her, but when I was one on one with the girlfriend it was mostly S&M with her as the sadist. The last time I had intercourse with my wife was about 20 years ago. 15 years ago with our girlfriend but I slipped out of her and came outside of her body. She was punching my face and choking me throughout it but I still count it as intercourse. I am used to no intercourse and oral as a treat a few times a year.

I am amazed as the young guys who want chastity. I could not get enough orgasms or women in my younger days. I told a guy recently that if he was teasing and denial, to get married and wait 20 years and it will come naturally.