One Step Forward, Two Steps Back

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    I have been playing with Chastity for 9 months or so now, having bought my first device last year. It was a terrible purchase as it was far too long, bulky and heavy. It was cumbersome to put on and often painful to wear. I think that will be the last time I buy a metallic device!
    Now, I have a CB6K (In pretty pink) and I am having much more fun. I am finding wearing it long term a struggle, still waking in the night with scrotal soreness. I now use baby oil on the base ring which has helped, but I just need to desensitise myself to it more.
    My problem is, I want to wear it for longer duration's, weeks at a time. But I get far too aroused when I'm wearing it. I've found with a lot of stimulation and vibration applied, I can orgasm in the chastity device. I wish I hadn't found that out! I also don't like the idea of wearing the device around my family, especially my young niece and nephew as they tend to crawl all over when playing around.
    I have considered buying a Holy Trainer V2 for the improved packaging but am unsure whether I want to spend the £150.
    I have been self-locking so far, which is part of my downfall. I have so little self-control, especially when aroused by the whole chastity idea. I find that I can abstain for 5 days easily without wearing the chastity device, but I can barely last 12 hours in the cage before unlocking myself to release.
    I guess I need an understanding Key Holder who is local and open minded! I am single, so there is no partner to coerce sadly.
    I'm starting this journal to make a reference point as to any possible progression. We'll see how it goes.
    I last cum properly 2 days ago, but today I had a ruined orgasm in my device. I'm going to set a target of not cumming for the rest of the month, but how much of that will be spent in the device, is hard to say.
     
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    lockedUp24byKH Yes Dear...Right away.

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    Freeze your keys.
     
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    Thanks for your reply. I have tried this previously, but I kinda knew that if I needed them in a hurry, i could always pour hot water over them. So it always felt a little bit of a pretense.
     
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    Well, I lasted longer than I ever have. Spent most of my free time in chastity and lasted 8 days. A new record for me. However, it ended very unsurprisingly. I was edging myself, whilst still in my device and came. I thought I had stopped early enough for it to not continue, but it did. It was the oddest orgasm I've ever had, the cum flowed out of me, but I didnt really feel the pleasure. It felt, abstract, like I was just watching this cum happening. Such a shame and a disappointment.
    I'm going to punish myself by not coming again for another 2 weeks, if I can. By then, it'll be 3 weeks since my last proper orgasm out of a cage. I'm also punishing myself by wearing my uncomfortably large butt plug more often. Its not something I get pleasure from, being so large, so a fitting punishment I think.
     
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    Wendygirl To offer advice and keep CM safe and welcoming

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    Lol
    Two things Hunny

    Why do you lock your bits up then play with them ?

    The plug that is a bit large now won't be in a few sessions time promise xx
    Xx Wendy
     
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    I like to tease myself with a vibrator when I'm locked up. If I'm not aroused, whats the point? Its gotta make me ache for an orgasm, right? :)
     
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    Mail your keys to yourself!

    The earliest you would get them is "Monday" (if you live in the States). *evil grin*
     
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    I had forgotten about my journal but this morning I feel compelled to update it!

    In the last year, I have bought more devices, got more precise sizing, visited a dominatrix and set my record to a measly 19 days. It's progress right?

    I still go through stages where I have little interest in chastity, so freely cum during those times. I guess that's the difference between having a RL KH and not. I get to choose whether to play that way or not..

    I guess my long term goals have changed. I now feel as if I want to have only ruined orgasms, anal orgasms or forced to self facial. I am yet to have a real forceful anal orgasm and am yet to even be able to milk myself. But it is something I feel I am getting closer to. There is a strong part of me that hopes to only ever have a flaccid penis and not ever achieve orgasms through the "normal" method. That is obviously waaaay off tho.

    I still feel weak though, and feel as if real progression will only ever be attainted by actual dedication to a real Mistress.

    I shall keep plugging away though.
     
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    Jessica Alexander Trans woman not a mistress or Dom

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    Sounds like you need to lock up all your vibrators and make that key as hard to get to as your cage key.
     
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    xcitedsisssy cd/sissy michelle

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    When locked up just remember one day at a time. Each time you lock up, try to beat your last lock up. Before you know it you will surpass 2 weeks, then a month, then 2 months...one day at a time.
     
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