Hey everyone, it's been a while! Hope you are all well. For those of you that followed my past posts you know that I was with this younger, attractive woman that was really enjoying telling me what to do and controlling my cage. from getting her friends involved to telling her sisters, etc.. It was a great experience. Unfortunately, as time went on after we broke up, going on two years now, we talked a little bit before I finally blocked her so I can move on. Now she wasn't someone that I would've been able to stay with long term because of the way she thought things should go. Such as she was making the same money as me, but thought I should pay for everything while she saves her money. she wanted to move her whole family into our house, and her family was all deadbeats. Many other things. She revealed to me that she used to see me as this top-tier man making good money in good shape, and she really loved my dick. as time went on when I introduced Chasity, she was into it, really into it. The issue was I started introducing small penis humiliation. Now I'm not actually small by any means but I just enjoyed her making fun. Turns out that she eventually opened up and told me that she was enjoying the Chasity but the fact that none of her friends were into it and she was making fun of my dick for so long. That it actually started slowly changing in her mind that I actually was small. She didn't see me as a man anymore and start seeing me as this weak Chasity slave. That wrecked me for a while, especially because it was the first girl I did this with, and we were engaged after two years together. I made sure to leave off on a note where it was just a kink, and I did enjoy what we had and I wish her the best. I will say moving forward. I do still like the Chasity idea, but I would never ever bring the SPH into a relationship again. I really do feel like if I never introduced any of it, she would still be up my ass trying to get back together or honestly probably wouldn't have even broken up with me. it is what it is. I have no regrets. I learned a lot. I was never built to be submissive. I'm just a natural dominant alpha. anyways, just wanted to throw that out here it's been a minute would love to get some feedback from the OG regulars. Thanks guys hope you have a great day! -Joey
Hi Joey and thanks for giving us an update. Thats unfortunate that things went the way they did but in the end perhaps it was best for you if she was going to take advantage of you in regards to her less desirable family moving in and leaving you to pay all the bills etc… My wife and I have been together a total of 18 years this year since we first started dating. The last 8 years have included chastity and FLR. The further along we have gotten the more bold I became in asking her to include more chastity and bdsm lifestyle related kinks. I think if we had not already been together as long as we had been I think she would’ve seriously questioned me and our relationship after me bringing a couple of particular kinks up. For instance, I’m a pretty masculine looking guy and that’s part of her attraction to me. About 5 years ago I really got on this sissy maid kick, I’m sure I’d been feeding my fantasy in the crossdressing section of this forum and being my wife’s sissy maid was something I really wanted to do so bad. I even went as far as buying the outfit with all the accessories. I finally got the nerve to have a conversation with her about it. I remember we were in the shower and I was lathering her with soap when I brought it up. There was a few moments of awkward silence before she finally responded. She understood based on my love of chastity and bdsm why I would be into wanting to be her sissy maid. But she said it was such a turn off for her imagining seeing me dressed like that. That there was no way she could even let me indulge because she couldn’t help but view me differently if we started incorporating this into our lifestyle. That was an eye opening moment for me. I’m pretty liberal when it comes to kink and there is a lot I’m willing to try for the sake of seeing how it makes me feel. But in some cases there’s an additional expense to your relationship to try such things and sometimes those things can be damaging and can’t be undone. I think being around 5 years later since I first brought it up and as much as we’ve both changed over that time it’s possible that my wife might let me indulge now on a very limited bases but also very possibly she wouldn’t. It would purely be for me and not her and I would rather spend time exploring kinks I know we both like.
Sounds like you dodged a bullet, and if so, the SPH saved you a lot of money and headaches in the long run! I hope the next one is a keeper!
Wow good luck with your future endeavors, don't be a slave , just a submissive unless you're into that then rock on. I myself am not that long but I am thick lol I may not reach far but I will spread the sides out.
I’m sort of feeling the same. I also went down the rabbit hole and couldn’t even get hard. I’m my case my wife can’t have sex so it was an adaptation to her disability but I was obsessing on cum eating and she acted like she was doing me this huge favour just ti watch me eat cum in front of her. I stopped it altogether because she had no real interest in it. so I just watch porn of bbw and milfs now and once in a while jerk off in front of her but even that feels stupid now. my wife and I are still in love but sexually we don’t exist.
Yeh I agree with the sentiment. I sometimes (not always) enjoy the idea of humiliating stuff like SPH, eating my own cum, becoming a prejac, pegging and so on, but I'm not actually doing it or introducing it because there's a risk she'd think less of me as a man.
Your natural dominant alphaniss is infectious. The thought of your shit kicking ex and the rest of the dingles moving in just makes me want to EXPLODE... nobody puts Joey G in the corner.
Well Done. Its a play choice between adults. You dodged a real problem. On the flip side if youdecide to engage in this sort of play you have learned a lot of lessons.
You know it's funny because I recently started talking to her again like an idiot. I unblocked her and within a week she started just naturally bossing me around and teasing me and I was like hey this could be pretty good. Shortly after a week, she was sending me videos of her giving random guys blow jobs and getting fucked lol. and she knows it drives me crazy and a tease me but the big lightbulb going on was when I asked her if we can get together and have some fun and she just without hesitation immediately shut me down like zero interest. now she was going to have me come over to clean her house and give her massages and just be teased by her but I'm like dude I think it's enough of that lol. I won't lie though. I do miss it now that I have her blocked permanently. I really like that unique dynamic with her but I don't think I can go as far as I did again I'd like to, but I just don't think I'm going to find someone that's gonna take me seriously if I do.
Maybe this is just who you are and you are pathologically bound to humiliate yourself to your gf. maybe this is the trajectory of your life and you should embrace it no matter what happens. we are sph cuck betas and this is out lot in life. tell me those words didn’t make you stir in your boi cock just a little…
sound alike she really wants you and enjoys humiliating you. As a beta you owe her this pleasure don’t you?
our kinks don't go away, it's who we are. And if you haven't noticed there are not many women out there willing to do these things. Go back to vanilla and see just how miserable you are. You're in a tough spot. Ego vs. happiness
No offense but....press X to doubt. There's your whole story, and then the truck.... Okay, *some* offense intended.
amen. I'm in that spot now. I recently fell back into that pattern of asking for sph and cuck-shaming etc. My wife is fed up with me. She was onboard when I was doing it but in my opinion not really. It wasn't really a connection between us. Rather it was her enduring me masturbating in front of her and eating it. Not really a relationship. Just exhibitionism. I don't know what else to do. She can't have sex.