The real feeling of Chastity

What an amazing week. You know how most people fall into normal routines, day after day. Doing the same thing, week in and week out. This is a good way to describe my life over the course of the past years. Get up, shower, go to work, come home, eat, watch some tv, sleep, do it again. Sometimes, I go on vacation, or a long weekend to change the pattern, but when it's over, I typically fall right back into it. However, some events have changed my way of living, which start a new routine, like a new job or a new relationship, or, as in this case, chastity.

Monday, I was very apprehensive at work about coming home. I thought that my wife would put me right to work on chores like she did all weekend long. And, that this was going to continue each and every day until Valentine's day, when I am finally going to get out of this thing. (my interest in chastity is about self denial & power transfer; not being a house husband or worse, a slave. But when I walked and my wife immediately had me undressed, handcuffed and unlocked me right there in the entryway, all my apprehensiveness went out the door. She started focusing on my like I was the only thing in the world, getting me crazy with lust. (reminder, its going on 5 weeks now!)

So, after an experience like that you really have crazy loving feelings. I thank her, hold her, made her feel special. I cooked dinner, cleaned up the kitchen, gave her a backrub while we watched TV, then after talked for a while, I pleasing her then watched her go to sleep. In the morning, as I left (kissing her knee before leaving, she promised a repeat

So on Tuesday, all I kept thinking about getting home. As my arms had hurt being handcuffed behind my back, I had picked up a crown bolt and locking anchor shackle to install in the kitchen's wooden beam. This way I could have my hands cuffed, and secured to the wall rather than behind me. Then, when I got home (again, kiss knee, undress, kiss knee) I installed the bolt, secured my hands over my head and watched her get the key and unlock me. Yea..Teased again..This is what I was lusting after!~

She looked up at me and asked if I wanted to cum. "If I cum, do I still get out on Valentines day?". Ah.. Nope. Oh well...Still it was amazing to get edged. She's getting good at this!

Wednesday was pretty much the same again, but this time, she was visibly more relaxed, less urgent, and took her time. Each time I was just about to go over, she'd stop, sit at our kitchen table just watch me pulse, looking at me go from high to back low, before getting up and doing it again. Very little was said.

After about an hour of doing this, just as I was getting close again, she asked me if I wanted to cum. "Argg..No. I'm really want a break from this device" I said. She stopped, got up and then proceeded to made herself dinner. She then sat down and ate it while I'm still locked onto the wall. Honestly, it was extremely erotic to have her just stare at me, as she ate her meal in silence.

Today when I got home this new routine was established. Walking through the door into the kitchen, she had the handcuffs laid out. I went through the process again, and then she brought out the key. She poked me in the chest, and released me from my promise!!! :-D She said "I want to see you cum. You can still get out on V. Day, but I want you to cum." Well..No complaints from me, let me tell yoU!

She then worked me over like she did all week..I was in heaven!!! My balls were on fire! And again, just as I got close, sticking my hips out, reaching for more, feeling like I'm drugged, she stopped. Argg... And I'm not allowed to talk (She made that clear last night). Then her demeanor changes, she gets all cocky; she struts over, taps my chest, and says, "but I get to decide when, you better be goooood.."

Now over the next few hours, she goes went about her business (cooking, watching TV, etc..) Every 20 or 30 mins, she'd come over, kneel and get me going again. Other than that, she literally ignored me. I'm so confused over how to feel about that. For a while, I was getting really tired of standing, my hands hurt; I wanted to ask if I could be locked back up, but each time she'd look up at me, I'd stand tall hoping she'd come over and tease me some more. I'm honestly addicted to this now.

She finally reached for the device around 9pm (I got home at 5:30!!) and undid the lock. My wrists are indented where the cuffs cut into them. I feel sore; all over. She kissed me, told me to get some food, and enjoy the evening for she has plans for me this weekend.

So I ate, I ordered some cuffs with leather straps, and now I'm typing away downstairs while my loving keyholder sleeps upstairs. I've been wearing this thing for almost 5 weeks now. Its not possible to pull out, its not possible to get hard. Its not possible to cum. Erections are painful. This Lori device has 5 spikes that cause crazy pain when you get hard as it wears on you day after day in the same place. And even if I could have an orgasm through the pain, I wouldn't do it. There is no honor there. It has, however, become a part of me. And I'm looking forward to getting this off. I'm also looking forward to getting to cum. But I'm a little worried about where she'll take me this weekend. She's really pushing the envelope; we are enjoying it, yes, but she was a crazy one in her 20's and 30's. I thought she'd mellowed out, but she's really taken charge. Its scarry but cool at the same time.. Oh well.I'm hitting the sack..

 

And today, nothing. Strange stuff. She even told me not to undress when I got home. (still had to kiss her knee). I want to ask her whats up, but I'll just let it go. Its very strange..I'm completley on edge..looking for any signs or looks..I feel like I'm in middleschool again, and I just lost the attention of someone I kissed yesterday...Strange Stuff

 

Its also amazing how quickly things can change back to normal. So Friday, the new routine went away, and on Saturday am, I was expecting to launch into another weekend of sexual play and excitement, however life seemed to go back to the mundane. Around noon, my wife and I went shopping for the basic necessities, and while in the market, my wife asked me what I wanted for dinner. I jumped at the question, and said "arn't I cooking for you". She said, "No, I want to do something special for you tonight". Cool..I thought!

So after we got home, and the things were put away, I hung out until dinner. My wife made me an awsome meal, and we talked about everything, except the previous week. I tried to bring it up, thanking her for the experience, but she asked me to hold it until later.

After dinner, she migrated to the bedroom, then called me in about 9:30. After over a month of living with her in chastity, I knew that I was in for a suprise, and she shocked me once again. She had me strip, get on the bed, and then undid my device without locking my hands up. She then got naked herself, and slid right on top of me. It was a beautiful lovemaking experience, and the most powerful orgasm I've had since I was 13. For some reason, on the 2nd time around, it was ever more intense.

And as I and she lay spent, she proped herself up on one arm, and said the things that where bothering her.

She was a little shocked last week when I wanted out. And although she really tried this past week to make it exciting for me, but it is impossible to keep up this kind of teasing lifestyle. (too much work ;-(
And the reality is that she doesn't want to continue to keyhold if I want out, and with that in mind, I don't have to wear the device anymore.

I was a very taken aback. I honestly didn't know what to say. I was disapointed, but at the same time excited to finally have this thing off me.

I told her that, and also that I thought she was taking a liking to the power role, that it was exciting to me for her to take over that position, and that she was doing great!.

She said really likes what the device does to me, in the way I give her attention, and how we have become more intimate. She also likes the oral sex, in that she feels much closer to me when I'm doing that. She admitted that she had fantasized about being the top, but realized she couldn't be there if I wasn't a willing participant.

I wasn't sure how to respond to that, but she continued. She told me that she would hold me key in the future, but it would have to be a real lifestyle change. It would be on her terms, and I would be commiting to this full time. She said this is complely my decision. That I should think long and hard before I make this commitement, and if I do choose to go through with it, I'll have to sign a contract outlining whats expected, a release schedule, and penalities.

And with that, our conversation was pretty much over.

So now, hanging free, I'm missing the device, but also very happy to be out of it. I'm very nervous at the same time that sometime in the future I might sign that contract, and place myself in a situation I can't get out of. Its very scary. Either way, My wife gave me a big hug this moring. I really love her.

 

Ah...Good advice. I think we are both at extremes right now..She made it clear that 1/2 measures won't do, and I am clear that unending isn't for me.

I am sure that over the coming weeks and months we'll find a way to come to an agreement.

I'm going to give it some time to sink in.

Thanks!

M

 

Hey MistressC and PansyTart. I think your both right.

For me, the device is very uncomfortable day in and out. I'm athletic, and having that thing between my legs takes some serious getting used to. The chastity denial thing is the easy part. I actually really enjoyed the play, and didn't mind the pay at all.

After more conversations with my wife this week, it is very clear to me that any device I get must be secure. Her intention is to see me reliant on her for all orgasms. She doesn't want my hands on her property. She's very specific, and unbending on this. She has also taken a 'whatever you want to do" attitude, in that "its my way or the highway, you decide." I think she's excited about the prospect of having me at her mercy, and in my humble opinion, going to go balls to the wall dominant if I submit.

LIke I said before, its exciting as hell, but at the same time, very scary, as I know my wife well..If I go under her lock and key, she will take me for quite ride I may never get off ;-) :-(

I've asked her to re-visit the contract, and put a 'end date' in there..The ball is really in her court.

M

 

Well..so far, so good. We had some play last night, and talked afterwards about how we can meet in the middle

I finally got her to agree to a definate timeframe, however she has put some conditions that must be met for the term to end. i.e. On certain things, (like not following rules, or unapproved orgasms, one of her punishment options is to extend the duration a period of weeks. Then we moved into how long would the timeframe be; she wanted 12 months, I wanted 3 months.

Another one is my punishment if I do something really bad. She doesn't want to hurt me, but she does want to exert her authority. And as she's read Mistress Angela 'The Wife's View", she suggested using a pro dom for real punishment. This from someone just a few months ago that would let me out when asked!!!.

When I begain pushing back, she sweatened the deal by saying if I made it the whole time, she'd bring in a girl for a reward . This was a big suprise, and something really exciting for me. She used to let me play with others (;-) back in the late 90s, but now that we are older, this is really new. ))

With regard to my device, if I do make my way out of the device in an unauthorized fashion, the chastity duration doubles. Keep in mind, the Lori device I have now is very secure. I've spent about 3 hours one night a few weeks ago trying to get out, to no avail. The spikes are covered with surgical rubber, making pulling out a waste of effort to try, Its not happening. And if I ever did get out, I'd never get back in. Orgasm is out of the question, as the spikes hurt way to much. Its a secure device.

So, she is putting the final touches on the contract. I'm non commital, but the idea of getting double BJ really turns my head (so to speak).

M

 

Quick Update at weekends end.

We had a good weekend.

We talked more about lockup, and duration. I've agreed to go under the lock after a Valentine's Day orgasm until Memorial day . I have that day only to decide if I want to be locked up for the summer. There are punishment extensions in there which can extend my lockup time, pushing out my free date, however the date can't go beyond Labor Day. (same rule apply's though; 1 day to opt out or I get another 90 days). Seems simple enough.

We also talked about the two outside players. First is a pro-dom; My wife is doing the investigation on that, while I get to find an 'escort' for the day I get out. All the specifics on that are not clear on either of them, however my wife really is using the escort idea as a bargaining chip; and honestly, the thought of having my wife instruct another women to torment me is very exciting, though I've never been dom'd before ; Yikes?

She's still building the contact out, or at least won't let me see it yet..lol..she keeps coming in and asking me questions though. I think she's realy excited about this..and so am I, I guess..This is fun...

M

 

OK..This is f(*&kd. I need some advice.

Tonight she sat me down, with 12 days left before going back into chastity, and laid down some rules. Without going into details of the normal contracts, what really freaked me out was the rules around punishment, and that she has been interviewing dom's all week ?!?!?!! I know we had talked about this just a few days ago, but it didn't seem real until now. I'm not sure if I can actually manage someone having this much control over me.

She wants to set up a punishment rule that says if she decides Ive crossed a line, she can have me go to a femdom for punishment. She refered back to the roleplay conversation 2 months ago saying she needed authority over me, and would not punish me herself. She said the femdom's she spoke with said this was normal rules, and that the way it would work is I go when she tells me to; and if I refuse, the dom keeps the key until I show up, plus it will be worse.

Is this normal? ....hold that though..I know this isn't 'normal', but what I mean is has anyone else experienced this, and do you think I should be nervous about this? I've never been a bottom, let alone gone to a professional.

Anyone??

Thanks

M

 

Love the image there. I'm really torn on this as I've been thinking over it all last night and today.

The thing is my wife is very nonchalant on this. I brought it up this AM , and again later today, and she just dismisses this saying "These are my rules; its completely up to you if you want to go through with this".

And I'm all over the place. I think she's getting tired of my back and forth.

EDIT: Its an interesting night; I asked her to fool around tonight, and she said no, but then said "Why don't you enjoy your last days free for a while, and ""serve yourself"". She wasn't being witholding, she just gave me official permission to jerk off...lol..Cool...

M

 

I've been enjoying my last few days of freedom. I say that now that I've had a chance to review the contract, and agree to most of the terms. I'll post the contract later this week in the contract section, when I have some time.

The weekend was spent masterbating. Very little sexual contact with my wife, or interplay. It was, in fact, just like normal before I got the Lori device. Then on Sunday night , she went down on me, and to my suprise, actually swollowed. It was the first time she ever did that. Then, again every night this week I've been getting great head. This is cool ;-) She's become quite proficiant at it too.

So, I'm enjoying my last 4 days before I go under lock and key for 90 days. My fear about a 3rd party has sort of diminished as I get sort of excited about it. My wife has assured me its just an insurance policy, and she needs something to hold over me.

Either way, I'm enjoying these days.

M

 

Time is closing fast. I'm getting sort of nervous. Yes..there is hesitation! There is one thing to fantasize about having your penis locked up, with no access, while also having your wife 'own' you. It is a completely different thing to have it day in and day out.

I found this out two times during my last lockup. The first was when I woke up at night, and realized that even though I wanted that device off (my nightime erections where causing severa pain due to Lori's splikes) there was no way to get it off. The second was when my wife started saying no to me.

I think the most scary part for me is my wife; the great unknown. She started off a few years ago intreaged by this idea, but not realizing the power she held over me. This last time, however, she really pushed the bounds, and feeling her oats. Keep in mind she's always been the submissive one in the relationship. Early on in our relationship when we were in our 20's, I'd was the one who 'decided' everything. Her voice was not there unless I chose to consider it. If I wanted sex, I took it. If she did, well..she'd have to wait until I wanted it. And looking back, I think I took her often when I knew she didn't want it. Also, we used to get into some pretty serious drunken arguments; she would always take the brunt of my anger, and I admit I was an ahole back then.

Now over the years as we get older, we change, but the roles remain. When I first told her I wanted her to own my penis, she was doing it because I asked her to. Now though... It was one thing for me to realized she held power over me, but it was entirely different when she realized she held power over me. (if that makes sense). These last two months I have seen changes in her I could not have imagined, or fantisized about. Take last night..She initiated the conversation about the contract; told me it was the last chance to modify it. And by the looks of this contract, she's on a power grab. http://www.chastitym...0__gopid__59536

Now I completly trust my wife. I love her, and realize that this is only a game, but it is still scary to put yourself in someone elses hands like this regardless of how much fantisy there is. I'm set to change my life for 3 months! ; yup..lets of trepidation

M

 

Twas the night before chastity, and all through the house, not a creature was stiring, except for the wife

As I'm watching this great Roman show, my wife comes up, sits down between my legs, and starts to go to town again on me. I think this is like #5 bj in a row.

Then, while i'm all hot and bothered, she eases up, and begins a conversation about tomorrow with "So, are you really ready for this?" I nod my head; "yea".

Its this connection as friends that makes this soo cool. The fact that we are able to discuss it, and that we're doing so while she's stroking me is the best, and something that I've always thought about. Its an intimacy that comes with this chastity idea.

She opened up tonight on her excitment about this, telling me how before she was doing it for me, but now she wants to take advantage, and do it for herself. She said understood my angle of powerplay, and really wants to push that idea hard. She kept asking me if I was really ok with this, bringing her insecurities out.

I really assured her over and over that as soon as I sign that contract, I'm hers. "Just go easy on me" I said smiling, but no..she jumped all over that statement; "I don't want to go easy, I want this to be real". She was really adamant about this. I told her I was just joking, and that "yes, when I sign that contract tomorrow, I'll live up to it". "You promise" she confirmed for like the 3rd time.., "Yes!".

She then went back to town on me and finished me off, giving me a great smile, gulp and 'Ahhhh" afterwards. "Tomorrow, after you sign, we'll have sex before I lock you up".

So, this thing starts again..>>I'm actually very excited about it. And I am really excited about how my wife is taking charge of this. This "I'm doing it for myself" statement seems to be hanging with me tonight.

I'm just head over heals on this one..:_DDDDD I can last 90 days, right??

M

 

I'm tired, and its been a very long day but I just had to write this down. I got locked up today ; again. But this time, its really different; I can tell.

When I got home, everything was pretty much normal. I did the valentines day thing, had some conversations, then ate dinner, and went to watch some TV.

Around 9:30, my wife called me into the bedroom, and had the contracts layed out. Also, the new handcuff's, digital safe, and lori's device were out as well. She had signed the document.

I was like "OK, here it goes", and signed away!!! ;-) As soon as I signed, she cuffed my hands, and indicated for me to get undress, and hop on the bed. This all happened in silence..

She then got ontop of me, and guided me right inside. As she was on top, she controlled everything, but it didn't take long for me to release.

Afterwards, as she sat ontop of me, she took my head, kissed me strongly and wispered in a fendish voice "Your about to be tested, feel free to test me". She then raised herself up, and lowered herself onto my face and said "Finish me off".

Honestly..I was grossed out; but I dared not say anything; Her 'test me' remark was a dare, and I wasn't going to try, especially 10 mins after signing a contract like this. So I lapped her up, and for the first time, cleaned up 'my mess'.

She put the device on while I went to town on her, and after she came, we talked for a bit. - Evidently she'd been planning this, and wanted to be sure she'd tasted cum before making me do it. She also explained that this is expected from now on. She talked with such matter of fact authority; like a parent to a child. "From now on, you'll clean up your mess without being asked".

Then, things returned to normal again. I am clothed while I type, but locked away. The device is comfortable, but tonight will be tough no doubt with nightime erections. Tomorrow its work, then lets see what the night holds.

M

 

Last night was rough; Today was basically getting used to the device again. Coming home I guess I was expecting some form of treatment, but life was normal. No requests, no demands. Clothes remain on with permission. Pretty basic day.

 

Thanks..The story is pretty much beginning, as I'm only on my 2nd day now.

Again, pretty normal day. No requests. no demands. In fact, the only real comment from my wife has been her confirming that I have no problems. The lori device is working as advertised..Feels good to have on, but sitting in the car in traffic isn't the best.

I'm wondering what this weekend will hold..Still cold as heck out.

M

 

Just another quick update

Sleep is coming to me, as I get used to the device now..

Also, I'm getting hornier by the day. ;-) I can also tell I'm getting more touchy / feely toward my wife.

Whenever I go 'greet her', kiss to the knee, I am finding myself lingering more, touching her shoulder, giving her a massage, hug, etc..

She's smiling at my attention, a tilt of a head here, a hand on my hand there, but its pretty much unspoken, and not responded to.

And no teases, or requests. I suspect this weekend we'll play.

M

 

So when I got home from work tonight, I greeted my woman by kissing her knee, then was taken by a very strong hornyness, and gave her a hug, kissing her neck. I was moving into a passionate feeling, getting really horny. She exposed her neck more for my kissing. My hands were moving up and down her sides, then I moved around to squeezed her breasts, she moved my hands away. "You can't touch those" she told me. What?? "You mean now?" I said "Are you ok?". "I'm fine, but you can only touch me with permission". Then, what seemed like she was confirming her authority, she said "Your still have to do what I say, right". I nodded. She reached down, shook my chastity device, and said "We'll take this off on Sunday for some play time. Provided you show your best behavior" I nodded.

And this is interesting. This is the first time my wife has actually denied me from touching her in whatever way I wanted . But it was also exciting the way she spoke to me, and that she gave me a date! Yea..!

Anyway..the night went on as normal, and around 10, right when she settles down to a book, (and me to TV), she called me into the bedroom. I honestly must say, I was a little annoyed as I had just sat down and kicked my feet up, but I leaned into the room and said "Yea?" She motioned me to come to the bed, and when I walked in, she indicated for me to lean in ; she wispered "You need to give me an orgasm" and she moved her legs apart slighly. I was a little torn; I actually wasn't horny at all and had really wanted to just veg before sleep! But I wasn't going to deny that request. I kissed her on her cheek and said something like "I am here to serve the goddess". As she got herself positioned, and took her panties off, she said "Undress, and put your clothes away, you won't be needing them this weekend".

She really responded to my touch, and over the next 15 mins, I got more and more horny as she moved and thrusted, and held onto my head. After she came, she held me there for a few mins, then smiled, and released me. As I stood up, she reset herself under the covers, and thanked me. I was a little taken aback, as the thank you was like something you'd say after bringing you a drink or something. I leaned into kiss her, and she stopped me in my tracks with her hand. 'No no no" she said. I guess I was dismissed.

I'm not sure about this feeling of rejection; or at least that is how it feels. I was horney too, and boom. So now after typing this, I'm going to watch some TV then hit the sack . My face and hands still carry her smell.
M

 

Just a quick update, now that my 'tasks' are done for the weekend and I've got some downtime. My wife, or she now wants me to call her, my goddess, has been giving me sh&t to do all over the house all weekend long. She keeps playing on my hornyness well, as I'm doing this naked and occasionally comes over, fiddles with my device just enough to get me hard, and then goes back to something else. I guess this is keeping me excited knowing I'm actually going to get something tonight.

I did get to dress this AM as we went shopping, but after I got home, she had me undress as soon as I got out of the car in the garage. She's really loving this; I can tell. On my side, I've not really expressed any negative emotions as I don't want her to either threaten me with terms of the contract or do I want her to back down. I'm getting excited with all her bossyness; though it is wearing thin at times. She has taken to talking to me like a child when giving me things to do, or saying "Well done" like puppy dog when I finish things.

The device is starting to weigh heavy on my as I walk around without clothing. With clothes, underware can support me, but without, all is free to hang, and this steel is heavy.

Anyway..I'll toss up a update tonight after I get some..I'm just actually counting the hours...;-=)))

M

 

Well..Yesterday night was not quite what I had in mind. My wife had led me to believe I was going to get an orgasm yesterday, but what I got was a 10 min erection, as the contract stipulates. (once a week).

All weekend long, she promised me I could go inside her, and when she locked me down on the bed,and removed the chastity device, I was very excited. But what she did was start a stopwatch/count down timer, jumped on top of me, and let me screw her for a minute...all the time, telling me 'you better not cum'.

Each time I was getting close, I'd ask for permission, and she'd just lift herself off of me, and then reposition herself over my face. She must have done this like 3 times when the buzzer went off. "I'm the only one who gets to cum this today" she said.

Talk about frustrated. I get to watch her squirm, while she locks me up after a 10 min erection. I must say, it was very very horny, and enjoyed watching her get all excited while she denied me. But being denied like that, its one thing for a BJ, its another to be so close while inside of her.

Afterwards, when we settled down for the night she told me flat out "I'm going to make you wait a long time for an orgasm; I want to see what you'll be willing to do to cum".

So, another week of nada.

M