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    Good evening,

    Writing small Journal while being locked by keyholder.
    As my personal experience today is 3 weeks .



    Hope everyone is doing well in these uncertain times :) .
    Last week 07.01.2022 .on Friday 10 pm I started chastity contract with Mistress Star so today at 10 pm will be first week locked . Oh forgot to introduce myself I m known as Chastity Slave 31 .

    I got in touch with Mistress Star few weeks ago over portal Fetlife and later discord BoundBDSM community, where I learned more about her and chastity contracts and met many people all helpful and kind. On Discord are also hosted community event about many different topics extremely useful. This week was event about rope tutorials.
    Well to get back to the topic me and Mistress Star agreed to contract she accepted me now I m serving for the duration of one mount .Personal choice why I decided to enter service is to spent my time more productive way heal my mind and body. Hate to admit but have small porn problem when I simply spent to much time on porn and masturbation when I could be doing more productive things also need to get in better shape and Mistress Star is helping me with those problems to solve them. So far I would say is going really well for me this week been relay busy and don’t even have time to think about it . But when I have free time I get all worked up and thinking about it takes quite a while to calm down. But biggest difference is when I was trying to self lock is you can unlock when you want it takes quite a will power to stay locked my longest record was a one month and two days. Now reality hits I can t unlocked myself with out Mistress Star permission even if I want too just need to stay locked and calm down till it passes but it can get quite frustrating. Not much yes since I will be locked today at ten pm one week. I m expecting next week will be for me quite ruff . This week I woke up few times during the night but not much. The most annoying thing so far is morning wood it can t be help and it takes for me around twenty minutes to calm down .On Monday I had small crisis was reading erotic stories and watched some porn videos, wanted to see abut hypnosis and conditioning hopefully will explore it one day with Mistress Star. well to get back to topic it really got me going and dripping and erection in my cage got quite painful it took me thirty to fifty minutes to calm down tried also with cold water tats when reality bit hit me that I can t do as I please and will need to wait on Mistress Star permission.
    It is first time for me that somebody else has control over it. It is really thrilling and frustrating at same time for me . I can only hope my service will please Mistress Star.
    For me is quite thrilling cause I wished for long time for something like this arrangement and I need to recommend this will see how will go next week but I m quite excited even though I know will be quite ruff for me. But also need to give fair warming it is quite a commitment and is not for everyone. Anyone wishes to enter such commitment needs to prepare it self and really know what he or she wants . So far I personally really like this arrangement. Will most likely give updates at later date how it is going . My apologies if is written bit simplistic or there are some mistakes English is my second or rather third language. I had fun writing short blog and I hope you'll enjoy reading it.

    I wish everyone a great evening.
     
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    Good Evening,

    Hope everyone is doing well. It has been two weeks since my last update. Sadly quite busy with work currently was hoping that would manage weekly blog also writing them as part of my task. To bring quickly everyone up to speed. It has been tree weeks since came to chastity agreement with Mistress Star. I must say past tree weeks was amazing experience so far quite a roller coaster. First week past with out much problems few issues during morning and night but nothing noticeable. Did also few mistakes so got justly punished for them. Second week was much more troublesome, had task not to watch or read any erotica during the week but on weekend needed to watch each day two hours of porn, was quite a frustrating experience. Had also problem with nocturnal erections waking few times during nights also early morning wake ups, it took me quite a while to calm down every day twenty to forty minutes. Cold showers helped a bit to calm down faster. I would explain second week as the hardest week so far start of third week is ups and down with slight mood swings and somedays had problem in the nigh and morning and other days no problem at all nice and peaceful night of sleep. I also earned release as reward true the point system yesterday on Thursday so that means I was able to be three hours unlocked and get some release. But at the moment I m on such stage I don’t know if I want release or not. Then decided to get release but decided to experiment cause didn’t want to lose current mind set. So sended prof of unlocking cleaned myself and put my smaller cage with utheral plug and then it took me bit over two hours to achieve some success, slowly milked myself so it slowly dribbled out feeling was like peeing but you cant control it got much less pressure but same lvl of hornines and frustration as before release. After unlocked cleaned myself and re locked in other cage and sended proof of locking to Mistress Star I hope Mistress Star will be pleased. Hopefully next week will go also in similar way. I recommend to try with keyholder instead of self locking then you truly experience chastity and see if is for you or not. Recording to check out https://www.boundbdsm.net/blogs you will get nice ideas and hopefully learn something new and also really nice community on discord. Chastity service is also great attest for me, suits my personal needs really well.

    I wish everyone a Nice evening

    Chastity Slave 31
     
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    Thanks for sharing.
     
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    Good Evening,

    How is everyone doing, hope everyone is doing great. Now is my fourth week being locked . It is been up and downs mornings were still quite frustrating few times woke up also during the night .
    At start of the week till Wednesday needed to find ten things that excite me but porn and erotic novels were excluded from the list it was quite hard thinking, to get list filed struggled quite a bit . On Tuesday had meeting with fellow chastity slave we talked about many interesting things what's going on and how we are processing entire journey so far our struggles and frustrations. We found out that we have quite few common points and love and hate relationship with being locked, but we but quite like being locked and in service of Mistress Star. I really liked the talk with fellow slave was interesting experience and I got additional prospective. Also last week was quite busy for me allot of work related travel lucky travel was by the car so no airports and related struggles. So far journey was quite exciting allot ups and down but managed go true with Mistress Star guidance hopefully all will go well and continue into next mouth. Also my personal task are going quite well, trying to push myself to get more fit and Mistress Star is relay helping me with those goals so far been doing allot of steps weekly would say around average 150 000 steps weekly. It really has been quite interesting journey so far allot of commitment but it is really huge difference of being self locked or actually have key holder that has eye on you and keeps control over you and is communicating with you and also understanding you.

    I wish everyone great weekend ahead
     
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    Good luck with it
     
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