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    well, I have a mini "release" coming up. Not really anything exciting but I do have permission to remove my cage in order to go to the doctor. Funny but even that is longed for as it is starting to be difficult to keep on. Oh well June will be here soon, I hope!
     
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    Cant wait till June to meet you jenny, it may just be one day but I am sure we can pack it full of fun!! LOL

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    Oh, and I meant to thank you jenny for the wonderful Mothers Day card, you are so sweet!!
     
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    Thank you Mistress, I am glad to be in your care. Wanted to send a card yet was not sure if it is approiperate to send a mothers day card to a MILF (grin) Your note really came at a good time. Had a doctor appointment that was no fun today. You always make my day, thanks again and hope to see you soon
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    I intend to really make your day in June!! LOL

    Hope everything went well sweetie, now get My property back under lock and key!

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    Mistress Michelle, yes your "property" is now safely locked away. Have not gotten the key back to the bank but will do it soon; as the temptation grows if it is available. I am glad to get those apointments out of the way, but thanks for allowing me to unlock, do not want to involve health care professionals in my "lifestyle choice". Now looking forward to the summer and when I get some time off work being able to get all of this nasty hair that has grown back waxed off. Have been to the doctor several times recently so I have put off having a brazillian but getting to be the time for it, going to be difficult to spend a summer in the south with shaved legs( i usually wait until winter) but do not want to see you in person for the first time and not be able to get all dolled up!

    On a non sissy note really hoping that it does not rain this weekend, I cut hay and cannot bale until Sunday afternoon, now there is a chance of rain! argghh I am not really a very good hobby farmer, would rather just dress like the farmers wife (maybe daughter)! Hope my Mistress is having a good day and I will post more soon.
     
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    I need some hay for My goats jenny, why dont you throw some in the truck and bring it to Me LOL
     
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    have not forgotten about my journal Mistress, just do not have anything real fun to write about. Been very busy, and little time for any sissy type activities, I carved out some time from my jobs to take my son camping last weekend and almost had forgotten how difficult it is to eliminate wasye in the woods and not piss all over yourself, I mean between the cage and the PA it is an accident waiting to happen. Please excuse, hope was not too gross, other than that I spend a lot of time trying to redirect my thoughts from sex, it seems like it has been a million years since I had a big O, oh well I asked, no begged for this so I might as well enjoy it.
     
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    Has been a trying week, I sometimes cannot believe that I have not gotten out of this device yet and taken care of myself, I am past horny and working on numb, I know sounds like I am griping, sorry just tryig to say how I am feeling....

    A little worried about next month and my visit to my Mistress. How will my wife take it? Is there going to be hell to pay or just more apathy, i truely am not sure which one would be worse. enough rambling for on night, I have to stop drinking on work nights...It does help me to forget that I have not had sex for a year and go to sleep though.....
     
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    It'll be ok jenny...give Me a call when you get an opportunity so we can chat a bit. I think you need some encouragement!!

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    i know what you are going through jenny. If you don't believe me see the begining of my thread "rachels trip". You are suppsed to feel scared, tenative, apprehensive. Hell i still do at times. All i can tell you Jenny is everything will be alright. i can also tell you from experience you will most likely get more apathy. At least that's what i get. i don't know if she truely doesn't care about us or just let's me visit MM because she know i need it.

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    Thank you Mistress, I look forward to speaking to you!

    Rachel, thanks for the advice, you are miles ahead of me in several areas, i enjoyed reading about your adventures! Man I am not sure that I could be calm at the mall while talking to a coworker and going to get my ears pierced! you go girl, but on the other hand at one time I used to hide to wear stockings and only ventured out with them on (under pants) at night, now I wear hose to work most days and garter belts to keep them up on regular occasions, not a big deal.
    I agree about the apathy and I dread it, not sure what I want to do about my relationship, I know I dont want it to end but do not think i spend the rest of days as a eunoch either. Trying to find common ground with her is how i got into chastity, figured that if i put her in cotrol of my cock we could go on extended sexless weeks and I would still get the dominance I crave? Worked out that she liked the idea of me not getting a hardon and then promptly ignored it. I on the other hand fell in love with wearing my cage......go figure
     
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    ok, the good, I never need an alarm clock... I am up at 5:30 no matter how much i drink or how late I stay up! The bad, I am up at 5:30 amd sometimes more with a crushing pain in my shaft!

    Been a long time for me since I have been able to get any pleasure out of my thing.... Soemtimes wonder why I do this and then remember that I am abondage "freak" and love the sensation of being locked, just right now would really like to be "unlocked", really need to quit looking at porn and captioned pics, they just lead to massive discomfort after a few drinks

    Lots of family and work obligations at this time of year, really looking forward to June when my house ought to take on a more mellow atmosphere,
     
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    Funny how we tourture ourselves isn't it Jenny. We look at those pics knowing full well there is nothing we can do about the ensuing erection. If we "really" hated that feeling we would be doing more vanilla activities like farming,lol. If you think torturing yourself is fun wait till Mistress Michelle gets a hold of you. Your frustration will increase 10 fold. Enjoy my friend enjoy. Mistress usually has me wear the medium POI's but a a week or so ago i noticed a small cut from them. Mistress gave me permission to change to the short ones for a bit. In the mean time my wife lost our ONLY key and now i can't change them back to the mediums. While i don't miss the early morning wake ups and and sleeping better, i sure do miss waking with thoughts of MM in the mornings.

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    thanks for the advice Rachel, In truth I do try and stay off the computer while it is "light" outside but that is not really an excuse for looking at captioned pics, I love to read too and have quite a few books that I could be working on, guess I am just focusing too much of mind on my little brain. Well, I will get better abot that and try and mantain a more chaste mindset as well as actions, not going to be easy, really want to share my predicament, no wrong word, pleasurable submission and its not really a subject that you can talk about to anyone else. Thats one of the things i lik e about the site, a group of reasonably sane adults that all share some aspect of a lifestyle that I enjoy. Somedays I wonder why I could not just take up golf like all of the "normal middle aged men"!
     
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    Dont worry jenny, I will make sure you are well rewarded when you visit for being such a good girl and trying so hard. I know its difficult when I cannot chat with you and interact with you as I do the others. It really makes the difference when you can spend time with the One that holds your key! But, we do what we can do, so just keep in mind its all worth it, and I'll prove that to you when I see you ;)

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    Happy Memorial day to all of you out there! I had a good day off work yet a little embarresing. I attended an Indian Pow Wow in a city near my home and really was enjoying it. I love native American culture, well between the bottles of water and coke with lunch, nature called. I was looking forward to getting back to the exebits and did not take the care I usually take in public, well a guy saw my cb! Not sure how much he saw but I turned red all the same and barely buttoned up my BDU's on the way out of the fairground restrooms! Turns out he was the Indian that I had been watching knapp flint for quite a while and he gave me a big smile when I saw him at the dancing arena. No harm no foul, just a little tense moment on my part. Hate to stereotype yet I have noticed that many(not all, never say all about any group) Indiginous peoples are very open minded about whatever kind of life you wish to lead. Though I do not consider myself gay, I have a handfull of friends that are and have noticed that many indians could care less either way. Maybe just rambling here but just wanted to post and say hello to my Mistress! Hope that you all had a good holiday and remember the reason for Memorial day
     
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    I have not had a lot to pst of late. Still trying to deal with wearing my CB on such a long term basis. I really am frustrated yet at the same time perversely enjoy it. I know that many out there have been chaste for much longer than myself, but this is the longest that I have been without touching myself since I first discovered it.....not trying to gripe just relating my expeiance. I almost forget about for periods of the day and then get reminded like today was crawling under a house to fix a broken pipe and had my cage get bumped on a tight place and the whole emotional aspect of this came rushing back at me, can be pretty powerful. I am so excited that my Mistress is going to let me visit this month. Cannot wait, hope that my short trip will not disapoint. Well I need to head off to bed for the night and rest for another days work. Hope that my Mistress is well and knows that I am thinking of her
     
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    I am doing well jenny, and looking forward to seeing you this month. Dont worry about the short visit, I can cram alot into a short time frame when need be LOL
    And as far as being locked so long, dont worry, it will all be worth it when the teasing begins ;)

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    Thank you Mistress:
    I was glad to get to see you in the chat room this evening. Thanks for for the invitation to the event, it sounds like it will be a lot of fun and I can't wait. The only problem is that I wish I lived closer and could do this more often! If you wish to coordinate schedules or anything, call me. Hope that you have another good day, see you soon!
     
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    Wow what a great birthday! My mistress kindly allowed me a release for my birthday and then since I had been working outside all day she allowed me to use it on the next day, I did not have access to my “emergency key” and had to wait for the bank to open, that safety deposit box was on my mind all evening and getting this darn cage off. I was allowed to stroke in the shower and then had to consume what came out, ewww. That always sounds so sexy to me until I have to do it…. The impulse falls off right as I cum and well I had to force myself. Guess it was a normal as many have poste4d here at the site that they have trouble eating cum, was kind of sexy / slutty to lick it off my lips in front of the mirror though.

    All too soon I was clean and dry and had to reattach my dreaded cage and go put the key back in the bank. Got some funny looks from the bank manager. 2 trips in one day after weeks and weeks of no visits to the safety deposit box. Did not have a chance to dress for my birthday but may soon, just wanted to mention one of the best birthday presents I have ever received.
     
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    Jenny thanks so much for rubbing that in. i would be glad to just be able to do this :jerkit: or this :kissass: especially this :hump: hell even this :balls: might do something but i would really like to do this :smilies_xxx10: to someone . You are one lucky stiff well maybe not now but you were.

    MM's sweetpea
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    Soo dang hot today, and I had to work outside most all day, not a girly day at all. Had to crawl under a house and the dust and dirt, ewwww. was able to pick almost a peck of peaches off my trees, made a tasty cobbler with oatmeal intead of cake flour and froze several quarts of peaches. Trying to be healthy and loose weight but I just love to eat!
     
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    I LOVE Georgia peaches!!! And youre right...its too hot.Its hot here, I cant imagine being in Ga in the summer. Just think jenny, a week from right now and you'll be here with Me....hummmmm, I just had several thoughts of what to do with you run through My mind :)

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    Jenny whatever you do DON'T forget some peaches!!!!!!!! Never hurts to bring Mistess a :gift-060: only you can bring. Just sayin.

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