Never ever did I ever think I would end up here

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    Girlytoy That's me in pic, 24/7 trans sissy

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    I have been living as a woman for a long time. But there was always a repressed sissy underneath. I used BDSM to express my submissive sissy side. Yet it really is not a fetish for me. It is who I am. I have been allowing my sissy to flourish in real life as of late. Of course I have seen chastity used in many ways but I always said it was not for me.

    I just went through an incredibly long divorce after 25 years of a loveless and sexless marriage. After all that frustration, thinking that no woman would ever want me, I have turned my attention towards men. I have now been sexually active again after years of being sexually dead. This sexual reawakening has been frustrating as well, particularly with Covid but even before that. I find myself wanking like a guy thinking of servicing men. I would love to experience an orgasm from penetration (and I realize that may never happen) but I get in my own way so that after a few minutes of anal stimulation I throw in the towel and go for quick relief by masturbating like a guy. I hate it! Part of my frustration with sex with men is that I have not been able to get anything regular established. I held out a long time in search of a relationship. I am getting older fast and finally decided I was going to find sex anyway I could while I still could. I have finally been able to get some satisfaction, usually with strangers. Some guys insist in playing with my genitals and I find this repulsive.

    So having a cage would serve the dual purpose of preventing me from wanking and preventing guys from touching me down there. After perusing some of the posts here, I decided to order some inexpensive metal cages. I did some measurements and tied my tiny balls in increasingly tighter configurations until I was able to prevent the smaller one from slipping out and still keep them tied comfortably while doing things. I have been tucking for 20 years so this was a bit of a challenge.

    I have been learning from reading the forums and I think I have come to the right place. I really love how caring, helpful, knowledgeable, and respectful you members are. I look forward to my experience here. Thanks for having me.
     
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    Hello and welcome. I hope you find what you're looking for. Things may get easier as we move out of lockdown. Good luck
     
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    Welcome!
     
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    welcome to the Mansion
     
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    A very warm welcome to CM. As you rightly say, COVID has made life difficult for everyone who is not with a partner full time. I hope that in time you find what you want in a relationship.
     
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    Hi there and welcome to the mansion!
     
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    Welcome hope you find what you are looking for
     
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    Welcome to our community. I hope you find it helpful and enjoyable.
     
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    Welcome to CM! I trust that you will find a group of non-judemental folks here, of all persuasions, to share and learn with you.
     
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    I understand just where you are coming from. My situation is different, but at the same time very much a like.
     
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