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    please Miss Breathe I dont really know what has happen to you but I know that you seem sad and I hope that what has happen will go away quick and that you get happy again ever so soon.
     
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    If you ever need someone to talk it out with please feel free to contact us and my wife will talk with you. Being on this site is almost having the biggest family in the world.
     
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    @Breathe , I never really interacted with you, but I have read several of your threads and comments. I've also "listened" in on some of the chats that you were a part of. Always well thought out and not critical of others. Your absence will leave a void of compassion. I can't say that I know how you feel and hope I never do, but I can say that even being male, I do not understand some men's need to wander. For me, I guess that I do know somewhat of how I would feel if the situation were reversed, and I would not wish that on anyone else. Maybe your sharing will wake up some of the thoughtless/insensitive males on this site and help them appreciate what they have. Stay strong and good luck.
     
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    #29 Obsequious, Feb 26, 2019
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    Dearest Breathe,
    No words can easy the pain that you are likely feeling! With that said, all I can do is use words. If my understanding of what you posted is correct (I think it is) my heart goes out to you ten fold! I have read and followed so many of your writings. I have visited your site, which you know from my previous communications with you. You speak eloquently, intelligently and quite openly. You put yourself out there in ways that leave NO QUESTION that you are in 100% with your pet and your marriage. I cannot say I understand how you are feeling, because I cannot. All I can say is by what I read YOU are the dream wife/KH and offered Pet things most men (me for sure) can only dream of.
    I don’t want to be long winded...just know that being a male who places women on pedestals I can only say...I DONT understand what he was or is thinking! Hurting you as he did is horrible and he should be ashamed! I’m going to keep both of you in my thoughts. I’m pulling for you and pet in hopes that what you “have” is still strong enough to recover from this very sad time!
    I’m sure you hear this all the time...but my ears are always open if you need someone to vent on or just want a sincere mature males opinion.
    Be Well Breathe!!
    God Bless!!

    MOD NOTE: Post fixed
     
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    @Breathe I saw a new photo you just posted, wow your smile is just magnificent, and wondered what’s happened for you and the relationship since all this time that had passed since these posts.
     
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    Breathe Be true to yourself

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    Thanks for the compliment and inquiry, @Lakeman. In a word? “Lots.”

    Hmm… How to condense two years in a meaningful way, without penning a novella? I’ll give it a whirl.

    ---​

    I committed to a cause and fought for love to conquer all. I lost myself for a while in this war but didn’t know it at the time.

    Words and actions were not aligned. Sleep became elusive as I sought answers. I openly addressed my concerns. Grand promises of change and cascades of affection were given to me in return.

    I was relieved for a time, despite a strange hollow in the room I couldn’t quite pinpoint. I decided to trust and continued working on our marriage.

    I started to feel better. I allotted more focus to myself, friendships, and connection. I was writing. I was working out and feeling healthier. I was smiling again.

    Selfish chaos soon derailed my efforts. “Why is he so upset?” I bargained with the pit in my stomach as most of my focus returned to us. I didn’t understand.

    Further transgressions were discussed then excused or forgiven. I felt my confidence slowly erode alongside my passion for life. I stopped connecting with family and friends. I still didn’t understand.

    Then… I discovered the actual truth he’d been hiding. I saw the vast emptiness behind his mask when I confronted him. The reality was far worse than I ever suspected. I finally realized this was abuse. At last, I understood.

    I became despondent. I was quarantined with my worst nightmare. Yet, that discovery came with so many more.

    I was in anguish… but through that pain, I became aware. I took a long, hard look at myself. I woke up and remembered my worth.

    I reconnected with my support system. I started to return the compassion that I extended to him for so long, back to myself. He protested. I didn’t give in. He tried to punish me for daring to value myself in this way.

    I drew a line in the sand that was long overdue. I told him the game was over, kicked him out, and filed for divorce at the end of last year. I started rebuilding my life, slowly but surely.

    These days? Despite a few battle scars… I am free.

    And I’m smiling again.
     
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    I hope you are better now
     
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    Very touching. I'm sorry for that. Happy for you to smile again.
     
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    I am glad you found happiness again.

    You went through hell and come out stronger in the other side.

    I raise my Coffee cup to you in salute.

    Iso.
     
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    So happy you found happiness.
     
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    I hope all goes well for you
     
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    These are powerful, and positive statements that show the best kind of progress. Going forward, never forget what these mean to you right now. Compromising them should never be an option.

    You have many people that care, thank you for the update.
     
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    So happy having news from you!
    Always enjoyed your posts very much!
    Welcome again!
     
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    You sound like one hell of a woman Breath, I hope you find someone worthy of your love but until then enjoy life and maybe have fun in your local fetish community (fetlife.com is good for events near you). There are some good guys out there i hope one finds you or you them.
     
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    Glad it all worked out for you!
     
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    Ok, well that’s great that things are looking up for you. I’ve seen divorce really people’s confidence around, it seems you have every reason to be a very confident (and powerful) woman. Some fella is going to be very lucky to meet you sometime.
     
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    Sissycaitlin77 locked sissy slave.

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    Miss Breathe.

    I'm so sorry that happened to you I wondered what was going on but didnt wanna ask obviously wasnt my business but I'm so glad your getting thru it and being your amazing wonderful self we all know you are again great news.!!! Keep on smiling miss Breathe and please keep being your sexy self and never stop being kinky aswell hehehehe. All the best,

    Sissy caitlin..
     
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