Rachels Trip

susie happy to report no problems with the truck on the way home. thank you for the good wishes.

MM's sweetpea
rachel

 

Thursday,

i cooked breakfast as is normal. Then Mistress told me my schedule for the day. i was tired just from hearing everything i was to get done. Clean the bathroom, dust and sweep the whole house. This may not sound like much but there is not one shelf or dresser that is not covered with nick knacks. Mistress then told me to change into the maids outfit that is in my avatar as that is what she wanted to see her sissy cleaning in. After getting changed i set about my work starting with the bathroom. i get pretty anal when it comes to cleaning a bathroom and Mistress' is quite large. i started by putting all the towels in the washing machine. Then went about cleaning the rest. When i was just about finished Mistress yelled let's go rachel or you are not going to get all this done today. At least this time i didn't respond by saying Mistress do you want it clean or do you just want me to tell you it is. Instead i was just a simple yes Mistress and i lit a fire under my ass so Mistress wouldn't have a reason to light one on it later. i got the cleaning done in plenty of time and even got the clean towels hung back in the bath. i was then to hang all her paddles on her bedroom. ALL being the operative word in that sentence as you will understand later. While doing this i dropped a mirror that had some sea shells on it. Mistress happened to be in the room when this happened. She remarked that didn't sound good. When i picked it up it wasn't broke though. i thought phewww. Then i saw a really tiny seashell was knocked off of it. When i showed it to her she said that's hardly worth getting a paddle down for but she did anyway. i was quick to remind her it was only a small shell. We both had a good laugh at that then she delivered a blow to one of my tender cheeks and all of a sudden she was the only one laughing.

Mistress then had me change into the new strapless maids outfit she was so kind to give me. At some point she told me to go out and get the mail out of the box by the road. When i got back she ask me if i enjoyed that. my reply was a part of me enjoyed it quite a lot. Mistress laughed at this and i felt good inside at bringing Mistress some joy. We had ribs on the grill which were not as good as usual but still quite tasty.

After dinner Mistress got another massage. Then she put me in the bench again. When she came out of her bedroom from getting the rimba she said, RACHEL DIDN'T I TELL YOU TO HANG UP ALL OF MY PADDLES. Yes Mistress. Well i was gonna take it easy on you tonight and use something softer but as you didn't hang up this paddle I figure this is the one you want me to use. BIG CRAP i thought next time double check your work. Though i know she wasn't it surely felt like she was hitting me with the strength of the mighty Thor. Then she hooked up the rimba. Mistress is a master with a rimba and as much as i dislike some of the settings i love the others. On Saturday night Ms. Rob had the controls to her tens and for the most part it was quite enjoyable. Ms Rob please take no offense at this as it's just that you don't know my limits as well as MM. This night was quite different. i had never been Rimba'ed in the bench before at the hands of Mistress Michelle. She would put it on a setting i call needles cause that is what it feels like to me then increase the power to where it was all i could do to stand it. i would be begging and screaming for her to stop and just when i thought i was gonna have to use my safe word she would stop. Just how she knows where that point is i don't know but she got there every time. Then she would put it on a setting that i like and bring me back off the ceiling but not for nearly long enough as far as i was concerned. How long i was there i have no idea but when she told me the rimba gave out i was kinda glad for the first time in my life. It is so much more intense when you can't move. i can't even begin to describe the feeling i had.

The 3 of us sat around for a bit then it was time to get to bed. i was in the kitchen with Mistress when i heard rick making his way to the bedroom when he yelled to Mistress SEND THAT SLUT INTO THE BEDROOM I AM FEELING PRETTY GOOD TONIGHT. Mistress turned to me smiled and said well you heard him get going. i hung a do not disturb sign on the door knob after i went in knowing full well that Mistress would just laugh and pay it no mind. i was hard at work, if that's what you call it, when i heard the door knob turn and Mistress entered laughing. When rick got close to the point of no return Mistress grabbed my head and pushed it down. Not that she would have had too but it did make it all the better for me kinda being forced by Mistress' hand. rachel went to sleep a HAPPY girl, smiling, having happy thoughts and moaning into my teddy bear.

MM's sweetpea
rachel

Friday to follow


At Mistress Michelle's direction we need to fast forward to Sunday. She told me to post this here for all the world to see.

When i got home on Saturday night my wife left me out for a good clean. As you all know my wife isn't really into this and she didn't tell me to re-lock so i didn't. That being said all i would have had to do was re-lock myself and the whole situation that follows would not have happened. Sunday morning i was chatting with Mistress, just vanilla stuff, in my head however i was reminiscing about my week with Mistress and rick. After we said our goodbye's i found myself quite aroused. i thought what's it gonna hurt to just touch myself. Just rubbing one finger on the underside of my sissy cock. In no time, maybe 3 minutes, i was on the very, very edge. Then i thought who will know, if Mistress ask me i won't lie to Her but what are the chances that She will and past the point of no return i went. i immediately felt guilty as hell. It wasn't even a mind blowing orgasm and it just sort of dribbled out kinda like a milking. All i thought about all day at work was Mistress and how i had betrayed the one person that accepts me for who and what i am and has done so much for me and myself esteem. When i got home i sent Mistress an e-mail telling Her what i did. Needless to say She was/is really pissed at me as i too am in myself. i had to tell her though no matter the consequences as i knew i had betrayed her and i couldn't stand myself for it. i didn't sleep well last night as i kept waking and thinking about this and the deceit i tried to get away with. It hurt me knowing that i hurt Mistress even before i told her. Now i feel a complete failure to Mistress Michelle. i just couldn't bring myself deceive Mistress Michelle. i didn't mean to hurt Her by telling Her but i couldn't lie to Her by not telling Her either.

Mistress i am truly sorry
YOUR not so perfect sissy
rachel

 

actually not i feel just as bad now.

not a huge enough step i am afraid. i have damaged the one relatioship in my life that means the most to me.

Well i didn't expect the outcome to be what it is. i am no longer special to Mistress Michelle.

choose your friends wisely cynthia and at the moment i am not a wise choice. Right now i only want back the one friend that i seem to have lost.

rachel

 

susie and cynthia,

Thank you both for caring and the kind words. i can't stop crying, This hurts like nothing i have experienced ever before. i no longer have a reason to get up in the morning or someone special to put me to bed at night. i miss Her soooo.

rachel

 

5 better words i could have never heard.

i bet this is gonna leave a mark. Mistress has switched me only once before and it is not fun in any way, shape or form.

The waiting is the hardest part. i wish i could drive down there today just to get it over with.
Sometimes real life does not work out like the fantasy i had in my sissy head. No matter though i just don't ever want that lost lonely feeling that i had yesterday ever again. Moving on now, looking back but also continuing forward. Normally i would try to say something funny here but i see no humor in this.


MM's not so perfect sweetpea
rachel

 

Cynthia please feel free to speak your mind to me. i enjoy reading what you write and you seem to the sensible one among the at times not so sensible one in this thread. If you don't feel comfortable saying it in the forums write me privately. You my friend seem miles ahead of me on this journey and you input is of great value to me.

What i have learned is that i AM NOW OWNED.i have spoke those words in the past but through all of this i have discovered that i can no longer exist, at least happily, without Mistress Michelle. i agree with you that i must show this in daily action and will keep this foremost in my mind henceforth. It will not escape my memory EVER it is burned there like a brand on a calf.

Less likely? More like WILL NOT.

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Thank you for the compliment. To me this is a place to be amongst friends and friends get to hear the good and bad parts of your life.

Your friend
rachel

 

Why you should always put your things away.

i am being disciplined today by Mistress Michelle for failing to put my things away like a good sissy should. The first reason you should put your things away is so you don't find yourself on your knees, wearing nipple clamps writing a 200 word essay and finding it very hard to concentrate. You see i have a very special necklace that i am to wear when Mistress Michelle spend and i time together. i had it on Wednesday and forgot to take it off before i went bowling. Mistress didn't mind this too much and actually thought it was kind of cool when i told her i got some strange looks at bowling but i didn't know why till i realized when i got up Thursday morning and still had it on. Then Thursday i had my cam on as i was dressed at home in a pantsuit that Mistress was so kind to give me and i forgot to put the cam away before my wife came home. So you should always put things away where they belong as not to cause any problems. It is a sissy's duty to keep her house neat as a pin and not leave things laying around where they don't belong. (206) It is also easier to clean your house if everything is where it belongs as you don't have to stop your work to put things where they belong and this will make you a much more efficient sissy. Efficiency is what we must practice if we are to get our chores done in a timely manner. Getting our chores done timely is important to a sissy as it leaves more time to attend to any other needs Mistress may have. Like :chores011:,:chores004: or:chores010: instead of kneeling here writing these kinds of essays with a searing pain in your nipples. So girls ALWAYS BUT ALWAYS PUT YOUR THINGS AWAY WHEN YOU ARE DONE WITH THEM(321)

MM's sweetpea
rachel with sore nipples hoping Mistress hurries back to get her out of this predicament rachel got herself into

 

i will be focused all day Mistress not on work but most likely on YOU but it is focus just the same.

In case anyone was wondering why we all love Mistress Michelle now you know. She is always willing to spend whatever amount of time it takes to teach us the proper way to think, dress and act. In return we should be as dedicated to her as She is to teaching us.

YOUR sweetpea
love rachel

 

Well said as always Mistress.

Cynthia you see Mistress laughs a lot when she does these things to me and once you hear her laugh you will know why i am willing to be her amusement. Even though i wasn't with her this morning i could hear her laugh as if she was standing right beside me. As Mistress said when i see her again it will not be for her nor my amusement and her attitude or mine will not be the same. Amusing Mistress is something we both get enjoyment from what i will receive when i am in her presence again will be quite the opposite of amusement.

MM's sweetpea
rachel

 

Sitting back laughing thinking, look at what poor cynthia has gotten herself into now. i only wish i could be there to witness you hearing MM's laugh.

MM's sweetpea