The Noose Tightens

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    I am amazed at your commitment to serve, both as a butler and submissive. I applaud you both.
     
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    Clean Living My Lady enforces complete submission and service

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    Thanks for all the responses re: reading this thread.

    Dylan57, NoloMeTangere, hardbodysub, RC-Oz, tecolote, Homebody. I’ve been plenty busy, but it’s nice to know you’re reading and enjoying it. There have been some twists and turns, but it’s mostly all good (CV-19, not so much). In some ways it’s helped make our little enclave of a Lady and her butler easier to enjoy as we focus on life inside the walls of our ‘estate’. Where opportunity opens up, I plan to write some about it. Hope everyone is staying safe, healthy and sane. Well, as sane as a bunch of kinky folks can be.:)
     
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    So do tell cleanliving. What HAS she done to tease and deny you? Has she REALLY reduced you to tears? Does she get hot telling you how denied you are? Tell your adoring fans - oh and what does she think of my 30ish friend's aim of total chastity for her husband to be?
     
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    When I was under consideration for service to a pro-Domme Mistress last year and she was asking me early on about what I was into, I sent her a couple of links in addition to our conversations to help illustrate my thoughts and this thread was one of them. Clean living's trials and Mrs Clean Living's approach seem like a beautiful tale of love, sacrifice and devotion. The more evolved Female civilizing the less disciplined male. And that's the best any of us can hope for imo.
     
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    Our ritual

    A couple posts back I referred to our ritual. Some time ago, my Lady wrote me a note that included this paragraph: "...you must come find me, kneel, kiss my feet, then thank me again for agreeing to be your Lady. Finally, I want you to petition me to grant you four things: 1) To keep you locked up for the rest of your life; 2) To always keep you in a butler’s uniform befitting serving a Lady; 3) To supervise and enforce your health and fitness (I like my lean butler!); and 4) To punish you any time you fail to please me in any way, at my discretion. Still on your knees, ask me for each of these four things sincerely and with humility."

    The way things have shaken out, she has me do this whenever she feels she'd like to hear me 'renew my vows'. Now, she has taken to having me ask for these things when I'm in the Pussy Worship position - in full butler dress, kneeling between her thighs, hands cuffed behind. It so reliably turns her on to have me affirm my submission this way that it almost always has led to extended oral after she has agreed to provide oversight, control, and strict enforcement of her expectations. As I ask the four questions, I can see her become more flushed and aroused with each one. For her, foreplay; for me, devotion and mild torture. I'm always in 'cage rage' by the time I've asked all four questions, which makes the oral worship that follows all the more trying.

    I marvel that she has devised this and that it serves both our needs so well. It's a great treat we give each other. She provides the locks, I provide the Worship!
     
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    ‘For you, it’s non-Independence Day!

    We celebrated - such as it was - on the 3rd. For the day of, my Lady declared me caught up with chores and told me to go strap myself down on our bed, in full butler dress. With the tie-down straps we use, there’s no escape once things are pulled tight. Pretty soon after I had done so, she appeared and undid my pants, then produced the key to my device. ‘Today’s another day you get to come all you want!’, she declared. She whisked my Jailbird off for ‘sanitation’, then returned to play with her property.

    She did this to me once before, where I was so, so desperate to come by the end - but was not granted permission. This day was no different; I was left there most of the day for her use whenever she wanted, or for many visits, she simply got me as hard as I can get, then stopped each time. I was quite vocal about wanting this to be the day, so ready, yet she would only say ‘It’s all about me’. She acted insulted that I would focus on wanting to come myself, a mind game she likes to play with me.

    This kind of treatment makes me bat-shit crazy, especially when part of the day includes servicing her with a dildo gag and my tongue. Having her come right in front of my eyes, her juice and smell all over my face, does a number on me. Especially when she stands up, exclaims how good it felt, then leaves me there. When we started doing stuff like this, it felt like she was doing it mostly for me. Now, she clearly enjoys it. She laughs when she leaves me hanging and thrashing at the straps. This went on for hours, to the point I was stiff and cramped from the enforced spread eagle.

    When she brings my device and a bag of frozen peas, I know I’m (non)fucked. Sure enough, she undid my hands and closely supervised me locking backing up. Begging only gets a determined look in response, and/or a broad smile. Just another holiday with a Lady and her butler in quarantine.
     
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    Thanks for the update, as always very entertaining as I am sure your Lady intended it for her to be.
    Putty in her hands you are!
    Next time you find yourself in this predicament, don't get your hopes up.
    Lovely rabbit hole.
     
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    Her taste, her scent, her cream....they all make me crazy with thwarted desire.

    My wife dislikes intromission, but the idea of having her sit on my face using a dildo and creaming all over my face (she gets very, very wet) would make me lose my mind i think.
     
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    So what's up Cleanliving?
    We're anxiously awaiting the latest news from the front lines.
     
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    Just told my Princess about this, She is intrigued
     
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    My Lady consolidates her control over her devoted butler.

    I haven't had time to write much, as my Lady has become quite strict and demanding. She's nothing like the whip-wielding, leather-clad BDSM porn figures that saturate the interwebs, but her authority is unmistakable and I am her subject. Sweetly, matter-of-factly, yet with great strength she is molding me to her will and exacting all that I have to offer. In one of the masterstrokes of her assuming the Lady role, she has me beg her regularly to keep me locked, dressed to serve, and strictly supervised. Part of the genius of this is that it has become a ritual that turns us both on, and it reinforces my submission.

    Recently, she emphasized that I will be indeed locked for life, to see freedom only at her whim and when she wishes to award it to me. She had me take the counter off my CM posts, as she does not want either of us thinking about how long since the last unlock or orgasm, or how long until the next one. 'That's solely for me to decide,' she said, 'This is what you wanted, and as I see how well it serves both of us, I'm not inclined to change anything.'

    Her tease/torture has become skillful and pervasive, driving me insane one drip at a time. An environment where she has the orgasms for both of us has become the new normal. Early on she noted how my 'uniform' of a butler - faultlessly attired - contributes to my arousal within the cage of denial. She has become very fussy about every detail being observed, and exceptions to serving while dressed as her manservant are few.

    I have cried from the frustration at times; she is sympathetic, but is staying the course. To be honest I see that it is something we both want, although I didn't come close to appreciating what I was getting myself into. She will pat my locked Mr. Happy sympathetically, which just cranks it another turn for me before I'm left locked and given my next assignment. Pleasuring her physically and with my service is fulfilling and joyful most all the time. As for those times when I want out, she enjoys noting that is what locks are for.

    In a development I suspected was coming, my Lady is requiring me to withdraw from posting here or interacting with folks from CM. 'It takes away from your service and focus. That should be centered on me,' she pointed out. She has given me until Halloween to wind things up. She plans to continue reading on CM and other sites, and will send me material she wants me to read. I'm not being forbidden from interwebs usage altogether, but she has made it clear she will be keeping track...
     
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    Yikes! Glad it is blossoming and you are accepting your role. Hope she lets you check in from time to time...
     
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    Another valuable voice is to be silenced! I do hope that she will let you update us if anything noteworthy occurs. Good luck, Clean
     
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    Well, we'll miss your lady's work and yours. She has touched several lives through your posts, but all good things must end. Be well!
     
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    I hope she reconsiders and understands how much you inspire other locked husbands. Your contributions (and hers) have been invaluable. Hope to see you around.
     
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    I have enjoyed reading your story. I you and your wife stay happy and fulfilled. Thanks for sharing. I hope you will occasionally post to let us know how you are doing. Stay safe and healthy. Thanks
     
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    She is taking yet another piece of your ever shrinking freedom. Clean living you are no match for her ability to control everything including your ability to share what you are experiencing.
     
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    I keep coming back and rereading your journal, hoping that I misread the part where the decision was made for you to discontinue your entries.
     
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    My Lady has given me permission to return to posting in CM

    A year ago, my Lady directed that I not post here, upon pain of punishments ‘you do not want to experience’. As her devoted butler and sex slave I of course obeyed. Lots has transpired during that year, cementing my submission and obeisance to her. I love my Lady and the life we have created together. She told me she likes what she sees, and furthermore sees that at least a few members here liked my posts, so she has chosen this Halloween to grant me permission to resume posting here.

    I’m not sure what I’ll be writing about or how much; it’s possible my Lady will give me assignments. She will decide whether/how long posting can continue as she feels the need. One thing that happened soon after I stopped posting last year was a PA piercing. She and I were very careful to see healing through, and she is now assured that the chance for any ‘cheating’ is nil. That kind of absolute lockup is a new level of submission and control, giving full assurance to my Lady that anything beyond peeing that happens with Mr. Happy is totally up to her.

    It feels good to be back at it, and we’ll see how it works out. I hope my fellow CMers are fulfilling their chastity dreams.
     
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    Welcome back. I look forward to reading your posts.
     
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    Yes welcome back
     
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    Welcome back! Looking forward to reading about your journey!
     
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    Welcome back. I've missed you. Congratulations on your piercing and your submission to an iunescapable chastity device, and on another year of love and service to your wife.
     
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    Welcome again! Although we do not know if this permission is granted by your Lady permanently. Hopefully your Lady will allow you to share the relevant experiences of the past year with all of us to understand and improve ourselves to become all better servants to our Love's.
     
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    Hi Cleanliving!

    I'm very happy to hear that your Lady has allowed you to post again. Surprised, but glad.

    If she allows, tell us of some of your adventures in submission, and congratulations to her in cementing her control via the piercing.

    I'll tell my wife that you're back on. She'll be very interested in your Lady's program and progress.
     
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