New here so thought I'd say hi. I've considered myself submissive for a long time and am finally trying to gain the confidence to act on it, so be gentle ;p
I know what you mean. I've had opportunities to meet dominant women before over the years and wussed out. I used to put myself down for it, but I've come to terms and know to learn from my mistakes now. Plus I think the times I got scared and bailed I must have seen a red flag, so it could be for the best that I wait for the right moment and person you know. I've been soul searching over the last couple of years and am becoming more confident now, so I do want to make an actual effort to find something now, just takes time.