Agony in Exctasy...Life is sweet beneath the foot of heaven.

Goddess Chris, i am also a CBT whore, i guess you could say. The only problem is, my Goddess does not particularly like to hurt me. I wish she got more enjoyment out of it. She has, however, ridden me and smacked my balls because she knows i like it. I would love her to ride me hard and tell me not to cum. I would also like to lick up my mess but she hasn't seemed too keen on that either. Although I came on her back last night and without asking, just licked it up. She made some positive sounds as i did it but didn't say anything about it. we'll have to wait and see if that develops into something she's interested in.

So last night was somewhat 'nilla as far as sex goes. It was our anniversary but we had the little ones and they werent coorperating too well with sleeping. Eventually we did have sex, for quite awhile. Goddess came 6 or 7 times and i came 4 times, including the last one on her lower back, while i sat on her ass. She wanted to cuddle after. I asked her if she thought she would want to lock me up until saturday (hotel for anniversary). She said she probably should because she suspected I hadn't been too good the past couple of days since being released. I admitted i had masturbated a few times (she still hasn't ordered me not to masturbate when i'm out). She added "and you've been an ass!" to which i had no rebuttal. Then she said, "yes, you need to go put it on right now." so i hurried away and stuffed myself into my cage and came back so she could lock me. As soon as that lock clicks i feel so relieved! It's still strange to me. I just laid down and held her, so calm, so at ease knowing I don't have control of my cock anymore. So i'm in for the next two days. I know that's really nothing but i'm glad to be locked up again. Now i just have to show her how good i can be when i'm locked up. Time to make sure my attitude is cleaned up as well as the house!

 

Oh, i also wanted to mention something i can't believe i haven't before. I dont know if anyone is aware of the book "The Multi-Orgasmic Man" but it is very closely related to chastity in some ways. Basically, it teaches a man to be able to have sex as long as he wants without cumming. After awhile he can achieve internal orgasms, similar to what women experience (unless you are a lucky one who has female ejaculations.) The training requires him to stroke himself to the furthest point of stimulation and then stop and focus on saving the orgasm. So, if you want your pet to do this, you might have to supervise these training times. It could also be a fun new aspect to the games that are already being played. So the point is, you can train your sub to give you as many orgasms as you want without worrying that he will blow his load. I read it a few years ago and within a couple weeks was able to have sex forever and have multiple internal orgasms without any ejaculation. Thus, there is no let down where you get tired and lazy. Of course, i was controlling the sex for the most part. If you wanted to make him cum, i'm sure there would be little he could do about it. But the training is almost like self tease and denial. You have to edge yourself over and over again but the book describes in detail the techniques to use to continue when you normally would cum. Just thought i would mention it. :innocent0002:

 

Well, i think i deserve a hard spanking as well. I'm sure that's why I did it and why i wanted her to know about it. However, she did not punish me. (although it did get me locked up again) She just doesn't really seem to want to punish me. She likes to talk about it but never follows through. I think it just seems cruel to her and she doesnt quite get the fun part of hurting me. I'm sure she could get into it if she would try it more. She does enjoy twisting my nipples or smacking my balls during sex but she has never wanted to bend me over and give me a good spanking. Last night when she told me to cum on her she said, "don't get any of that in my hair or i'll have to spank you hard." I then said, "hmmm, then maybe i'll get some in your hair." (I was feeling brash from being free for the past two days) she said "no, i will spank you and i'll make sure it hurts and it will NOT be fun! trust me!" then she added, "I will grab a whip, lift your cock and beat your balls too!" Then i got a little in her hair and she did nothing. She seemed into it when she was threatening me but just didn't do anything about it. I assume at some point she will do it and hopefully will find the pleasure in it that you do. Although I have fantasies of being spanked hard but haven't had to actually endure it at the hands of someone else. :sex020:I take pain pretty well though so i would really like for her to punish me this way. She's new to all this so I am being patient with everything. I think at some point she will get fed up with some of the behavior and decide to punish me.:sex007:

 

Yesterday i was in chicago on business so i was about 3 hours away from my KH/Wife. This was a little scarier than when we are working 5 miles from each other. But it was exhilerating to know i had way to get out at all till i was back with my Goddess. When i returned home I found my wife with a little extra confidence than i am used to. She informed me that she read more of the book i gave her and understands now that she has control of everything i do. My cock instantly swelled inside my cage, to the point of having to bend forward to relieve it. She also said that she really likes the power but does not want me to wear this all the time. So she said she thought she had worked out a system for now that would give her some balance. She will only lock me up from Thursday morning till Saturday whenever she decides to release me. I will not be let out for any reason on thursday or friday and I am not to masturbate Sunday through wednesday at all, for any reason. She said she would have to punish me if i did this. I got excited, thinking spankings or more lock up time. But then she said it. "I will not kiss you for the remainder of the week whenever you masturbate and i will ignore you for one full day." My heart sank and yet it excited me. She truly knew what she was doing. Spanking would have caused me to jack off in order to recieve the punishment. more lock up time would have gone against her own schedule for chastity. And there is NO WAY i could stand to be around her while she ignores me and not being able to kiss her for a week would devastate me. I am aftraid though, of screwing up because i do not want her to enforce this punishment on me. She could see how displeased i was with her punishment and i could tell it pleased her. she said "boy, you will be so happy once thursday rolls around and i lock you up, won't you, after having to keep yourself chaste for 4 days." I said yes and i thanked her. she said we may or may not have sex during the week while i am out, it is up to her. She also informed me that we would not be having sex last night and i would be rubbing her back for at least an hour. I treasured this time of rubbing her back. she teased and taunted me slightly periodically, saying "awwe, it's just so sad that your all locked up with no pussy for a home." and she would touch herself and rub her ass up against. me. then she mounted me and made out with me for awhile before saying it was time for bed.

I am so excited to see her take charge like this. even though i will be out for 4 days a week, she will still be in charge by controlling my orgasms. And the fact that she is doing it all on her terms and her rules instead of what i might have wanted if i was making the rules really turns me on. I mean, that's the whole point, right? Today we are going to a hotel and spending our first night without the kids in 4 months. She said we are going to have a TON of fun, and that i would just have to wait to see what all that means. I can't wait to make her breakfast when she gets up and spend the next 24 hours completely alone with her. I am now well on my way to becoming her full time submissive. well i'm off to :chores011::chores012: so thatlater i canbe :smilies_xxx02:

 

We had such an amazing time! One of the best days of my life! I can't post about it right now as I am at the parents for dinner but I will be sure to let everyone know about it when I have a chance. One tidbit, she has me wearing the pink panties today that she wore all day yesterday. My Goddess is the best! No offense to the other Goddesses.

 

Well, i can't possibly go into every detail of Saturday but i'll try to hit some of the highlights. Goddess and I checked into the hotel around noon and went out to the bar for some food and drinks. When we got back, I drew a bath in the hot tube and bathed Her and gave Her backrubs for awhile. I was still locked in my CB. She asked me if i wanted her to lick me. I nodded and she bent down and unlocked me, sliding the sheath from my cock. She had me sit up on th edge of the tub. She grabbed me tight around my cock and balls and stared at me and said, "You DO NOT cum, you understand?" Under waves of deap breathing i mustered up a shaky "yes, Ma'am." Her mouth felt unbelievable. I felt like my mind was going to explode, not to mention something else! Finally, i Had to beg her to stop so that i did not cum. She smacked my balls a little and said, "time to get out, it's my turn now." I dried her off with a towel and we laid on the bed. As usual, she directed my hand to her clit. I think i am getting much better and rubbing her the way she likes. She immediately began arching and moaning and soon came to orgasm. She said, "you may lick me up now and make me cum again with your toungue." I quckly got my face between her thighs and very slow, methodically began licking her. I traced every inch around her lips and above her clit. I spent a lot of time everywhere but where she wanted for awhile until she seemed to almost get frustrated, then i licked and sucked her clit until she was almost thrashing on the bed. I am lucky to have a Goddess that is able to ejaculate (or squirt as they say). She has to be pretty worked up for this to happen and she was this day. With my mouth cupped over her pussy, she blasted her cum into it. I sucked and slurped, swallowing every bit i could. Her breathing calmed down slowly and then she just began laughing. She looked euphoric. She went on to tease me the rest of the day. making me watch her masturbate, having me lay an inch from her pussy for a half hour while she watched tv. telling me to stroke myself for 10 mintues without cumming. She loves to have me put my balls against her pussy and she rubs her clit with the skin of my balls because she says it is so soft. It drives me crazy. At one point, She blindfolded me, then she got on the bed and said. "I need you to lick my asshole. come over here and find it without using your hands. after fumbling around and looking like an idiot (she was giggling at me) I began licking her ass. She doesn't ever ask me to do this. I always have to ask her. She was never more into than she was this time. She was on her hands and knees and she rubbed her clit while she pressed back into me, driving my tongue into her. She came really hard and kicked me back against the headboard with her foot against my chest. One of the hottest things i've ever seen. Well, i actually couldn't see it cause of the blindfold. We had sex a few times without me cumming while she had multiples. It was so great. while we watched tv, she just sat and played with my cock and balls like they were toys, occastionally flicking or smacking me in the nuts. At one point she looked over and saw me smelling her panties and she whacked me good in the balls. the hardest she's ever done. I immediately dropped them and apologized. It hurt in my stomach and still turned me on so much, my heart was pounding. after dinner that night we had sex and she let me cum inside her. It was intense and seemed like a came forever. then i asked if i could clean her up. She said, "mmm, i dont think so, you just came in there." I said, i really want to if it's ok with you." she looked reluctant and then said, "ok, go ahead." I dropped down and sucked all the cum and juice from her pussy. She moaned as i used the broad flat part of my tongue to slowly lick her from her thighs to her ass to her clit. It was AWESOME! Then the next day when we went to eat dinner at my parents and pick up the kids she said, "since your such a dirty boy, i want you to wear my very dirty pink panties that are over there on the floor." so i put them on and she rubbed my cock throught he super soft shear material. "Do you like that?" she asked. I said, "yes, thank you." She kissed me and we went back to our regular life. Only now our regular life seems so much more exciting.

Total Orgasm Count:

GODDESS SARAH: 13 (10 on saturday, 3 sunday morning)
Goddess' pet: 1

She mentioned a few times how much fun she was having and said this was the best anniversary we ever had, hands down. and we didn't even leave town this year. She said she loves what this is doing for our relationship and loves the role she is now playing. She just said that her main apprehension has been that she REALLY likes it and it scares her a bit because she doesn't want to take it too far. So i told her that we will do what we have planned and just enjoy it and take things as they come. No need to worry or rush anything. She seems very happy that she is now controlling my orgasms even when i am not locked and has reminded me many times that this week i am to have no orgasms at all without her consent. She also said i may practice the Multi Orgasmic Man techniques but that i must tell her before so she can watch me do it. Then she said, "i know what kind of dominatrix i want to look like." then proceeded to give me basically a list of items to buy. Here is what we have come up with:

The Catsuit: Minus the cat ears. She may wear this with a very nice corset she already has.


The Fedora Hat: I am to add a fishnet veil to this hat for Her.


The Gloves: I think these will look hot.


The Boots: She wants these for play and for everyday.


Can't wait to see her in all of it.

 

Well, i dont know what happened. On friday i gave my wife the latex catsuit she asked for. she loved it, wore it, and we had a great night. She even spanked me and seemed to enjoy it. she just dominated me in so many ways and it was like a dream come true. Then yesterday she drops a bomb on me. Says she just doesnt think she can do this anymore and its just not her. That she's been trying so hard to do it all for me because she knows how much i want it but she doesnt really get anything out of it. I thought we were being totally honest with each other the whole time. i'm just floored. She said the chastity things is just strange and she doesn't understand it really. She says she doesn't want to do things to me that physically hurt me either and that she doesn't think shes cut out to be a Mistress. She said she feels like it's just changing everything. I thought our relationship seemed tons better since we started this and she gave me every indication that she felt the same. I'm feeling crushed and depressed now. I don't really think i'll be posting anything on here again as i won't have anything to post. Thanks for everyones help and support the last couple months. I dont know what to do now. I love my wife so much and this by no means changes that. I just dont know what to do with my feelings of needing to be submissive and dominated. I feel lost.

 

Thanks everyone. I will be patient and take a solid break from everything for Her. I think she actually was into it but became overwhelmed by it, feeling like it was taking over our lives possibly. I am feeling extra down today since this all just happened late last night. I will continue to be a member here and ad what i can to the chastity community. Hopefully, in time, she will find that she misses it to an extent and revisit the scene. She was such an amazing Mistress. It seems like such a shame for her not to enjoy something she is so very natural and good at.

 

Well i have an update. Not chastity related, but anyway. My wife had kind of a crappy day yesterday so last night she wanted to have a few drinks at home. After a few Jack and cokes, the kids were in bed and we were watching tv on the couch. My wife took off her pants and was sitting in a tank and panties. She turned to me and said, "my panties seem extra dirty today for some reason, do you want to smell them." i nodded and she said, "you can only smell them, nothing else." so i kneeled down and smelled her amazing pussy. it gets me so turned on, i was instantly hard. She seems to really like it that it turns me on too. I thought all of this so far is a very good sign, she is starting to tell me what to do again. She said she wanted to watch some porn, which we haven't done in a couple of years so i threw some in the ol dvd player and sat down with her laying with her legs across my lap so i could rub them. She was on her tummy. After a bit she raised her ass and asked me to remove her panties. she arched her back and presented her pussy in front of me. I began licking as she moved, directing me to different areas, up to her ass, and back down again. I ate her pussy for about 15 minutes until she came. then she said, "fuck me, really hard, right now!" I wasted no time and made her cum two more times before it did. It was very nice. I thought this is for sure then end for tonight as she lay there wiht her eyes closed. I stroked her pussy softly and began applying a little pressure on the lower part of her mound above the clit, where her clitoral shaft is hidden (i've been reading "she comes first" very informative book). She awakened and started to moan and move a bit. Then she said, "ooh, i think that's going to make me pee a little." but she didnt say it like she needed to leave or wanted me to stop so i just kept doinng it. She repeated, "yeah, that makes me feel like i have to pee, but i dont want to get up." Now i dont know how people feel about this here but i have had some fantasies of having her pee in my mouth for some time. I never knew if this is something i would really want or if the fantasy is just appealing. But i have joked with her about it when she has to pee i say "that's good cause i'm thirsty." i've done it a few times and she always says "um, i dont think so." I made no joke this night. She then asked "do you want me to pee a little." I said yes and asked if she wanted me to lick her. She said yes so went down, pressed my upper lip firmly just under her clit, leaving it exposed for her to rub and cupped my mouth against her pussy. She immediately became extremely aroused, breathing so fast and heavy i thought she might pass out. I laid there, excited and terrified and what was about to happen, my heart racing, sucking on her. it took about a minute and then i felt her slowly peeing into my mouth. I sucked and swallowed very quickly as to not allow any to escape. She stopped for a second and then did it again, then stopped, then did it again. each time she filled my mouth and i swallowed. I know there are probably a lot of people on here that think this is gross but i gotta tell you, it wasn't at all. It tasted clean and fresh like when she ejaculates. It was an amazing experience! I've always wondered about it and now i know, and i love it. I felt soooo submissive. More than ever before. I would love for her to do it while i lay on my back. That wold be real hot. afterwards, she rolled over and said, "we never talk about this, got it?" she was feeling a little awkward about it i guess. I said "talk about what?" and she told me "good boy" and patted my head. So i guess my life hasn't gotten so vanilla after all.