truly- in love

Here's a journey that i thought would never happen. now i wouldn't say i'm a "mans man" but man enough. work in a male dominated industry with a normal working class job-grease,grim,weather,noise,etc. when you saw a woman walk by it was your typical"looks whos come to dinner" feel. been with my wife(goddess jen) for 15 years--she is my best friend--top of the pile,cats meow,etc. i knew i loved her but i always wanted that feeling you see in the movies. that can't live without,would die for--you know. being kind of emotional disconnected person i just figured this is as good as it gets for me--period. which was still great! (yes this story is going somewhere)
fast forward 3 weeks ago. i've always loved the bondage thing. men,women-didn't really matter as long as it was (for my taste)extremely erotic- i was down. we decided to get into BDSM- lightly. i like being the sub. she liked being the boss. after a couple of weeks of prep thing started to get pretty hot--i got my cb6000, she started using the strap-on on me(gently of course). bring us up to last friday-16.
her+her friends went out for the evening leaving me home alone. (normally i would watch porn and beat-off). locked tightly away in my CD things were different. i got my first assignment from goddess. watch cartoon porn(my alltime favorite) while wearing panties for 2 hours. at 20 min intervals send a pic to her phone of my lock penis in panty's.(my first night of texting) goddess and a girlfriend would then text me erotic things form each of there phones. my phone DOESN'T have a key board. so between trying to send text(we went through 190),watching porn and recieving almost none stop erotic visions from my texting duo. needless to say is was the most erotic night of my life. about half way through my legs and hands where uncontrollably shaking from the overstimulation. next couple of days i was charged--nothing could ruin my mood. who needed a orgasm when i had 2 hours of none stop teasing.

 

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19-- went to work. did some phone sexting-first time--very HOT. was walking on cloud 9-4th day in a row with a good mood(this doesn't happen--EVER) monday night--more play time.removeD the CD. she tied me up for a little teasing session the bent me over and started working the strap-on. It was so amazing-I LOVED IT. then to top it all off she gave me a great orgasm!
20--day after. just like a bomb exploded ,all that was left was destruction. after the orgasm-no more good mood,about as submissive as a pitbull. i like to share everything (always have) with my goddess-good,bad+ugly. UGLY was the word alright. told her how i felt. she was instantly insulted, after all the time she has invested in our new lifesytle. goddess took it as a pretty good slap in the face. i didn't mean it to be, but i have a gift, or lack of,tackfulness. was just amazed at how my mood would change with on little orgasm.--Punishment time. knowing goddess was upset+apologizing numerious times while trying to explain myself better i knew it was coming.sooner or later. she knows about my wording issues but i think she wanted to flex her muscles alittle.
21--at work today-still pretty quiet.wereing the CD as commanded. did some xtra chores over the last couple of days. after lunch was doing a job and my chest started to hurt. but it wasn't a hurt i've ever felt-it was a ACHE. FINALLY after all these years i got it-- my first HEART ACHE. i wanted to be by her side--scrubbing floors-shoveling shit-it didn't matter as long as she was by me. this was new and almost scary for me. i could cut someone out of my life in an instant and never look back-didn't matter who(i am pretty cold). never have i longed to be with someone like this-lusted sure--but this was so far beyond.
tonight was punishment night. had me blindfolded, on the bed ,wearing only my trusty cb6000. when she told me to take of the blindfold-i almost fell off the bed.standing in front of me,wearing a corset of latex. was MY GODDESS!! 5 slaps on the ass(last one actually stung--another surprise for me) with a spoon of my choose and it was go time with the strap-on. she rammed it home for about 45 mins. all the while playing with my encased penis asking if like to be let out. about half way through i was starting to beg for a orgasm. again legs shaking uncontrolably-had to prop my knees on the box spring so i didn't fall. SHE WAS IN CHARGE and i liked it. after that she allowed me to pay tribute to her body. i kissed +suckled her perfect breasts. then,another revalation, while smothered in her bosom i felt it--total EUPHORIA--i could tell you what my name was at that moment. all i knew was her flesh and mine. pure magic! spending eternity charishing her would be all right with me. she allowed me to give her oral (something i love to do and will for as long as she wants me) and then another tease and denial episode for me. goddess was satisfied with me and put me back in the CD--SMILING FROM EAR TO EAR-- all charge up and ready. i feel like a cordless drill. can't wait for tomorrow. truly-inlove with goddess jen.

 

with respect to all on this site--hope my story hasn't offended any one feelings. appreciate all your feed back. just a little slice of my life.:chores001:

 

22-thursday-- pretty quiet today-starting to get more comfortable in my CD at work. starting to forget it there-thats bad because i lean on things all day long and one wrong move you go a CD jammed into your pelvis. also, working along side many of the guys we brush against one another because of the close quaters. i would hate to have to explain that one. then the texting started. goddess was ready for another tease and denial session. home ,dinner,shower,movie-pant on the ground. goddess start caressing my testicles while i'm still in my cd. after about 20 min of that i'm starting to squirm. not only are they becoming hyper sensative but my cock is starting to bulge out the vent holes. she said i had been very good and could make a request. not wanting to overstep my bounderies thought i would slip a simple one in there with high expectations. requested to take my cage off. goddess ok'd. thinking BINGO BABY. goddess than continued the stroking of testys + penis. than it changed. every time i got rock hard she stopped.:anim_39: after about 5 times she let go and said to put back on my cage. well shit! so i put it back on as commanded. after getting back into the cage a thought came over me that i had apperantly missed. this penis was no longer mine- it was hers to use as needed and all i did was carry it for her.kind of reflecting on this my penis reminded of of one of those signed baseballs that you keep in the clear boxes-you know----LOOKY BUT NO TOUCHY! kind of a weird feeling that something you enjoyed so much was no longer yours to enjoy.--hear that, its TAPS playing in the back ground. what a ride this is going to be.

 

23-friday--a very grumpy day--there was no extacie in last nights adventures just frustration.goddess asked what the problem was--told her.. her reply reply was"every night can't be a ride to edge of stimulation valley. i was stroking you for my pleasure-NOT YOURS!." well there's a big eyeopener at 10am. as the day wore on it did get better.looking forward to hanging out w a co-worker sound like just what i needed. we decided to go to a bar have a few cocktails.. goddess decided she wasn't going to be left behind. she and a friend meet us at the bar. 9pm get to the bar--EMPTY-bartender,goddess,girlfriend+one local guy. after a few cocktails goddess and girl friend are doing the bump+grind. she come over and whispers if i'm ready for another teasing session. holy smokes-she brought reenforcements--girl friend is in on it--not my co-worker.they're moving the bump and grind show to my LAP! at this point i glad i glued the cage on the CD-i thought it would have split for sure. it was starting to become VERY painful- but there was nowhere to go. trying to play it cool while 2 gorgous girls are grinding on you is not going to happen. (dam i love my goddess) by now my pre-cum is dripping out the tube under my underwear(which is pushed forward because of my aching erection) and landing on my knee. don't know how much more of this i can take-good thing i had a couple. she asked me loudy if i would like to be unlocked. at this point i was going to crawl under a table if my co-worker overheard. check him for a reaction-NO movement- thank god music was loud. i answered yes goddess. to the bathroom let out of my CD when she promptly started stroking me again to erection. at that point pants go back up. back to the bar stool.little more small talk co-worker heads home 11pm. i can breath a little. bump+grind show-SECOND ACT-THE CARESS . the show returns to my lap with double the energy. goddess is caressing my now-fully visable under my pants erect cock while her girlfriend kisses my neck. trying to think of something else and not to cum in my pants in a public place(empty but bartender+local dude who were doing that corner eye watch. you know the one where your not supposed to watch a couple making out but you just can help yourself) was exhausting. i was a wreck by the the time we left 1 am.

 

24--sat--1:30 am- home finally after a VERY VERY HARD EVENING(pardon the pun).in bed ask goddess if there was anything further she required. she said YES.here we go. now i had gotten up at 5am fri. for work and we're pushing past 2am sat. to continue this.i'm not COMPLAINING AT ALL. i just just didn't realize i was so high from our earlier adventures that i wasn't hesitant at all or just starting to become TRAINED. with out getting to desciptive we'll just say--ORAL<ORAL<ORAL<intercourse to edge then ORAL<intercourse to edge then ORAL. goddess said i could cum of i cleaned her up with my tongue. now i have never done this but at this point i was in no shape to say NO. i said "yes goddess". intercourse to edge (denied) ORAL>reverse cowgirl on the under side my cock(which hurt like hell- goddess just groomed-it was like a wire brush stoking the underside of my shaft)>erection gone- rubbed raw by the time she polished off that one. doggy style ORAL(almost sufficated). and DONE- man i was bet. lay next to her after i cleaned up feeling her flesh on mine ready to go off into "FLESH SLEEP"(falling asleep hot flesh on hot flesh almost like you under a hot sun on a beach in the bahamas)- goddess loOked at me deeply and said "DINNER TIME".i was starting to stutter like a little baby. my reply was "BUT I DIN"T FINISH" she said"I KNOW"<ORAL<ORAL AND one more-you guessed it<ORAL.(i try to keep track,in my head, as kind of perfomence check to make sure i'm not slacking off).8am awake+back in CD as instructed. goddess out for the evening and i'm here updating as part of my assignment for the evening. if goddess was worried about me sneaking out of my CD and trying for orgasm---SHE HAS NO WORRIES TONIGHT,I'M EXHAUSTED. even with the nap i took this after noon. WHAT A WOMAN> :character0028:

 

xcitex2-i know exactly what you mean

chastesoon--thanks--sometimes i cant believe what's going on around here. 4 weeks ago life looked completely different.:character0100:

 

25-sunday-got another cold. :sick0026: had a few hours before i was going to take kiddie to the zoo. so used it wisely. laundry,grocery store-etc. day at the zoo was great seeing all the color changes. by mid afternoon i was wiped. chasing kid+ cold was kicking in full swing. home by 3. finished up some laundry,goddess took over baby duty(thank god-i had reached my pain threshold for the day). goddess wanted to know it i was too whipped (hahaha) to play. i would have to be in the hospital to pass this up. after kiddie put to bed- its up to the bed for another session. told to strip and given key to remove my CD(can you B I N G O!!!). then instructed to sit on floor at foot of bed with my back against the bed(kind of unusual but i learned not to ask questions). good thing i was on the floor already--goddess comes out in a crotchless fishnet body suit. WOW- is it christmas,my birthday-don't know don't care-me likey.arty-110:
goddess goes down on all fours and starts giving me the most fantastic oral ever,then stops+climbs onto HER property and starts straddling . back+forth between the two we went. only instruction was to keep looking down at my crouch. now normally i would be gone in about 2 minutes but i was so busy high fiveing myself i was able to last long enough to satisfy my lovely goddess. the end--NOT.
she put a small foot stool were i was sitting. now i'm sitting on the stool facing the foot of bed. brings out the bondage tape +hands get taped to each side+ankles to the legs. so i'm pretty much just sitting straight up but not able to move arms+legs. goddess then lays on bed face up with her feet-knees bend on my shoulders. she breaks out the rabbit and starts going to town on the lucky little bugger. now i'm about 6 in. from heaven and all i can do is watch. can you say throbbing steel between my legs. rabbit finishes in record time-little bastard to effiecent. then its my turn,<ORAL<ORAL. goddess is now satisfied woth me and untapes me. she turn around and says you've earned one.
WHAT? i had to think quickly of all the angles before i asked any questions. looking for conditions+conseqeunses of this release. so i just threw in the towel and asked straight out. "no punishment+any way i want?" figured worst that would happen is i'm out of luck,but better no luck than a red bottom or worse. i don't really want to test her discipline skills as of yet.got my answer"YEP" with a big smile. is it christmas again?arty-110:
went for standing :sex017: (i love her amazing hips). the conclusion was nothing short of incredible. know that you can finish in your own pace+time with out ant reservations. left me smiling the next day with out end.

 

deleted;; my glass is half empty attitude was coming through.

 

27--goddess worried about me getting out as i've showed her i could but said i wouldn't. we got a KSD-G3. tried the smallest-was afraid of it pushing to hard. it was too small-slid right out. the middle one seems perfect. wore it last night to bed and all day today at work. it was really nice. usually as the day wears on i get more relaxed and the cage slides alittle. this kept it pretty high and didn't really notice it digging into HER property. more like just latching on. so far so good. btw- i had to test it--no way i'm getting out of this bugger with out a power tool now.:happy0187: