My unexpected life

What an incredibly horrible day!

I for one hate rants. I always feel like if you have nothing positive to say then don't say anything. To all those people who I have ever thought that about I am terribly sorry and ask you to forgive me because tonight this little part of the world is the only place I have to vent to.

Long story short, in the past few months we have had 6 clients cancell weddings which has resulted in about $23,000 in lost revenues, today my printer went out so I could not print invoices to customers who owed me money, the router went out which in turn took down my whole network for about an hour, once that was up the DSL provider had to reset their modem which they told me needed to be replaced due to it being outdated and incompatible with my router, an album was lost by my shipping company who told me it was not their problem and that my $700 investment would have to be tracked down by the shipping company, the iPhone I just purchased will not receive or make calls and it is one of the main ways my clients reach me, of course AT&T said it is not their fault it is an Apple product and Apple said it is not their problem as I bout it from At&T thus $400 out in limbo right now with no phone, Big pontential for new contract calls and says they need a proposal via email by end of business day to day, but oh wait no internet to email it out and no they cant except fax, get home kids crying for no reason, Goddess comes home she is upset because I am obviously stressed by the day, we are now at odds, I figure lets go back to work to get something accomplished, get in car Goddess drove to day out of gas with gas warning light on, drive to studio realize I have left my keys at the house. Of course in this mess were three upset clients who proceeded to crawl up my back side over mistakes made by my vendors who, you guessed it said it was not their problem. I swear if I here that one more time before this day is over I will scream.

Well there it all is in a nutshell. Right now I just finished over 20 ounces of my special series Captain Morgan Rum to help take the edge off. I get to go in tomorrow to no internet, no phone, and a back log of work now five days or more behind. While still in lockup ironically even if I was free tonight sex, or any resemblance of it would be the furthest thing from my mind, and that is when I know I have hit my threshold.

I wish there were more to say in a positive state but I am going to end this now because this is the ONE thing that is not someone else's problem.

 

thanks everyone and please forgive me for raining on anyone else's good day. I am not sure what hit me last night I just felt like someone shoved me in a box and nailed it shut. I actually had the claustophobic effect all night. My breathing was short, my pulse was quick, and my heart was racing. I can always sense a major stress attack on my body so I thought Mr. Morgain could help, and he did. Slept great till the 4AM wood stopped by to say hi and remind me that "Oh yes" I am still locked up.

Allornowt, you cracked me up with that one. Truth be told if I was not so afraid pf prison I would have gone astray many years ago. But if I was going I woudl definitely want the steel belt all the way. LOL

Well at least the internet is back up today here so I ned to go make a dent in the studio workload. Thank you again to everyone who stopped by and added yoru words of encouragement, it is not what I was looking for but it sure made my morning. Oh and Respectful hugs back at you. Thanks guys, gurls and everyone else.

 

2 Hurdles Down

New iPhone $299, 6.4 hours of my time (potential money lost) on phone to replace a defective iPhone $320, asperin for headache $1.95, deposit for replacement iPhone direct from Apple $599, finally finding someone who knows how to handle customers-priceless!

Wow what a day finally have THAT resolved. I have never seen such a mess. Today was alos odd in the sense that I had not thought much about sex, chastity, or anything else while this mess was going on. Yet today when doing a photoshoot and having to walk around the area that damn little padlock kept clanking on my device. Although not making any sound it was enough to remind me of the fact it was there almost as if to laugh at me saying "ya buddy add me to your list" This whole lock up period has been great actually. It has taught me that I really can do without the cronic masturbation or ever third day porn visits to the internet. While I am still learning to deal with not being able to touch myself in anyway, I am sadly and almost scarily becoming used to being in the device. So much so that it does feel odd when it is not there. I am sure with my otherwise crappy attitude and both of our work schedules taking over again that has kept Goddess from her teasing and tormnting self. This I will have to say has also made the situation easier. I am sure if she had been edging or something else I might very well be doing some more groveling. Right now, I am good. Make no mistake about it however I am desperately counting down the hours now for that release, but at least I know I am going to make it.

Well back to work to accomlish something!

 

Normal?? Now there is a play on words hu? lol Well today was a so so day. I got closer to being caught up at work and had a fun parents picnic at our son's daycare.

Now as far as the chastity well the countdown is on the final hours, YEAH! :anim_65: Goddess told me this morning she was thinking of adding a day just because. I was like WHAT? I think it was then I realized that I really was ready to get out of this darn thing. Tomorrow I get to take my oldest son to his first swim lesson and I was thinking oh good I wont have to deal with this, then she said that and I was like NOOOOOOOO! Thankfully I think, hope, everything is still on track. God knows I did everything NOT to take advantage of her system so I would be truly sad to have to go there in a device.

Well I sure wish I had more to write about but truth be told I don't. Goddess has been very easy going lately and work, well work is work.

 

What in the world..

Well Goddess had an amazing turn out and sold almost everything in her little garage sale today. Problem is the day wore her out and while she honored the release date it does not look as though there will be a "release" just freedom from the device. This really sucks if it indeed hold to be the case as I was looking forward to this day for the last week, well really the last 21 but you get the idea.

Well not much else to say today, it was really tiring for everyone. Later everyone.

 

Well last night ended the way I hoped it would not but needless to say it did not affect my attitude the way I feared it might. This is great because it showed me that I had made some changes in the past few weeks. Normally this would have ticked me off and left me moody as can be for the next day. While only slightly disappointed I drifted off to sleep myself, pretty quick I might add, and woke this morning feeling good about the whole thing. I think the mindset of it being about HER is finally setting in.

Today I am just relaxing and struggling with this new area of my life. I am sensing a huge change coming on career and otherwise and while I know nothing of what it is, or even why I am having these visions, sensations, or dreams, I do know "it" is coming. For the first time I am open to whatever that change is. While I hope it is an explosion in my business to a new area of success I can't help but think it is something different. It is this last sensation that brings the greatest confusion yet at the same time, I am ready and waiting. It is all so odd right now. but I figured what better day than today to open the mind, clear out the garbage, and let the new life in.

 

Well it seems in all by business around home I forgot to get back here and update this journal. Goddess made me hold out for 23 days instead of 21. I figured it was her way of testing my self control, which is much better than in the past. However, the night we made love she told me that she wanted to stick to her little numbers game so reversing 23 only made it 32 days instead of doubling the 21 for 42. Always thinking she is! LOL At any rate we have not started the new period as of yet because she "may want to play with me some more" as she put it. Needless to say the Lori device is back in the mail and I am hoping I can at least be on my furlough here until after the weekend as I have a big wedding to handle.

Not much else to say today as I have a ton of work to get done. So until later-have a great day.

 

Wow what happened? I have no idea where the last five days went. Things are about as vanilla as vanilla can get right now. Work is killing me and the business is struggling so it is making me grumpy which of course is just making Goddess not interested in much of anything right now. We sent the Lori back in for some adjustments and I was told when it gets back if not sooner it is 32 days. At any rate once I get caught up tonight here at home I will get this updated.

 

No forgiveness needed, thanks for stopping by. Well it is definitely some uninteresting times right now. This is probably good however for right now. My 20 year high school reunion is coming up this weekend and there is just something about going to it in a chastity device that is a little less than exciting. LOL I don't know what it is but I am sure it has to do with this inner macho side wanting to say look at me, my career, and my one hell of a sexy wife! LOL

Not much else to report tonight as I am completely wiped out. I was sitting here thinking of how long the darn lawn is getting when the door bell rang and two eager kids said ten bucks to mow you lawn mister. I said hell yes and made their day. Little did they know they made mine as well.

Well that is it for now take care all. I promise to get caught up on everyone's thread here in the next day or so.

 

Well back in the saddle again. Ok clarification, not chastity, just getting back to life in general. We are in the middle of remodeling part of the house so we have been busy as hell. Work all day then at night we have been out in the new sunroom working. So far I have been allowed to be out of lockup so life is kind of boring in that regards. I am starting to see that the sex is not as important to her as it is to me. Even after meeting my goal last time it was about three or four days before we engaged in anything and now that I have been out for about two weeks she has had so much going on at work and here that the mood just has not struck us. I am hopeful as we are taking a night off that maybe we can at least connect someway.

Well Lori has the device so let's hope that she can work her magic and get me back in it for Goddess sake. She just loves the steel. Me, well truth be told that device scares me as there is just not a single way to beat it. LOL

Ok enough for tonight I am going to relax and play some XBox or something. LOL

 

Hey TJ I wish I could lay out in the buff on my deck. Unfortunately we live in a close neighborhood. I might kill the old lady next door with a heart attack or something. LOL

At any rate as you can all now see Goddess said enough was enough of the free time and had me back in lockup starting today. This time for 32 days! Where she got the number was explained above, but I did not honestly think she would stick to it. I have to agree a little with TJ here as this definitely relieves her of any sexual play for over a month. Seeing as how last stint was pretty simple and straight forward with little to no teasing I am not expecting things to be to far from that course this time. Although I do know she gets a real charge out of the lockup alone as she got all giddy when I let her confirm I was locked in.

As today was only the first day there is not much else to report in that regards. I will say it was rather difficult to get used to it again, yet at the same time felt oddly familiar. While the #2 Lori device is in for repair we have no choice to resort to the CB6K as the birdlock was truly a waist of time for us. So here is to hoping for a quick month filled with lots of work to keep my mind busy.

At any rate the home remodel is coming along great. We are converting an old back proch/sunroom into a arts and crafts room and the hard parts are now behind me. The new floor is laid and the new ceiling is in, along with the new track lighting. Now it is just a little paint and trim work and I can turn the room over to Goddess for her finishing touches as it is after all for her. Then I can move on to my room to possibly get ready to move my office back home. Times are tuff right now with all the wedding cancellations this year so we are putting together a contingency plan just in case. If I don't have to use it, well no problem we will have another room for music or fun stuff, maybe even a guest room finally. Well enough for tonight. Catch you all later.