Sorry but I need to vent! I am only 3 weeks into what is meant to be my longest lockup period yet and I am so completely desperate for release already. I know whining about it won't help but, well - I'm whining!
Like they say, be careful what you wish for! I completely understand, it is a tough thing to get over, mentally. Try to focus on her pleasure, you won't be getting any it seems Good luck! How long is this lock supposed to be?
And you already climbing the walls!!! Only 4 months to go, without any penalties for bad behavior. I think I would be doing my best to forget its so far away, and just do your best to please your KH. Or just dream that you came last night and you only have 4 months till the next one. Sorry just trying to help. Missy Tanya